11-10-2018, 05:50 AM
Listening to my loops last night I felt like my mind was trying to figure out the best way to achieve my goals. What needed to be removed, readjusted, reevaluated to get me to where I want to go. Basically not taking the running full speed into a brick wall method I've become accustomed to. Which ironically I think was a product of fear. Sometimes when I don't know how to move forward I just plunge head first into stuff without having a good plan or focus. In my mind I guess I perceive that as moving forward, but it's more like being on a hamster wheel. The energy is being burnt but I'm not getting anywhere. It's that illusion of moving away from the fear thats caused by seeing a big goal or something that seems really far off and unattainable.
I recognize not everything in life is going to be easy, but I think I do make things harder for myself than they need to be at times due to faulty patterns of thinking that set me back. Basically what I'm aiming for with USLM3 is that feeling of being pulled to my goals rather than feeling pushed. I know that seems vague. But you know that inner tension you get when you're working hard on something? That sort of frustration where you feel deadlocked and more effort seems to expend energy rather than get anywhere? That's basically what I'm trying to avoid. I'm aiming for efficiency.
I recognize not everything in life is going to be easy, but I think I do make things harder for myself than they need to be at times due to faulty patterns of thinking that set me back. Basically what I'm aiming for with USLM3 is that feeling of being pulled to my goals rather than feeling pushed. I know that seems vague. But you know that inner tension you get when you're working hard on something? That sort of frustration where you feel deadlocked and more effort seems to expend energy rather than get anywhere? That's basically what I'm trying to avoid. I'm aiming for efficiency.
INFP
