12-09-2018, 08:23 AM
I'm keeping my eyes open for the AM6 price dropping again. After sleeping on it and writing about it to a past AM6 user this morning, I realized I'd like to do AM6. My reasons were revealing, even to me.
I wrote last night, after working a half day, my norm on Saturdays. This is major since during the week, I'm getting daily interaction, which when good, I'm both giving and receiving positive words and feelings with other men.
But.....my weekends are different. I spend 75% of it home alone, seeking some regular interaction and feedback at first, which is why I write here heavily on Friday nights, Saturdays, and even Sundays. I'm so used to depending on people's attaboys and encouragements at work, and by Sunday, I'm in partial withdrawal.
When I was in my previous position with this present company, I'd take a day off work regularly. I note this since I began seeing myself as un-dependent on everyone else, and it moved me towards home businesses. Not needing people emotionally is and was my biggest draw to work from home. Money's never been a major emotional reason for me, but being independent, competent, and confident is gold in any business endeavor, whether one's an employee or a business owner. And it was and is emotionally attractive to me.
Another AM6 motivation is to change me into a confident man. I wrote and deleted my post just prior to this since I spit out and swam in self doubt. I whined, pined, and hoped someone would give me balls to move forward.
How can I model this to my daughter?
How might I ever have the nads to approach a beautiful woman, much less a wife-to-be in the future? I scream "needy".
I have no regular guy friends who I can ask for guy advice and encouragement. I don't see myself as an "equal" presently. I give off "needy" vibes.
I know it's only 5G, nor does it have FRM. But gold is gold, whether shiny and prepared, or dirty and rough. Gold is gold.
I wrote last night, after working a half day, my norm on Saturdays. This is major since during the week, I'm getting daily interaction, which when good, I'm both giving and receiving positive words and feelings with other men.
But.....my weekends are different. I spend 75% of it home alone, seeking some regular interaction and feedback at first, which is why I write here heavily on Friday nights, Saturdays, and even Sundays. I'm so used to depending on people's attaboys and encouragements at work, and by Sunday, I'm in partial withdrawal.
When I was in my previous position with this present company, I'd take a day off work regularly. I note this since I began seeing myself as un-dependent on everyone else, and it moved me towards home businesses. Not needing people emotionally is and was my biggest draw to work from home. Money's never been a major emotional reason for me, but being independent, competent, and confident is gold in any business endeavor, whether one's an employee or a business owner. And it was and is emotionally attractive to me.
Another AM6 motivation is to change me into a confident man. I wrote and deleted my post just prior to this since I spit out and swam in self doubt. I whined, pined, and hoped someone would give me balls to move forward.
How can I model this to my daughter?
How might I ever have the nads to approach a beautiful woman, much less a wife-to-be in the future? I scream "needy".
I have no regular guy friends who I can ask for guy advice and encouragement. I don't see myself as an "equal" presently. I give off "needy" vibes.
I know it's only 5G, nor does it have FRM. But gold is gold, whether shiny and prepared, or dirty and rough. Gold is gold.
I want to be FREE!
