11-04-2019, 06:58 AM
(11-03-2019, 05:53 PM)Griffin Wrote: I am sick and tired of not going after my dreams... I just feel Overwhelmed at the stuff that needs to be done.
constantly running away. play a game, watch a movie, read a book, going on hikes, listening to music.
its all a run away tactic to just not do what needs to be done... I feel I am scared of actually staring as then I can actually fail, actually have to work, actually have to take responsibility... and I feel that I might not be good enough to actually achieve what I want because I have never really achieved what I wanted to achieve.
always underachieving...
falling back into bad old habits...
I am going to uninstall all my games right now.
but... it feels that way, but not in everything, I still eat healthily, still do intermitted fasting, still on no fap, still read books on topics that are helpful. but it feels like I did all those things so it feels as if I am moving forward but I am actually not really moving forward with my most major goals, which would be to create a business so I can be financially independent and free and travel around the world, helping people for free who need it the most, (people in third world countries who can not afford help/coaching)
it feels good venting this as I have known this for a long time but not really but it onto paper.
It feels as if I am waiting for UMS to do its thing so I don't have to do the work... which is I think a very interesting resistant technique. like in : You don't have to do anything because you run UMS which will create wealth automatically for you so don't bother doing all the work.
Tips or feedback are appreciated!
Cheers
It sounds to me like you may be having some of the same issues I am. You are doing well. You see that it’s fear of inadequacy and failure that stop you from getting a start on the things you want to do. Now, you may want to start to delve into why do those fears exist in your particular case. I have been finding that if I dig to the root cause of my fear consciously, it clears. I know FRM is supposed to work in the background without us noticing, but it seems like doing some of the lifting consciously helps this version along. It does make the process easier and less painful than it otherwise would be.
