Not a whole lot to report about the cocktail hour - there must have been 1000+ people there. It was ridiculous.
We got lucky a got a table as it opened, and then the former mayor of our city sat next to us. He opened me, then got our contact information because apparently his granddaughter wrote a children's book they can't sell. He said he'd ship us one for free (we had our son with us). Kinda weird, kinda cool.
I just couldn't bring myself to give a shit to even look for IOIs. It's like no one around mattered to me.
At the game, I felt waves of heat, but didn't notice any IOIs in particular. Maybe I just wasn't looking, because I just don't really care.
That being said, that's how I've felt all day. It's like the frustration and exhaustion is beating something in me to not give a shit, because there's something in me that is ALWAYS giving a shit - in a way to be liked, to please, to gain attention. This part of me is being destroyed. I can just feel it, and right now I just feel positively scummy. I have people-apathy. When this process is complete, I don't really know what it's going to be like to be the person on the other side...
We got lucky a got a table as it opened, and then the former mayor of our city sat next to us. He opened me, then got our contact information because apparently his granddaughter wrote a children's book they can't sell. He said he'd ship us one for free (we had our son with us). Kinda weird, kinda cool.
I just couldn't bring myself to give a shit to even look for IOIs. It's like no one around mattered to me.
At the game, I felt waves of heat, but didn't notice any IOIs in particular. Maybe I just wasn't looking, because I just don't really care.
That being said, that's how I've felt all day. It's like the frustration and exhaustion is beating something in me to not give a shit, because there's something in me that is ALWAYS giving a shit - in a way to be liked, to please, to gain attention. This part of me is being destroyed. I can just feel it, and right now I just feel positively scummy. I have people-apathy. When this process is complete, I don't really know what it's going to be like to be the person on the other side...
