01-05-2017, 05:10 PM
I have been off DMSI for a week now. The last version I used, for 2 days, was B.
All week, I have been raging internally. Pushed my girlfriend away, no communication... when she tried to force communication, basically yelled at her over text message. I pushed her away so that would not happen.
Through all this, the consistent theme that's come up is that some part of me is extremely upset to be limited in the ways that it is limited. It's trying to grow and break free of those limits. I think that's what the rage is. Trying to execute the code and finding oneself tied down by all sorts of societal and other restrictions, and responding with frustration that grows into anger and rage.
All week, I have been raging internally. Pushed my girlfriend away, no communication... when she tried to force communication, basically yelled at her over text message. I pushed her away so that would not happen.
Through all this, the consistent theme that's come up is that some part of me is extremely upset to be limited in the ways that it is limited. It's trying to grow and break free of those limits. I think that's what the rage is. Trying to execute the code and finding oneself tied down by all sorts of societal and other restrictions, and responding with frustration that grows into anger and rage.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
