12-04-2016, 06:39 PM
I mentioned in Chaos's journal under-the-hood stuff going on emotionally - it's now ramping up.
I'm alternating between anger/irritability, sadness/feeling emotional, and waves of heat. Since there's a mask for negative side-effects and I'm experiencing this, I wonder how hardcore my subconscious is rewiring things right now.
To be completely transparent, my thoughts have been lingering on my wife's sister. I think about her - and it can be anything, like how we're both into Westworld, or that she's coming over tomorrow to help paint my son's room...and the feelings I just mentioned intensify.
Wondering where this is headed...A path where I get cleared of thinking about her at all, or one that may pose a DMSI-run-ending issue. Perhaps both.
I'm alternating between anger/irritability, sadness/feeling emotional, and waves of heat. Since there's a mask for negative side-effects and I'm experiencing this, I wonder how hardcore my subconscious is rewiring things right now.
To be completely transparent, my thoughts have been lingering on my wife's sister. I think about her - and it can be anything, like how we're both into Westworld, or that she's coming over tomorrow to help paint my son's room...and the feelings I just mentioned intensify.
Wondering where this is headed...A path where I get cleared of thinking about her at all, or one that may pose a DMSI-run-ending issue. Perhaps both.
