07-26-2017, 04:39 AM
(07-25-2017, 06:49 AM)RTBoss Wrote: Now I'm having a hard time going to the gym. I'm having a hard time getting out of the house AT ALL. I have that piece of mind my locked in - I can see it for exactly what it is, and how it is the very piece that's held me back from doing and being anything (achieving my dreams) my whole life. How can the mind be so split!? After all the "work" I've done on myself, how can there still be this part of my mind, so deeply rooted, that has such a firm foot on the brakes? The fear is incredible. I don't even "feel" it as much as "perceive" it as an invisible mental brick wall. It has complete control of me, and it knows it. I can figuratively feel that part of my mind laughing at me right now. "You think you have control of anything? Hahahahahahaha!"
Whatever this is, it'd rather keep me staring at the paint on the wall than getting "out there," and doing anything.
I know that identifying this blockage is a fantastic step, but now I feel really helpless, because I have no idea what I can actually do about it.
Well, first things first. I'm forcing myself right out the front door. Talk at y'all later.
I know all too well what you mean. It helps if you don't think of fear as this big monstrous entity that blocks you from success. When you do that it turns into too much of a battle and it drains you. Honestly asking yourself what you're afraid of and accepting the answer no matter how stupid or dumb it seems. A lot of this will be taken care of by DMSI, the only thing we need to do is not run away from it. We have certain fears for a reason and it might seem immature or weak to our conscious mind, but subconsciously it doesn't matter. I've noticed for myself that as I got older there was a split between what I really felt and what I wanted to feel. As the pressures from the outside world weighed down on me I dismissed that internal self more and more until it got to the point where I was self sabotaging my entire life but didn't even realize it.
