09-21-2021, 06:18 PM
Well, I think this will perhaps be one of the most important posts I have ever made (probably at least top 3). I am not kidding when I say this either. Honestly I don't know really how to explain fully what happened though I will to the best of my ability. One thing is for certain whatever level of the subconscious these subs are talking to is not something to be taken lightly.
Basically it seems this part of my subconscious has been playing chest this entire time. All these last 4 months was leading up to this one point and apparently the part co-operating was playing the long game. This is why I would say its important to stay with the sub despite resistance. The part of your subconscious that is co-operating might have a trick up its sleeve that it needs time to play. It can't do that if your constantly flip flopping or running away from your fears.
It really started with me just asking some very pertinent questions about existence and getting back down to basics really. In this case the basics were survival and such which I know sounds very different from a money sub but little did I know this was all going tie in months later. I think I said before that stage 2 for some reason gave me this sort of inner spiritual renewal type feeling. Like I was getting at some very pertinent questions about existence itself and the nature of reality sorted out. For example with the survival thing one thing that became obvious is that a lot of people have beliefs that certainly if they were out in the "wild" as it were they wouldn't have or else they would be dead. It led to this whole idea of us having beliefs that that in reality don't actually work and don't actually keep us safe. Or maybe they kept us safe at one time but now we treat it like some immutable law and it holds us back in other contexts (Jeez, this almost sounds like something in Shannon's field of work).
Another thing that came up was one of the fundamental problems us humans have. The idea that our "beliefs" = truth. Since believe our beliefs equal the truth we don't even really question them. I think the whole point of thinking of thesse things was to redefine what safety actually entails. Once I realized we have certain things we believe that out in the wild (think back millions of years ago while we were running on the plains of Africa) we wouldn't have many of the fantastical or sometimes unreasonable ideas we have now because then we would get immediate feedback on such bad ideas which sometimes entailed getting killed. This does get to a deeper meaning though of then what keeps you safe is what actually works in reality. On top of that that means you need to pursue the truth because if you make decisions based on bad information or lies (that you either heard from someone else or lies you told yourself to protect your ego) you can also ended up in an unsafe place and/or dead.
So speeding along with this over the last few months I have been really digging into the meat and potatoes underlying reality itself actually. One other conclusion I came to was to take a more praxeology based method to the world than an ideological one. Many fields of study take a Praxeology approach to things (If this is true then what are best practices?). Where as Ideologies or belief systems tend to try to force their ideals or emotions on to reality which never works really. I am here to learn the underlying principles that run this reality and once I know those best methods and underlying principles I can use them to my advantage to get to where I want to get to. I am not hear to yell at the world or reality for not being the way I want it to be or for it to accommodate me. This realization was reached maybe like a week and half ago I think.
However everything then came to a head yesterday , the 20th of September. So the night previously I was extremely drowsy which was abnormal though looking back I realize now why. It was that the sub was overcoming the most major part of resistance and it was about to play its final trick up its sleeve. So yesterday I had another one of my moments of realization I get except this was one of the most powerful ever. If I had to paraphrase the experience:
"Hey, you know all that different stuff you have realized or the last few months and have even noticed that "Belief system" = true fallacy in others"?
Yeah???
"Well funny thing is that wasn't just in the context of other people. That applies to you, here, here, here, and here"
"That can't be. - part resisting tries to make up excuse as to why its not true only to realize it already debunked that excuse when seen in other people the last few months".
"Checkmate.This whole time I was leading you on by showing you the truth from the perspective of other people but in reality it applied to you and while you were debunking all the untruths in other people you were debunking the same untruths you would sprout from your own mouth later on. So you have a choice now, either accept the truth and let go of all those things holding you back or accept the lie and now for sure you know your lying to yourself. Just don't forget what happens to people who lie to themselves in the wild. They make bad decisions based on bad information which then leads to consequence ranging from paying a small price to ending up dead. Lies don't keep you safe, the truth from a logical perspective does".
It was at this point the part resisting had nothing left. It gave in. Also unbeknownst to me this entire time that other part had been working on an I don't know how to explain it but "alternate personality"? Or it feels more like a premade personality that was built up that could be swap in for when my current one once that part of me stopped resisting. This was also done for a reason in that another thing the resisting part tried to do was I can't change because I don't know how to act that way. Problem was when i looked back on it I realized when I came to certain conclusions I had basically been saying "well if this is true then how would I need to act and how would it feel like" to which I guess subconscious I would get a taste of what it felt like to be that way which was part of the personality building up process.
So in the end I had already had experience with how it would be to feel the way I would need to feel to cooperate with he sub and how to think. So like I said it gave in and there was a kind of happiness with finally giving in. A strength to be found in letting go. After letting go I felt this different personality I guess exert itself to being the primary as the old parts at least in my minds eye , for some reason, seemed to be dissolving in acid. It was weird as I felt this kind of burning sensation over my body as if it was in acid or something (obviously not as painful or anything like that).
One other thing happened as well which i guess has to do with the new personality though I'm not sure. My frame of reference for my identity is no longer the past but the future. Its like I had already this fully version of what it would be like if I fully co-operated with the script in my mind in some future place and as I had said I felt or knew what this would be like. So i got my identity from this future version of myself and my present self is based off of that. I would say how I am now is the basic meat and potatoes of what that person is. If I could say Stage 1 would be like all the clearing is already done and there is a basic foundation for the existing building with Stage 3 being the completed version. At this point I am comfortable in saying I am basically done with clearing and I have the basic foundation as it were.
One benefit I realized from this idea of getting your identity from the future instead of the past is that you become so convinced that that is how you are that you will self fulfill in a way to make yourself that way in the end. Its almost like a motivate technique. Even now when I think of that person I want to become I can feel it in my mind. I can feel the movements of that future self and the way the wind blows through his hand for example. His feelings, his moods, his mannerism, the way he talks, and the way others feel around him. This all feels as real in my mind as anything in reality. It feels more powerful and dynamic than basing my identity on the "dead" past. In this way since my identity is based on the future I am a lot more adaptable. I can move with change and see it as my ally not my enemy. I can change myself more readily to accommodate what the future brings because the future is always in motion and since my identity is based in the future and not the past it also means "what I am" is always in motion and in flux and am therefore comfortable with change and no longer see it as "death".
One other thing I should point out and I'm not sure if this was on purpose by my subconscious though I think it was. The dates of which this started and my first day of the new me (today). Starting on September 20th...... and then today the 21st..... of 2021. I find that coincidence quite interesting. I don't know if maybe that was some inside joke or something. Either way i feel like a brand new person now. I can actually feel happy and actually feel comfortable with being happy. As if I have no longer any guilt or shame in feeling that way oddly. Once again if this is what this level of tech can do I can only wonder what the new DMSI will be like. I might have missed somethings but that was the gist of it. A total over hall of my personality and identity that was months in the making and the part cooperating was playing long term chest and the part resisting had no idea it was being led on the entire time. It thought it was in the drivers seat when it wasn't. It thought it remained unchallenged only to be blind sided later on and by itself and its own condemnation of all things. Once again I don't know what part of the subconscious this is but the fact that it planned this whole thing for months and waited for this one moment where it knew it would win.
Lastly though the funny thing is throughout the whole months I was running this sub I kept on wondering why I was having this kind of rethink of reality, its underlying principles and what is true as it didn't really have much to do with money yet but I kept on having this nagging feeling in the back of my mind at times that something huge was coming but it was being hidden from me every time I tried to search out what was going on. Now I know what that ominous feeling was and what was really going on in the background that I didn't see while the part that was resisting was being lead on.
I would just saying in closing to those still running to just keep on running the sub. The breakthru is most likely coming eventually and you just need time. Don't whimp out before you get to the finish line. At least get a Bronze medal for your efforts. If anyone has any questions or comments I'm all ears. Here's to the future people!
Basically it seems this part of my subconscious has been playing chest this entire time. All these last 4 months was leading up to this one point and apparently the part co-operating was playing the long game. This is why I would say its important to stay with the sub despite resistance. The part of your subconscious that is co-operating might have a trick up its sleeve that it needs time to play. It can't do that if your constantly flip flopping or running away from your fears.
It really started with me just asking some very pertinent questions about existence and getting back down to basics really. In this case the basics were survival and such which I know sounds very different from a money sub but little did I know this was all going tie in months later. I think I said before that stage 2 for some reason gave me this sort of inner spiritual renewal type feeling. Like I was getting at some very pertinent questions about existence itself and the nature of reality sorted out. For example with the survival thing one thing that became obvious is that a lot of people have beliefs that certainly if they were out in the "wild" as it were they wouldn't have or else they would be dead. It led to this whole idea of us having beliefs that that in reality don't actually work and don't actually keep us safe. Or maybe they kept us safe at one time but now we treat it like some immutable law and it holds us back in other contexts (Jeez, this almost sounds like something in Shannon's field of work).
Another thing that came up was one of the fundamental problems us humans have. The idea that our "beliefs" = truth. Since believe our beliefs equal the truth we don't even really question them. I think the whole point of thinking of thesse things was to redefine what safety actually entails. Once I realized we have certain things we believe that out in the wild (think back millions of years ago while we were running on the plains of Africa) we wouldn't have many of the fantastical or sometimes unreasonable ideas we have now because then we would get immediate feedback on such bad ideas which sometimes entailed getting killed. This does get to a deeper meaning though of then what keeps you safe is what actually works in reality. On top of that that means you need to pursue the truth because if you make decisions based on bad information or lies (that you either heard from someone else or lies you told yourself to protect your ego) you can also ended up in an unsafe place and/or dead.
So speeding along with this over the last few months I have been really digging into the meat and potatoes underlying reality itself actually. One other conclusion I came to was to take a more praxeology based method to the world than an ideological one. Many fields of study take a Praxeology approach to things (If this is true then what are best practices?). Where as Ideologies or belief systems tend to try to force their ideals or emotions on to reality which never works really. I am here to learn the underlying principles that run this reality and once I know those best methods and underlying principles I can use them to my advantage to get to where I want to get to. I am not hear to yell at the world or reality for not being the way I want it to be or for it to accommodate me. This realization was reached maybe like a week and half ago I think.
However everything then came to a head yesterday , the 20th of September. So the night previously I was extremely drowsy which was abnormal though looking back I realize now why. It was that the sub was overcoming the most major part of resistance and it was about to play its final trick up its sleeve. So yesterday I had another one of my moments of realization I get except this was one of the most powerful ever. If I had to paraphrase the experience:
"Hey, you know all that different stuff you have realized or the last few months and have even noticed that "Belief system" = true fallacy in others"?
Yeah???
"Well funny thing is that wasn't just in the context of other people. That applies to you, here, here, here, and here"
"That can't be. - part resisting tries to make up excuse as to why its not true only to realize it already debunked that excuse when seen in other people the last few months".
"Checkmate.This whole time I was leading you on by showing you the truth from the perspective of other people but in reality it applied to you and while you were debunking all the untruths in other people you were debunking the same untruths you would sprout from your own mouth later on. So you have a choice now, either accept the truth and let go of all those things holding you back or accept the lie and now for sure you know your lying to yourself. Just don't forget what happens to people who lie to themselves in the wild. They make bad decisions based on bad information which then leads to consequence ranging from paying a small price to ending up dead. Lies don't keep you safe, the truth from a logical perspective does".
It was at this point the part resisting had nothing left. It gave in. Also unbeknownst to me this entire time that other part had been working on an I don't know how to explain it but "alternate personality"? Or it feels more like a premade personality that was built up that could be swap in for when my current one once that part of me stopped resisting. This was also done for a reason in that another thing the resisting part tried to do was I can't change because I don't know how to act that way. Problem was when i looked back on it I realized when I came to certain conclusions I had basically been saying "well if this is true then how would I need to act and how would it feel like" to which I guess subconscious I would get a taste of what it felt like to be that way which was part of the personality building up process.
So in the end I had already had experience with how it would be to feel the way I would need to feel to cooperate with he sub and how to think. So like I said it gave in and there was a kind of happiness with finally giving in. A strength to be found in letting go. After letting go I felt this different personality I guess exert itself to being the primary as the old parts at least in my minds eye , for some reason, seemed to be dissolving in acid. It was weird as I felt this kind of burning sensation over my body as if it was in acid or something (obviously not as painful or anything like that).
One other thing happened as well which i guess has to do with the new personality though I'm not sure. My frame of reference for my identity is no longer the past but the future. Its like I had already this fully version of what it would be like if I fully co-operated with the script in my mind in some future place and as I had said I felt or knew what this would be like. So i got my identity from this future version of myself and my present self is based off of that. I would say how I am now is the basic meat and potatoes of what that person is. If I could say Stage 1 would be like all the clearing is already done and there is a basic foundation for the existing building with Stage 3 being the completed version. At this point I am comfortable in saying I am basically done with clearing and I have the basic foundation as it were.
One benefit I realized from this idea of getting your identity from the future instead of the past is that you become so convinced that that is how you are that you will self fulfill in a way to make yourself that way in the end. Its almost like a motivate technique. Even now when I think of that person I want to become I can feel it in my mind. I can feel the movements of that future self and the way the wind blows through his hand for example. His feelings, his moods, his mannerism, the way he talks, and the way others feel around him. This all feels as real in my mind as anything in reality. It feels more powerful and dynamic than basing my identity on the "dead" past. In this way since my identity is based on the future I am a lot more adaptable. I can move with change and see it as my ally not my enemy. I can change myself more readily to accommodate what the future brings because the future is always in motion and since my identity is based in the future and not the past it also means "what I am" is always in motion and in flux and am therefore comfortable with change and no longer see it as "death".
One other thing I should point out and I'm not sure if this was on purpose by my subconscious though I think it was. The dates of which this started and my first day of the new me (today). Starting on September 20th...... and then today the 21st..... of 2021. I find that coincidence quite interesting. I don't know if maybe that was some inside joke or something. Either way i feel like a brand new person now. I can actually feel happy and actually feel comfortable with being happy. As if I have no longer any guilt or shame in feeling that way oddly. Once again if this is what this level of tech can do I can only wonder what the new DMSI will be like. I might have missed somethings but that was the gist of it. A total over hall of my personality and identity that was months in the making and the part cooperating was playing long term chest and the part resisting had no idea it was being led on the entire time. It thought it was in the drivers seat when it wasn't. It thought it remained unchallenged only to be blind sided later on and by itself and its own condemnation of all things. Once again I don't know what part of the subconscious this is but the fact that it planned this whole thing for months and waited for this one moment where it knew it would win.
Lastly though the funny thing is throughout the whole months I was running this sub I kept on wondering why I was having this kind of rethink of reality, its underlying principles and what is true as it didn't really have much to do with money yet but I kept on having this nagging feeling in the back of my mind at times that something huge was coming but it was being hidden from me every time I tried to search out what was going on. Now I know what that ominous feeling was and what was really going on in the background that I didn't see while the part that was resisting was being lead on.
I would just saying in closing to those still running to just keep on running the sub. The breakthru is most likely coming eventually and you just need time. Don't whimp out before you get to the finish line. At least get a Bronze medal for your efforts. If anyone has any questions or comments I'm all ears. Here's to the future people!
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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