Transcendental Sith Lord's UMSv2 Journal/ Few weeks of E5

[Darkness]

Thanks, Darth...

Anyway, the thought of one, especially one who has mightily struggled all his life with girls, simply listening to a sub, that then makes him sexually attractive to females he finds sexually attractive, purely because he is sexually attracted to them, and to the degree he is to them, and then to initiate sexual contact with him, with no granular explanation on HOW that happens due to "trade secrets", with also claiming it doesn't violate their free will where they weren't interested in him beforehand somehow which would appear to slightly contradict...is obviously pretty far-fetched and would need to be "verified" in the real world with results before full buy-in. Especially after multiple years of said claims, as the program has continued to struggle. Which is course just forces further scrutiny.

The fact that I keep up with the program and have supported it since V1, despite having the experience most people have had on it so far after multiple years...is proof that I'm still open to seeing it actually work. If it ever did, it could hugely change my life! But yeah, the premise above, is quite over the top, and would need clear evidence of actually working in real life due to how outlandish it comes across as.

I'm merely holding the program up to the sales page's standards, that it's OWN design goal claims will happen. Literally zero difference than buying OF and expecting fear removal, or E5 and expecting emotional health improvement, ASC for confidence...whatever. Same exact thinking. That's all.

You just HAD to rain, hail & storm urine  down on the parade & making it about you on some Debbie downer ,huh?

[CatMan]

Thanks, Darth...

Anyway, the thought of one, especially one who has mightily struggled all his life with girls, simply listening to a sub, that then makes him sexually attractive to females he finds sexually attractive, purely because he is sexually attracted to them, and to the degree he is to them, and then to initiate sexual contact with him, with no granular explanation on HOW that happens due to "trade secrets", with also claiming it doesn't violate their free will where they weren't interested in him beforehand somehow which would appear to slightly contradict...is obviously pretty far-fetched and would need to be "verified" in the real world with results before full buy-in. Especially after multiple years of said claims, as the program has continued to struggle. Which is course just forces further scrutiny.

The fact that I keep up with the program and have supported it since V1, despite having the experience most people have had on it so far after multiple years...is proof that I'm still open to seeing it actually work. If it ever did, it could hugely change my life! But yeah, the premise above, is quite over the top, and would need clear evidence of actually working in real life due to how outlandish it comes across as.

I'm merely holding the program up to the sales page's standards, that it's OWN design goal claims will happen. Literally zero difference than buying OF and expecting fear removal, or E5 and expecting emotional health improvement, ASC for confidence...whatever. Same exact thinking. That's all.

You just HAD to rain, hail & storm urine  down on the parade & making it about you on some Debbie downer ,huh?

Huh?! Odd post out of nowhere.

It was about me actually. It was literally said it was beforehand.

[Darkness]

Thanks, Darth...

Anyway, the thought of one, especially one who has mightily struggled all his life with girls, simply listening to a sub, that then makes him sexually attractive to females he finds sexually attractive, purely because he is sexually attracted to them, and to the degree he is to them, and then to initiate sexual contact with him, with no granular explanation on HOW that happens due to "trade secrets", with also claiming it doesn't violate their free will where they weren't interested in him beforehand somehow which would appear to slightly contradict...is obviously pretty far-fetched and would need to be "verified" in the real world with results before full buy-in. Especially after multiple years of said claims, as the program has continued to struggle. Which is course just forces further scrutiny.

The fact that I keep up with the program and have supported it since V1, despite having the experience most people have had on it so far after multiple years...is proof that I'm still open to seeing it actually work. If it ever did, it could hugely change my life! But yeah, the premise above, is quite over the top, and would need clear evidence of actually working in real life due to how outlandish it comes across as.

I'm merely holding the program up to the sales page's standards, that it's OWN design goal claims will happen. Literally zero difference than buying OF and expecting fear removal, or E5 and expecting emotional health improvement, ASC for confidence...whatever. Same exact thinking. That's all.

You just HAD to rain, hail & storm urine  down on the parade & making it about you on some Debbie downer ,huh?

Huh?! Odd post out of nowhere.

It was about me actually. It was literally said it was beforehand.

You took an uplifting post, (that was in fact about you) & killed it.

[CatMan]

Thanks, Darth...

Anyway, the thought of one, especially one who has mightily struggled all his life with girls, simply listening to a sub, that then makes him sexually attractive to females he finds sexually attractive, purely because he is sexually attracted to them, and to the degree he is to them, and then to initiate sexual contact with him, with no granular explanation on HOW that happens due to "trade secrets", with also claiming it doesn't violate their free will where they weren't interested in him beforehand somehow which would appear to slightly contradict...is obviously pretty far-fetched and would need to be "verified" in the real world with results before full buy-in. Especially after multiple years of said claims, as the program has continued to struggle. Which is course just forces further scrutiny.

The fact that I keep up with the program and have supported it since V1, despite having the experience most people have had on it so far after multiple years...is proof that I'm still open to seeing it actually work. If it ever did, it could hugely change my life! But yeah, the premise above, is quite over the top, and would need clear evidence of actually working in real life due to how outlandish it comes across as.

I'm merely holding the program up to the sales page's standards, that it's OWN design goal claims will happen. Literally zero difference than buying OF and expecting fear removal, or E5 and expecting emotional health improvement, ASC for confidence...whatever. Same exact thinking. That's all.

You just HAD to rain, hail & storm urine  down on the parade & making it about you on some Debbie downer ,huh?

Huh?! Odd post out of nowhere.

It was about me actually. It was literally said it was beforehand.

You took an uplifting post, (that was in fact about you) & killed it.

I have to admit...I don't understand what you're talking about. Maybe you weren't here when this original incident went down, which is fair.

Darth referenced a very old conversation between Shannon and I. I kinda wish he didn't because back then it got really intense, I hate forum fights and arguments, but it's done now. In fact, I think it was the one I got banned for if I recall...I don't remember it was quite a long time ago now. The whole "skeptic" thing still triggers me it seems, as that was a big part of the disagreement between us at the time. It is what it is, I guess.

Don't worry...I already immediately regret posting anything on the forum, yet again. I seem to have issues like this pop up afterwards, reminds me of my old journal threads, and it makes me feel really bad for awhile afterwards for some reason, I hate the feeling.

I'm sorry if I've upset you or anyone else, Darkness. I wish I could delete the posts now but I don't think we can anymore. Forum conflicts bother me a lot, it isn't worth it to me.

All I want, and the purpose of my words, is ultimately for DMSI to be the success it's been envisioned to be. That's it.

[Darkness]

Don’t apologize, or regret just try to be unbiased. Stop steeping in the past emotions.

Understand that DMSI is real. A girl being attracted to you is far from “far-fetched”. It’s the norm.

[DarthXedonias]

Boredom is the result of the beliefs you hold, the point of view you hold and the choices you make.  It is therefore quite possible that changing yourself your boredom responses can also change. 

The two types of skepticism are natural and antagonistic.  "Natural skepticism" is simply not accepting something until and unless you have reasonable evidence to support it's validity.  There is no hidden agenda, nor is there any preference as to what to believe; you are simply trying to determine what is true, and accepting what you have enough evidence to validate only when you have sufficiently validated it.

"Antagonistic skepticism" is really just a fear based manipulation and sabotage tactic.  The person fears the truth of X or the results of achieving X, and therefore tries to prevent it from affecting themselves by attacking and sabotaging it.  This is really commonly used by people who claim to be using science to back up their argument, but they frequently use lots of subtle psychological manipulations and what is effectively misinformation and sleight of hand to cause the thing they're afraid of to be perceived by others as being false, bad, foolish to accept as true, ridiculous, childish, whatever negative thing they can use to prevent it from being validated, used, effective, or provable.

One way this can be exploited is by taking the (seemingly reasonable) position that "I'll believe it when I have 'real' proof.", which is the sleight of hand.  It causes people to presume that the "skeptic" is being reasonable, and accept their position as valid and reasonable.  Then they find ways to deny, refute, ignore, refuse to accept, and so on, any and all valid evidence that would and does actually prove what they're "being skeptical of".  (Moving the goalposts to negate, ignore and or disregard the validity of evidence against them is common in this.) In the process, they again use psychological sleight of hand to mislead and confuse the onlookers (and in some cases, themselves) into believing their point of view and refusal to accept what is actually valid evidence, is reasonable, thus causing the onlooker (or themselves) to conclude incorrectly that the valid evidence is not valid.

The result is a self fulfilling prophecy.  I will only believe X when I have 'real' proof.  I refuse to accept any actual proof of the validity of X, so X is not accepted because I have no 'real' proof of it's validity.  In the case of subliminals, it is a condition of refusing to execute because "there is no 'real' proof", when the act of execution is required to achieve the proof.  The refusal to execute seems reasonable because "there is no proof", and the slight of hand is in the refusal to accept valid evidence, or allow valid evidence to be accomplished through execution.  It is a self fulfilling prophecy that allows the "skeptic" to get nowhere and convince themselves that they are perfectly justified in doing so.  And you're right, there is no way around the fact that in this case, execution is required to observe the evidence that the "skeptic" in this case is demanding in order to execute.  So the process fails and the "skeptic" claims that the subliminal doesn't work, when in reality they chose to sabotage the execution that would have made it work.

Its interesting because after getting rid of this certain tactic, which from the results so far seem to be the major thing that was in the way of execution, I noticed on other thing after I just accepted it all. I noticed that I stopped analyzing everything. I don't think people realize how big of a change this is for me in that regard. Analyzation was one of my best and developed traits I had to a degree. I literally for years of my life since beginning of high-school would just analyze lots of things, etc. Sometimes to death really. It was like a big foundation of my life and now I find i don't like really overanalyzing stuff or analyzing too much in general. Its like I just think about a plan or issue, think of the pros/cons, and either make a decision or if its not quite time to make a decision I wait and don't really think on it as much anymore. I just move on to what I need to do next. Before the analyzation of things would get out of control and I would become obsessive about certain things. I realized afterwards that a lot of this analysis was fear based. Basically "am I making the right decision? Am I still going down the right path? maybe I need to double check that data?". This was so bad earlier in my life that it would sort of freeze me from making decisions, especially if I had to make a decision right then and without the ability to push off the decision until I had more data. 

I did realize that there are going to be times when you don't have time to collect the data or there is barely any and your going to have to just make a decision. Just make the decision with the best knowledge you have then own up to the consequences. I do think its quite the relief now that I'm not overanalyzing things now and can just live my life as it were.

[CatMan]

I can co-sign the analyzing fixation. 100% I'd agree it's fear-based. I mean, when would you ever do such behaviour when you feel no fear? Must be proof it's fear. Although it isn't nearly as crippling as it used to be decades ago, but can still be a serious issue. When I was in my teens or so, it was so deeply prevalent especially about females. Debilitating. Like another member reported about awhile back in a journal I can't recall which, I also still have this issue where somehow I will build out a fictional thing happening, that is awful or negative, or remember a time when I felt the same. Catastrophising, no doubt fueled with all the bullshit from my past around girls etc. It isn't as bad as it used to be either, but it still rears it's ugly head enough to make it notable. Both tendencies, in fact.

So these tendencies definitely seem to be worth mentioning as they seem directly tied to fear and can hold listeners back. Fear takes time to remove, at least for now, who knows what the future brings.

Seems you've been able to break the chains of it, I'm happy to say. I'm overjoyed for you, Darth. You've done real well, you deserve it man.

Really looking forward to your UMS journal!

[DarthXedonias]

@CatMan Thanks. I do believe the analysis issue was due to it trying to make me safe and I think that has to do with my family really. Mainly that I saw many family members make dumb, stupid decisions without any thought of the consequences. Therefore I feel like i went the complete opposite of them and tried to analyze things a lot before I made a decision. Nothing bad with that to an extent but it seems to be very fear based and gets out of hand. Glad it's not an issue anymore. It seems like I can get the gist of a situation now after looking at some information and just take action.

As far as the sub is going another Breakthru after the last cycle. Mainly that now I know the sub is the priority program running in the background in the mind. Its like I can just feel it in the back of my mind directing me and more importantly I have basically identified with it. I think its because when last ran it I basically thought of I just want to accept it fully and i wanted it to be "real" to me than anything else was. I wanted the instructions and corresponding beliefs to be more real to me than even my external environment. I think that was the main point that pushed it through. There are plenty of examples in history of powerful people who based on their upbringing and external circumstances didn't even look like they would get to where they were. In the end all they had was their beliefs and how willing they were to do what they had to do in order to get where they wanted. Some of this can range from ethically sound to ethically questionable. Regardless they were really to change themselves, periodically and willingly in order to get to where they wanted to be.

I sometimes think (even though i haven't fully thought this out yet) that maybe your desire and will to get to a certain place in life or to accomplish something has to outweigh your fears. Or maybe your just naturally a not very fearful person to begin with so fulfilling your will and desires is a lot more easier. It has given me something to think about. As for fear, guilt and shame they are barely there anymore. I don't even think the fear of death is really there anymore after that kind of psychological death and rebirth I had. Emotional pain is almost non-existent at this point. It feels like that idea that pain is just a part of life thing that we tell us doesn't really hold much weight. It feels like if we just understand the reasons why something makes us upset or hurts us we will just deal with it and not feel much of anything. I think I've gotten to that point. Good example, just today one of the women that I was planning on visiting and maybe have stay with me in Latin America basically said she doesn't want to be in a relationship and feels like she doesn't really need or want anyone at the moment.

Funny the old "version" of me would have been heart broken and tried to persuade her to reconsider like some pathetic beta chump. Now, I literally didn't have it affect me at all. I did say if we could still keep in contact and i could contact her when I got down there. She said yes, and that was basically it. It was more of a "Well, your lost then" type attitude. I do put this down to maybe 2 things actually. the direct affects of E5 but then also a compound affect of TID from DMSI. I say this because also I have noticed I've actually had this real belief that I could get any woman I want, even one with a lot more money and social status than myself (as perceived by the world anyway). I think this might be compounded by the fact that I think E5 clearing up lots of garbage from my mind has basically made me more susceptible to TID from future subs I might run.

I do really "believe" those fears and other negative things are gone now. I think that is the crux as the sub was trying to get me to understand. In order to execute you need to actually "believe" as a requirement. I think this was a sticking point for so long because lets just say even though I now know belief in this world is a given I had so much problem with maybe separating this from "blind" belief which brought on this very extreme version of skepticism. Maybe because I have had a bad problem in the past with certain things that I believed to be true only to find out they were false. Doesn't matter what level (historical, political, philosophical, etc) and therefore I have built up this too inflexible shield as I don't want to be deceived as it were. I think I have come to a good point as far as reconciling belief and evidence. Both are needed in this world. No matter how smart you are or how knowledgeable there is going to be a point where you might need to make a decision quickly. All you will have is the info available to you at the time and you will just need to believe and hope that you make the right decision. If not either way you will need to deal with the consequences.

I think I have finally seen how blind I was. How I thought I was so rational but it wasn't true rationality. Its was the appearance of rationality but it was motivated by nothing but fear. I realize my error now and I have decided to learn from it and move on. I could just do what most people do. They waste years if not decades of their lives having false beliefs or perceptions about the world then when confronted with real life evidence that shatters that belief system or set of ideas they choose to make excuses or rationalities for continue holding. Mainly I believe so that they can protect their "ego investment". So they don't have to come to the brutal understanding that they have wasted years or decades of their lives investing their ego, money, time and emotions in something that was false.

There is another way to view this those. Instead of thinking of it like that maybe one could simply say "Well, now I don't have to waste even more of my life believing in something that isn't true and live according to what is?". I find the latter way of reacting to this a way more productive way doing things. Unfortunately it seems like most of us as a species go with the former and that is why I feel like most of us don't get to where we want to be. Instead of realizing were wrong and reforming our beliefs and views to conform with reality we rather try to force reality to conform to out own false beliefs and ideas. Though I don't want to make that a hard rule as given the subs current results there does seem to be some connection between belief and reality that I don't fully understand yet. Just kind of thinking out loud for now.

Other than that I just feel great and happy. Can't remember the last time I have felt this happy and free. I do see after all this clearing that I am very close to the future that I want and that future has even changed a bit do to changes within myself now. Its funny as well don't really have any neediness either. I have plenty of women i plan on meeting in latin America once I'm able to yet I'm not nearly contacting them on whatsapp as I used to. Some I have kept on contact with while other have fallen off over the months which I don't even care anymore. At this point i can confidently say that if all the girls I were talking to suddenly decided to not talk to me again i wouldn't even care. I would just say "Oh well, that is unfortunate" and get on with my life. They aren't a priority for me anymore, they are just a part of my life and can just as easily not be a part of my life and I am ok with that.

I think that's about it for now. I do know eventually i might need to go back to MLS as my studies are really being affected at this moment. I'm kind of procrastinating on this one project simply because I'm not interested all that much in the programming language being taught for it (C++). I'm thinking of just accelerating through the class with the basic knowledge because quite frankly the things I want to do in computer science as far as jobs and research more have to do with Python (AI and Machine learning) or Java (android app development, etc). I've thought about expanding into Javascript as well just so I could get jobs in web development as well if i need to. Just want to increase my chances of getting a remote job then moving to Latin America (or the Philippines is still an option).

[MegaMan]

I have worked with C++, PLPGSQL, Python, Java, Javascript, and Turbopascal (yeah that last one is on my high school teacher).
I'd encourage you to stick with the C++ course for two reasons.
1) You said you are excited about AI and ML in Python. Most Python modules for this are based on C and C++ code. So if you really want to understand what is going on or later build a custom application in this field you will be grateful that you took this course.
2) FREEDOM. C++ gives you a vast amount of freedom. Contrary to e.g. Java where you can only know if an object is passed by reference or by value, in C++ you can decide what you want it to be. You can change pointers around (keyword pointer arithmetic) and even decide what amount of memory to allocate down to the single byte.
That's what fascinates me about C++ maybe it helps you in sticking to the course.

Have a great day
MM

[DarthXedonias]

I have worked with C++, PLPGSQL, Python, Java, Javascript, and Turbopascal (yeah that last one is on my high school teacher).
I'd encourage you to stick with the C++ course for two reasons.
1) You said you are excited about AI and ML in Python. Most Python modules for this are based on C and C++ code. So if you really want to understand what is going on or later build a custom application in this field you will be grateful that you took this course.
2) FREEDOM. C++ gives you a vast amount of freedom. Contrary to e.g. Java where you can only know if an object is passed by reference or by value, in C++ you can decide what you want it to be. You can change pointers around (keyword pointer arithmetic) and even decide what amount of memory to allocate down to the single byte.
That's what fascinates me about C++ maybe it helps you in sticking to the course.

Have a great day
MM

Thanks for the info. Interesting that you wrote this right when I did find out some other information that might have helped change my mind as well. I found out that if you get really good at C++ you could try to get into the trading software or hedge fund business. I only just recently found out that if you become like a quant developer there is a lot of money in that business. Think I read that even junior level your looking at 140k starting and once your at the senior level your in the 200k to 400k a year range. So think I think I will maybe look more into that field. Seems like you primarily want to learn C++ for backend stuff then for the stuff the user (in this case stock traders, etc) are going to see you might want to know something like python. Good thing for me is in this degree program the main languages used are C++, Java, and Python.

[lano1106]

your choice seems to be dead on where the big money is. C++ is a very complex language to master compared to others but the reward from mastering it is also superior to what others language can give you.

FYI, my trading system is in C/C++. C++ is my language of choice. I have been doing C++ for probably over 2 decades and I am still learning new stuff (but the language keep evolving very fast...)

You made an excellent choice, imho

[DarthXedonias]

There has been a major shift that has happened. Not just a shift but a whole paradigm shift to be correct. I am a completely different person from before. I thought the last one was basically it. No it was just he appetizer it would seem before the major shift in my whole world view happened. Its interesting because ever since I started UMSv2 I always had this feeling that there was going to be some world changing shift that was going to happen within a span of a year. Even in the months leading up to this I always had this feeling and thought in the back of my mind that there was going to be some life changing shift that was going to happen and that there was something going on in the background that was building up.

it has been about 2 days and honestly I wanted to wait to see if these results were what I thought they were. Part of it also was I didn't know what I was going to say here in order to explain how I felt and how I'm feeling now. Part of me even questioned if I should say anything to begin with as I felt anything I said would just not fully encapsulate who I am now as a person. Basically the to summarize what happened on my last use of the sub I felt myself just fully accept the instructions. I had this utterly determined feeling to just want to believe it beyond anything I have ever wanted in my life. I then felt within myself 2 different things. One thing which has been touched on by Shannon of feeling as thought it was affecting multiple "me's" across different times and spaces and then the final thing of I felt this moment or few seconds where there just wasn't any time or space. At this moment I knew the part of the subconscious that Shannon has talked about, the one that doesn't really perceive any time or space was being affected.

For some this will sound bogus or like hocus pocus. If so you are entitled to your opinion. As for me to have learned about these things then actually experience them has changed my whole paradigm and worldview. I fully accepted the instructions and as far as I'm concerned those instructions, beliefs are who I am. I feel no fear, guilt or shame anymore. Death is nothing to be fearful of. It is merely a mild inconvenience and even then I have come to think it is not an inconvenience at all. I don't know why but I feel as though this certain aspect of all life is needed in one way or another. I am not afraid to face it as I know it is not the end.

I am not afraid of who and what I am any longer. Of all the possibilities that exist within me. once all that fear was gone I see so many paths that I can choose so clearly now and so much choice that is afforded to me. I see now that fear, guilt and shame get in the way of free will and real choice. I feel nothing but inner peace with no conflict at this point. With no more inner conflict I feel free to choose any path that I want and the amount of paths I can choose are as many as branches protruding from the trunk of a tree which then spreads out with more leaves from there.

I have ran across one not so much problem but thought now. With so many choices unlocked for me which ones should I choose? I feel totally confidant in choosing any and getting the results at the end of any of them. It is interesting though that part of me wants to do DMSI for a while instead of focusing straight on more MLS or even UMSv2 even though I know without a doubt that my results will be exactly what they need to be now.

Another interesting things that have happened due to all this is (1) I realize I have no real enemies. The only enemies I have are not people but the things those people stand for and what they have allowed themselves to be controlled by. Therefore Hatred and anger against another is waste of my time and is just poisoning myself. I will not allow that to happen to me. (2) I have gained an amazing ability of empathy. Its like I can think on a possible choice and envision with clarity the possible affects on others of those choices. I can literally imagine as though it is real the total feelings others would feel from the impacts of my decisions. As though I can truly feel it as though I was them yet at the same time realize that is their emotions and not my own. It just gives me more things to consider now when making decisions though I don't think it will create hesitancy in me.

I did have one interesting thought that I remember from when i was younger. Despite everything horrible that has happened to me during the first half of my life I always had this feeling that when i got close to the half way point things would change. That all these horrible things can't keep on going on forever and that as long as I don't give up and keep searching for the truth everything would change. I think I found IML in May of 2014 and been around here ever since. Always trying to find ways to cure myself of my PTSD, Depression and to just in general live the life I want to live. To live some life of significance. Now the first few things I mentioned are gone and I can already see me living a life of significance due to clearing and healing everything that I needed to. Nothing is impossible for me any longer.

I do apologize if it seems I was all over the place but its hard to go over every different change. There has just been so many of them so far. Fear, shame, guilt, anxiety, etc are just all gone now and there is only this peace and tranquility left. I feel as though my mind is totally empty unless there is something to think about and I am basically always present unless I need to project my awareness of the affects of a potential decision. Along those lines I just don't feel emotional pain anymore. Its like a major part of my awareness understands the mechanism and the "why" of emotional pain and therefore since I understand it I feel no need to actually "feel" it anymore unless I am using that empathy to experience the pain another might have. I realize now that some of the things the great philosophers and spiritual leaders of the past were very, very true. I thought before that I was so knowledgeable and rational but the driver for all of it was fear based. I realize I was such a fool and that in the end I didn't really understand anything too completely because I was too blinded by fear, guilt, shame, hatred, and anger. I will give myself this though that at least I was working towards no longer being fool.

All I can say for you all is the journey might not always be comfortable but once you reach the destination it is fully worth it. You might even find when you get to this place that you have changed so much that what you might have wanted before you realize was insignificant in the grander scheme of things. You will realize that there is so much more you can do than you realized or could possibly imagine.

[ncbeareatingman]

DarthXedonias...Man oh Man are you nailing this..wow. Im gonna have to go back when Im not so tired and wiped out,to re-read the abouve post of yours on your expereriences with UMSv2. wow. from I read already..... you're really in alignment with its power and possibilities!! Keep Rockin it Man!!

Side Note: Come December's end,Boba Fett will be on the trail and on the hunt... just in case, so you'll be prepared. Forewarned is Forearmed !!

Sheeta Poe-Kuta In sue Blinky Boba Fett too Knocka, DarthXedonias !!! (deep voice) Hoooe Hoooe Hooooe!!

Two Days later: 11/18/21
Back on UMSv2 as of this morning stage 3-second cycle.... having re-read most of your post aboue DarthXenas.... I am both floored,honored and inspired by you. THis has gotta be one of thee thee best testimonial-postings-expereinces I've ever read in 11 yrs of being associated with IML.... its for shure in the top 3! Man. wow. I wanna be where you are and with it too....in my own way. thank you again for sharing so clearing and broadly in the Great Spectrum of Light...thank you!!
The journey continues

[Shannon]

I only wish everyone responded as well and as quickly as you do, DX. Hopefully that will be changing in the not too distant future.