Transcendental Sith Lord's UMS Journal

[DarthXedonias]

@PDjunkie Thanks a lot.

@Shannon I'm glad to hear that since I'm really looking forward to it. I just want this thing done with and its caused me nothing but pain since it went full blown like 6 years ago. I did have a question though: will you be adding anything specific that will deal with clearing away trauma/emotional distress that then manifests physical damage to the body? or will you just let the OE handled that indirectly?

[Shannon]

@PDjunkie Thanks a lot.

@Shannon I'm glad to hear that since I'm really looking forward to it. I just want this thing done with and its caused me nothing but pain since it went full blown like 6 years ago. I did have a question though: will you be adding anything specific that will deal with clearing away trauma/emotional distress that then manifests physical damage to the body? or will you just let the OE handled that indirectly?

That's going to depend on factors I don't know the specifics of just yet.

[DarthXedonias]

Thought I would update for a bit since I haven't in a while and what my plans are.

Given what has been going on lately with the new discovery regarding potentially ending resistence for most sub users it does put recent events that have happened into perspective. Namely that I think I might have gotten some kind of TID from DMSI. I say this because I did actually get certain results that I would associate with DMSI. It was about 2 weeks ago I decided to open up one of my international dating accounts and redid my profile. Got a lot and I mean a lot of responses, more than I ever have. Thing is I did contact this one women who did respond favorably and sent me her chat information. We have ended up talking for about a week and half. She has the best body of any women I have been talking to and actually has a decent personality. She's currently working in another country at the moment (Malaysia) and working 12 hours a day/ 6 days a week.

Will see how things go there. Still talking to the Indonesian women but we have decide to see each other in person in Bali before we determine the next step. I'm probably going to take a trip in November to Bali and Malaysia in November then decide who I'm really going to pursue. As for my job, I have my visa ready and the only thing I'm waiting on now is getting a decent sized luggage I can carry my desktop in with me on the trip. Once I get that I will be heading to China right away.

Eh I had permanently decided that I will go for the masters in English since I got new information that I could make as much as if I got a remote job programming while still only working 20-25 hours a week to boot. So I had already sent in for financial aid at a lot of promising institutions that are low cost. Though I "might" hold off on that but not sure yet. After I read the info about this new thing discovery Shannon has made I might take a wait and see approach. Besides, if this thing ends up being what makes resisting pretty much obsolete for most people I might as well wait till MLS 6G comes out then I can definitely have a choice of different careers. Grant it if this really does work out I would probably just get the UMS that will be upgraded with it later on.

I actually did some more number crunch earlier this week and I would definitely need a large lump sum of money to start out with my Bitcoin mining side business (need the machines, and to rent out a warehouse with industrial sized electricity or a portion of a warehouse). In that regards I pretty much would need to go back to stock option trading like I planned to and keep on investing until I get to about 200k or so. That would be the most simplest way to get to where I want to be really. So, that will be my goal on that front. If I get to that point I might not even have to go back to school really. Anyway, that is the plan for now at the moment. Will be leaving for China in a few days or so hopefully. Will be so happy to finally be out of here.

[Shannon]

Congrats! You have made amazing progress since you started using my programs. I look forward to increasing and accelerating that.

[DarthXedonias]

Well, ran into some bad news all of a sudden.

My mother said she would help out with money for the ticket and a bit to hold me over the first month while I don't get paid. All of a sudden she is like she doesn't have anymore money, blah blah blah. This is despite her saying she already paid for the rent for the next 2 months and then already promising this. I'm starting to think she is literally sabotaging me leaving at this point. She already knows if I leave she is practically never going to see me again though I do plan on paying her back but not much else beyond that. I think she is literally trying to keep me here so she can keep having someone that will help "take care of her" despite her beyond a grown ass women.

I am really getting irritated because if this doesn't happen I don't have any other money that can help me get there really and I'm not sure I can ask any relatives. I hope it doesn't end up this way because if so I'm pretty much screwed and after all this money I have sinked into this whole thing of leaving it would be for nothing. I really hope it isn't.

[CatMan]

Sounds like she was happy to pretend to encourage you to score points, but was banking on you not following through on it. Now that you have called her bluff, the truth is coming out, that she never wanted you to leave or help you do so. Maybe it's some selfishness, maybe it's some crab mentality, maybe both.

If it's what you want, you will find a way. If you do it alone, you "owe" nobody else, either financially, or mentally, that makes it so much sweeter.

I've been where you are, when I was trying to get my first few businesses off the ground way back. It's an awkward stage, kinda in between two worlds so to speak, so it can be hard to get traction as there's no track record to "sell" others on, it's really just potential at best...

You may need to take these steps alone, my friend...

[DarthXedonias]

@CatMan Thanks Catman I actually needed that to a degree. I'm hoping I will be out of here by Sunday or Monday.

So need to give an update because something else did happen that pissed me off and set me back a bit (luckily only a bit). So, my mother contacted my niece last Sunday to make sure she could send her luggage (which I would use to pack my PC in) on Monday. She said yes, so this whole week I've been waiting for it to arrive. Finally I got fed up, got her number, and texted her a few hours ago. I come to find out she said it costed a lot and she had to waited so she couldn't send it Monday. She said she would try to send it tomorrow. I was so angry. Like you couldn't have contacted someone on Monday when you found out? Instead you had me waste an entire week sitting around doing nothing waiting for a piece of luggage that wasn't even sent. Luckily, its seems for me that my mother will own up to her word and actually pay for the ticket and other things.

I actually went on Amazon and bought a piece of luggage that I should be able to fit my PC in (though it will be a close fit) and it should be arriving this Saturday. If possible I'm going to try to leave either Sunday or Monday. The thing that really makes me angry about this is that it just prove to me I can't rely on my niece either. Funny because she kept on telling me over the years about how she cares for me, etc but the one time I ever and I mean "ever" ask her for something she just treats the whole thing like it doesn't mean anything. Already knew it but just further confirmation that I can't rely on or trust any of my family members at all.

As for other things going on I have been talking to the Indonesian chick a lot more (actually enjoying it as well) and we did come to an sort of understanding. We will meet in November and if we don't really feel a connection in person we will just remain friends, etc. I will be visiting Malaysia as well to meet the other women. The other women is pretty nice and flirty. Seems to be quite at times but very flirty, and more talkative at other times. I do think though she is more of the women who is hot but isn't as intellectually up there. She seems to be the classic house wife type of women who is only interested in taking care of her home, spending time with her family, and taking care of her man. That type is fine with me to be honest.

I really do think she might be TID from the new DMSI seeing as up to this date (after so many different versions of DMSI) she has have to be the hottest women I have even tried to get with. Funny coincidence that I just so happen to get in contact with her right before a new DMSI release. I might consider posting a picture (with of course things blocked out so no one knows her identity, etc) but I will do that after more thought and possibly know her a bit better. Either way despite wasting about a week and does seem like I will be leaving thank goodness.

[Omni3]

Reminds of a saying...

Happiness is a loving family in a town far far away.

All the best on your journey

[DarthXedonias]

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@Omni3 Thanks a lot. I will keep that saying in mind.

Anyway, time for a quick update. I was able to purchase my tickets and I will be leaving on Monday. I'm just finishing up cleaning my room and stuff before I leave. Already got my luggage which I can fit my PC in. Just going to have to take the more delicate parts out of it and carry them in my carry on bag. I did have to get the tickets one day late because yet another thing happened that delayed it. Apparently the bank my mother has lost a bunch of people's data and they believed it was hacked. So they ended up closing up people's cards and send them new ones right away, a lot of the time without telling them smh. Luckily, she was able to go to the bank and get that taken care of.

I also ended up paying for a VPN that I have Pre-installed on my computer and Phone. I will need this if I want to access gmail, facebook (rarely going on there but still), youtube, or hell even this forum most likely. Once I get my first pay check I will make sure I sign up for an additional VPN because sometimes certain VPNs go down for a bit over there so its good to have a back up. There is more good news, imo anyway. With the build for DMSI being very close there is a good chance I can get some loops in before I even set down at my destination. If it comes out on Tuesday then I should be able to download it and listen to it during my layover in Beijing. Even if not then I should be able to listen to it my first night there since I will be arriving early, early morning Wednesday there.

I find this to be good news since if my hunch is correct about what I told Shannon regarding my trip to the Philippines I think I might just have it easier executing in foreign cultures where I don't have to deal with the type of responses I feared while dealing with women in the US. I guess this trip will prove this theory. If it doesn't it probably just means that I feel more executing in places like the Philippines or possibly Thailand. Either way I am quite excited. Finally going to leave this culture that I don't really enjoy this much and explore other ones where I might feel more at home with. Going to continue my education soon and then hopefully with my experience/credentials I should be able to get a good paying online job. If I want to switch careers later (due to MLS) then I can do so quite easily.

As for the girls, I do keep talking to the Indonesian but its like I've finally made peace with the fact that I will probably let her go. I will still visit her in Bali in probably November though since I probably owe her that much and I still do want to see if Bali is a place I might eventually want to settle down at if at least for a few years possibly. I am leaning more towards Thailand or the Philippines at the moment though. I'm still talking to the Filipina in Malaysia but she has been very, very busy lately. So not as much time to talk as usual. I did decide I will post a quick picture though of course with her face and such blanked out. I will take it down after about 48 hours or so. I am not kidding when I say she has been the most hot women I have ever got to be interested in me before.  

Anyway, things are looking up imo. Looking forward to starting this new chapter of my life without all the toxic people involved.

[Shannon]

I advise you to use UMS for at least a month after you arrive and then assess the situation.  Switching your focus away from making money when you're at such a critical juncture in your journey and transition, especially switching it to something like sex, especially when DMSI is not work safe... and you're going to a culture that is not exactly terribly open to overt sexuality like China... may not be the wisest move.

Play it safe.  Get there, get settled in, and feel things out before you make a decision like that.

[Have at ye]

I advise you to use UMS for at least a month after you arrive and then assess the situation.  Switching your focus away from making money when you're at such a critical juncture in your journey and transition, especially switching it to something like sex, especially when DMSI is not work safe... and you're going to a culture that is not exactly terribly open to overt sexuality like China... may not be the wisest move.

Play it safe.  Get there, get settled in, and feel things out before you make a decision like that.

Good point about Chinese culture - I've had 2-3 Chinese responders around here due to the international nature of the business I'm in, and there are *major* differences in how they react, and how their males react when they see it (although the Chinese are actually pretty chill compared to South Koreans as far as this stuff is concerned, TBH). This advice is on-point - settle in first, get a firm feeling for your situation and how stuff works around there, then reappraise.

[DarthXedonias]

ok, I will take this into consideration then. I did somewhat forget about that aspect.

@Have at ye Funny you bring up that thing about Koreans as well. I've actually heard of lots of reports from guys I know who either are in Korea now or visited for extended periods of times. They had said that even if a women is interested in you she might not show it or if she gets in a relationship with you she will hide if from close friends and family. Reason being that dating out side your "group" as it were is seen as very bad. Apparently even guys who don't know her will judge her base on it. Though as you pointed out the Chinese are a bit less iffy about this.

This does kind of remind me that there was a guy who used to post here who was in China while he was testing out DMSI (I think there was 2 actually). Thing is the guy was married and got another women interested but then he stopped posting. Might try to contact him to see what his overall experience was and might help me to assess my situation to a degree.

[Shadow2200]

Tough being married on DMSI

[EvolvingPhoenix]

"Married on DMSI"? So you want to cheat on your wife?