Transcendental Sith Lord's OF Journal

[Shannon]

Out of curiosity, you say you got "cured of PTSD and depression".  How did that happen?  I'm not clear on that?

Oh it happened with that past changing event that I told you about. Thing is I don't know how to fully explain it as much. To be honest it doesn't even feel like past manipulation or anything. I can remember when I was concentrating on it that it felt more like I was pulling a different "me" from a past out of lots of different versions that felt more in line with the sub and would realize the goals of the program best. This is also why I said I hate using the word "formerly" with in regards to PTSD and depression because quite frankly to use your words when talking about the naturalizer "It feels as if I have always been this way". Granted, after your explanation makes me realize that this is still me just a different version with a totally different mentality which feels emotionally disconnected from the previous version if that makes sense. 

Also my memory its like I don't even try to remember certain things from that past, something tries to block me from remembering (similar to an event I had with E3 all those years ago), or I can't even remember certain things at all. Oh believe me if I met someone from my past I would remember them but it would probably "feel" like I have no emotional connection to them or certain memories. Almost as if those things happened to "someone else". 

@ShannonI would assume based on your explanation before that it is "theoretically" possible to pull a different version of you into the present correct? Because there is obviously a different version of "you" that made a totally different set of choices and you can choose to experience that different version in the present if I am understanding this correctly? If true I guess this means there is a safe way to change the past that doesn't devolve into some butterfly effect scenario. 

One thing I don't understand though is why did my old, old friend from the past have a dream about me when I did this and then felt compelled to reach out and find me. Maybe be I was back on his wave length to a degree because I have felt recently that even when talking to the same women I was somewhat interested in before that now I barely have any interest and don't feel as connected to them. Funny enough I had this thought go through my head several times that they "weren't good enough for me". Which I have never done before in a "certain" past.

Basically, then, what you experienced was your consciousness choosing to shift from a probability line to a possibility line; what is most probable results from a probability line, but all things are "possible".  So, in order to accomplish the goals of the program, you chose a significant shift in what happened and perhaps even shifted to a different "reality" altogether.  

It is possible to jump from one line of events to a completely different line of events that was not directly connected to the originating line.  That is, from what I understand, how major shifts in reality are accomplished; those that people call things like "miracles".  If you shift from a reality in which a man dies and is laid out before you in a casket, to a reality in which the exact same casket and man are laid out, but the man never died - just chose to get into the casket - then it would appear to all present that the dead man "came back to life" if they all remembered his death. For example.

This sort of shift is exceedingly rare because it requires such advanced actions, but with the right set of goals and motivations, and perhaps a hint of the right choice of actions, it is possible for sufficiently experienced people to do.  It is said that true Masters can do things like that at will, consciously choosing to make them happen.

Once you're in the new reality, you'll be affected by it as you would expect to be at that point in the reality if you always existed there.  From the point of view of the new "reality", you suddenly shifted direction and changed, creating a disruption in the flow of that reality because of the influence of the old reality "being injected" as you "land" in the new reality.  It creates a split between the "you" who transitioned and the "you" who always experienced that reality, such that in one resulting path you continue without having "transitioned" and just experience the inertia of the reality because that "you" was always on it; and in another, the "transitioned you" jumps into this reality that is different, and it remembers some or all of the old reality, thus creating the potential for memory issues including confused double memories, no memories at all and others.

It isn't done very often because it's very difficult for most to do, even subconsciously.  But it is possible to do.