02-18-2019, 02:24 PM
Thought since I'm not having any SQL problems with the site at the moment I would update on something. I am definitely sure I am having TID now. I have stopped pretty much playing video games over the last 2-3 days. Its like I just realized how much time wasting they are for the most part but also the pleasure I am getting from them and watching youtube videos (non-educational ones) is just not very high up there like it is. Then something out of the ordinary happened yesterday. I actually went onto Udemy and started looking through for program language courses and funny enough I realized that months ago I actually had bought a course that actually went over Java, Ruby and Python which are the major programming languages I planned on learning. I went at least 3 videos into the course and weirdly enough I actually started feeling and excited and happy about going through it.
It was like the happiness and excited I had from playing videos games had been pushed towards this instead. After getting about 3-4 videos in I stopped because I think there was one part that could still resist that was getting "freaked out" that I was actually enjoying this but probably even more to the fact that it was probably scared more of actually succeeding at learning something like that. Another thing happened today as well. It had to do with something the Indonesian girl had suggested I looked up that would have been important. I had the urge to actually get to watching this educational youtube video and actually started enjoying watching it and learning the information. I actually ended up watching quite a few others afterwards and learn quite a few things today.
Anyway, due to this I'm pretty sure TID is in effect though wonder whether the program will drop tonight or tomorrow. Either way I will be on it. As of now I have really thought about sub routine over the coming months. I will stick with LTU because I really need to get my life into gear and part of that is finishing my college course. Though after that I will have to really think about what I really want to do. When UMS comes out I will really need to consider whether I want to jump on that and of course one of the main considerations will be if there are any improvements found to FRM before that particular sub comes out. I am considering doing some investing like I did back in the day with stock options when that sub comes out.
Back in the day I actually turned about 2k USD into 40K within 2 months. If UMS can make that a regular occurrence or even better it is possible I might not even need to get another degree in programming. Once again though that is a big "if" and whether my subconscious doesn't find some way to completely sabotage the sub. Granted, part of me also wants to still get the a programming degree so that I can work from home or do something. Its like even if I got very successful thanks to UMS and didn't have to work another day in my life due to investments I still want to do something more than just lay around and do nothing all the day. I want to actually do something big. I think that is why eventually the main subs I will probably look forward too are BAMM 6G and the Psychic sub if that becomes an actual sub in the past. Something is just gnawing on me in the inside to stop being lazy and hopeless and actually reach my full potential for some reason.
It was like the happiness and excited I had from playing videos games had been pushed towards this instead. After getting about 3-4 videos in I stopped because I think there was one part that could still resist that was getting "freaked out" that I was actually enjoying this but probably even more to the fact that it was probably scared more of actually succeeding at learning something like that. Another thing happened today as well. It had to do with something the Indonesian girl had suggested I looked up that would have been important. I had the urge to actually get to watching this educational youtube video and actually started enjoying watching it and learning the information. I actually ended up watching quite a few others afterwards and learn quite a few things today.
Anyway, due to this I'm pretty sure TID is in effect though wonder whether the program will drop tonight or tomorrow. Either way I will be on it. As of now I have really thought about sub routine over the coming months. I will stick with LTU because I really need to get my life into gear and part of that is finishing my college course. Though after that I will have to really think about what I really want to do. When UMS comes out I will really need to consider whether I want to jump on that and of course one of the main considerations will be if there are any improvements found to FRM before that particular sub comes out. I am considering doing some investing like I did back in the day with stock options when that sub comes out.
Back in the day I actually turned about 2k USD into 40K within 2 months. If UMS can make that a regular occurrence or even better it is possible I might not even need to get another degree in programming. Once again though that is a big "if" and whether my subconscious doesn't find some way to completely sabotage the sub. Granted, part of me also wants to still get the a programming degree so that I can work from home or do something. Its like even if I got very successful thanks to UMS and didn't have to work another day in my life due to investments I still want to do something more than just lay around and do nothing all the day. I want to actually do something big. I think that is why eventually the main subs I will probably look forward too are BAMM 6G and the Psychic sub if that becomes an actual sub in the past. Something is just gnawing on me in the inside to stop being lazy and hopeless and actually reach my full potential for some reason.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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