Transcendent Sith Lord's DMSI 3.3 D Journal

[DarthXedonias]

I think your fears over running 3.2 again are probably unfounded. I think that's an excuse not to run it. Clearly it worked. I recommend that you either run 3.2 (<--), or nothing. MLS will redirect everything away from what DMSI was doing and what it has accomplished.

Well, with that said I think I will jump back on 3.2 then. I really just hope the nihilism doesn't show up again because that stuff was debilitating at times. Though , I hope I'm remembering this right, I think the times when it showed up the most is when I had time to myself. So I think if I tried to keep myself as busy as possible it shouldn't be a problem hopefully. Though I do think I might still retain the "I don't care" attitude which seems to be the way the resisting part of my subconscious is keeping the aura from sniping anyone. I find that thing so frustrating and weird. It happens without fail all the time. I might even run across a chick that I really did find hot before and I might try to concentrate on the aspects of her that I find hot but then without fail within seconds literally the thought of "I just don't care" will pop into my mind. That same recurring thought every single time will just block anything from happening.

On another note, I think I should report something that I just now realized. For the past 2 months or so I have been getting weird friend suggestions on Facebook. It didn't hit me til now but I know noticed that the common theme with all of them has been that they have been women and foreign women at that. There also was recently one with a chick I used to work that I had searched for on Facebook in the past after she stopped working at the theater but with no luck. She isn't foreigner per say, she was born here, but I believe her parents are first generation Chinese that moved here. So she has a lot of foreign mannerisms to her and is in general a very well mannered woman. I also was somewhat attracted to her when she worked there and she was easy to talk to.