06-09-2017, 10:30 PM
well, haven't posted for a while and will try to keep this short.
ok, so despite what i said I continued with his version. I just took 2 days off then have continued for the last couple of weeks. I think it is slowly working through whatever is going on behind the scenes and I think the resistence is just exhausting itself trying to keep up this game (Redefining terms, subtle self sabotage). One thing gives me this impression. For the past 2 weeks or so I have been getting this aching feeling in my sacral chakra area that has gotten bad at times. I only have two ways of explaining this: (1) the sub is working on something big behind the scenes and its activating what happens when I get stressed (apparently my stomach starts painfully contracting when I'm really stressed out) or (2) i'm activating the punishment side of the script for parts that aren't co-operating. I believe it is the second option. I believe this because the first time I got this painful stomach/ sacral contraction in the last couple of weeks is after I woke up and apparently the aura was blazing and my mind soon tried to shut it down which led to a very painful experience (I was contemplating going to the emergency room). This seems to be happening less and less though. So I guess that part of me that is in charge of this energy center is not co-operating but running out of power to resist.
As a side note, I keep on getting this weird energy moving up and down my spine (Kundalini?). On the women front school is over with so don't have as many test subjects. I have noticed 2 people though. That one Hispanic chick I have mentioned before has started acting weird. I only see her as an acquaintance (probably only will for now on) but shes starting to act different. Last time we hanged out the conversation kept on getting sexual, she kept on laying down in close proximity to me and kept on touching me while talking a couple of times. Once again though given whats happened before even if shes changed her mind not really interested. That's despite that also given our last meeting she was apologizing for doing some stuff previously.
The other one is another Hispanic chick who just graduated high-school. I think shes been heavily affected since she started working there (She was the one who I thought went to the bathroom to clean herself up in one of my previous posts). Apparently she was really hit hard today because:
- Kept on pestering me to do things for her or change job positions with her at the beginning of the day (shit test). I kept on saying no while giving comebacks and laughing at her whining about not getting what she wanted (She even threatened to delete me off snapchat as if that was some kind of threat rofl). Apparently I passed these shit test because she kept on getting in close proximity to me all the time and she said if anyone else had done what I had done she would be super pissed.
- Kept on following me around during work.
-at one point I knelled to get something out of a fridge then at the same time she bent over to get something while only being a few inches away from me and aiming her butt at me. When I went to stand up she unbent herself at the same time (?).
- Later on kept on bothering me to buy her lunch (which came out of no where really). As with anything she asks I either (1) Don't do it while mocking her or (2) make her work for it. In this case I made her work for it and bought her lunch.
-While waiting for lunch she was literally following me like some puppy and I felt like she was literally breathing on me at times.
- What was interesting though was while also waiting she wanted me , out of no where, to give her a nickname.
eh, either way I'm just going to see where this goes. I hope shes still around once 3.2 comes out (shes going to college miles away from where I'm at though still in state). Of interest though is that this girl has like 3000+ followers on snap chat and is really good looking. I think shes one of those girls that is use to guys giving her whatever she wants or being to walk over them because shes good looking. Guess I'm different because I call her out on her bullshit or don't agree with her on everything. Now the funny thing about this whole thing, she claims shes into women but I think shes really just bi. I believe shes has been with guys before but because of bad experiences or maybe all of them are just really beta in this area shes just been more into women. Either way, just not going to have any expectations and see where it goes.
There is another Hispanic chick who has been acting definitely as well but not sure. She engaged me a lot in very early versions of DMSI then stopped for a while and now shes engaging me in conversation again. Anyway, that's all for now. Will just take it easy while continue with this version though I will switch to MLS once its out and will continue to run that until 3.2 comes out. I don't know why but I have this intuition that 3.2 is going to be the one where I will really see the results.
As a side note though I am really interested to see how MLS does, particularly in the realm of IQ. IQ as far as current up to date research says is about 80% genetic. If the IQ enhancement in MLS is able to move IQ up substantively then I guess this would point towards the subconscious being able to influenced the body on even a genetic level which would be interesting.
ok, so despite what i said I continued with his version. I just took 2 days off then have continued for the last couple of weeks. I think it is slowly working through whatever is going on behind the scenes and I think the resistence is just exhausting itself trying to keep up this game (Redefining terms, subtle self sabotage). One thing gives me this impression. For the past 2 weeks or so I have been getting this aching feeling in my sacral chakra area that has gotten bad at times. I only have two ways of explaining this: (1) the sub is working on something big behind the scenes and its activating what happens when I get stressed (apparently my stomach starts painfully contracting when I'm really stressed out) or (2) i'm activating the punishment side of the script for parts that aren't co-operating. I believe it is the second option. I believe this because the first time I got this painful stomach/ sacral contraction in the last couple of weeks is after I woke up and apparently the aura was blazing and my mind soon tried to shut it down which led to a very painful experience (I was contemplating going to the emergency room). This seems to be happening less and less though. So I guess that part of me that is in charge of this energy center is not co-operating but running out of power to resist.
As a side note, I keep on getting this weird energy moving up and down my spine (Kundalini?). On the women front school is over with so don't have as many test subjects. I have noticed 2 people though. That one Hispanic chick I have mentioned before has started acting weird. I only see her as an acquaintance (probably only will for now on) but shes starting to act different. Last time we hanged out the conversation kept on getting sexual, she kept on laying down in close proximity to me and kept on touching me while talking a couple of times. Once again though given whats happened before even if shes changed her mind not really interested. That's despite that also given our last meeting she was apologizing for doing some stuff previously.
The other one is another Hispanic chick who just graduated high-school. I think shes been heavily affected since she started working there (She was the one who I thought went to the bathroom to clean herself up in one of my previous posts). Apparently she was really hit hard today because:
- Kept on pestering me to do things for her or change job positions with her at the beginning of the day (shit test). I kept on saying no while giving comebacks and laughing at her whining about not getting what she wanted (She even threatened to delete me off snapchat as if that was some kind of threat rofl). Apparently I passed these shit test because she kept on getting in close proximity to me all the time and she said if anyone else had done what I had done she would be super pissed.
- Kept on following me around during work.
-at one point I knelled to get something out of a fridge then at the same time she bent over to get something while only being a few inches away from me and aiming her butt at me. When I went to stand up she unbent herself at the same time (?).
- Later on kept on bothering me to buy her lunch (which came out of no where really). As with anything she asks I either (1) Don't do it while mocking her or (2) make her work for it. In this case I made her work for it and bought her lunch.
-While waiting for lunch she was literally following me like some puppy and I felt like she was literally breathing on me at times.
- What was interesting though was while also waiting she wanted me , out of no where, to give her a nickname.
eh, either way I'm just going to see where this goes. I hope shes still around once 3.2 comes out (shes going to college miles away from where I'm at though still in state). Of interest though is that this girl has like 3000+ followers on snap chat and is really good looking. I think shes one of those girls that is use to guys giving her whatever she wants or being to walk over them because shes good looking. Guess I'm different because I call her out on her bullshit or don't agree with her on everything. Now the funny thing about this whole thing, she claims shes into women but I think shes really just bi. I believe shes has been with guys before but because of bad experiences or maybe all of them are just really beta in this area shes just been more into women. Either way, just not going to have any expectations and see where it goes.
There is another Hispanic chick who has been acting definitely as well but not sure. She engaged me a lot in very early versions of DMSI then stopped for a while and now shes engaging me in conversation again. Anyway, that's all for now. Will just take it easy while continue with this version though I will switch to MLS once its out and will continue to run that until 3.2 comes out. I don't know why but I have this intuition that 3.2 is going to be the one where I will really see the results.
As a side note though I am really interested to see how MLS does, particularly in the realm of IQ. IQ as far as current up to date research says is about 80% genetic. If the IQ enhancement in MLS is able to move IQ up substantively then I guess this would point towards the subconscious being able to influenced the body on even a genetic level which would be interesting.
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