07-15-2016, 05:14 AM
Stage 5 Day 12
And again, got drunk on a party.... It sucks i know i have to stop drinking and know its not good for me but i cant... I go to a party and feel unsocial and not in good mood and think ah just one beer and then it ends in me being totaly wasted....
Have to stop t, i cant control my consumption
Missed also my night of subliminals because of this, so not many news. Found out why so many people think i am gay. Its not my outfit/look its more my behaviour.
Seems like alot of girls are attracted to me and alot of people notice me if i walk through a room, but since i am more passiv and shy or sometimes arrogant, its off somehow -> people think I must be gay...
Solution is talk more with people, especially girls, if i have some rare good nights people never come up with the gay bullshit and see me as high status!!!
And again, got drunk on a party.... It sucks i know i have to stop drinking and know its not good for me but i cant... I go to a party and feel unsocial and not in good mood and think ah just one beer and then it ends in me being totaly wasted....
Have to stop t, i cant control my consumption
Missed also my night of subliminals because of this, so not many news. Found out why so many people think i am gay. Its not my outfit/look its more my behaviour.
Seems like alot of girls are attracted to me and alot of people notice me if i walk through a room, but since i am more passiv and shy or sometimes arrogant, its off somehow -> people think I must be gay...
Solution is talk more with people, especially girls, if i have some rare good nights people never come up with the gay bullshit and see me as high status!!!
