It is with absolute pleasure that I get to announce to you guys that today was the best day i've had at work and everything went 100 percent perfect and smooth.
Before I get into the details id like to mention that one thing that helped caused the major stress and anxiety and resistance that I faced yesterday was the fact that I accidently had way too much estrogen in my system.
I didn't realize how fast tesosterone aromatizes to estrogen and I had allot of estrogen built up and I wasn't using enough Arimidex to counter the estrogen production and block it.
Today I didn't have any stress or anxiety because I had almost no estrogen in my body.
Only testosterone (and a good amount, above average but not bodybuilding amounts)
Okay so allot of little shit happened but I'l get to the big things that happened instead.
At 11 pm I went on break and I went to the lunch room and I saw Brunette 1 (the first girl I liked)
and the blonde 4 who is almost an olympic figure skater at my age (22)
I like both Blonde 4 and Brunette 1.
First thing I say when I walk into this 3 person lunch room / table is "i'm joining you ladys for lunch today"
They smile and laugh and say "lunch? ahhaa" Because it was 11pm not lunch time.
But i'm so used to working 7-5 labour jobs that whenever I had break it was lunch time LMAO.
Anyways, I basically mack and get personal and deep with both of them.
I can't remember everything we talked about but I'l list what I remember.
We talked about, me and Blonde 4 both being Vegan, turns out brunette 1 was also vegan, and vegetarian most of her life.
We talked about my probation and me selling drugs (because last week brunette 1 asked what I did last weekend, and I said nothing, and she asked what I did this weekend and I said nothing) and she kinda thought it was lame. We also talked about me working construction before.
But I was around allot of people so I didn't want to explain , I can't go out and party I have probation.
Anyways I told brunette 1 and blonde 4 at the lunch table during that discussion about my probation and she said her ex used to sell M.
I was joking around with them and smiling and happy too, all while remaining dominant and confident and alpha body language and tonality.
I said "You both always wear red lip stick (they do) and I said, you must be best friends" ( I brough back the best friend joke in a different way few minutes later to make them laugh again)
They laughed and thought it was funny.
Anyways we talked and got to know eachother.
I told brunette 1 that she goes to SFU right, I said I saw her studying, She was confused because she hadn't been to SFU for a while, I made a joke about watching her study and me peeking at her outside her bedroom door.
It was hilarious, not creepy at all the way I said it and the way the laughed at it.
I then said, but no I saw I you studying after work one day, I also said I saw it on her FB.
I also said something before that about joking about stalking her and said the whole reason I got this job is so I can come meet you in person and not have to stalk her"
It was all in good fun and hilarious. No anxiety, or creepyness on my end and they reacted very well and happy and laughing positively.
I also told brunette 1 "You have a really warm energy, you're always smiling, I only seen you get mad at someone once"
She said "when?"
I said "I saw you bitch at some girl last week" (which was true) She was moody.
Then before she left I said, you seem like you're really the really sensitive type"
She said "How are you so perceptive!, I said Idk i'm pretty empathetic"
The interaction with Brunette 1 was 10/10 , Keep in mind i'm only typing the things I remember and I talked more with both of them, then what I'm posting her.
So Brunette 1 left, and I'm left with Blonde 4, I sit in front of blonde 4 now and start talking to her about her training in figure skating, and I also told her "You know i've been wanting to talk to you and ask you about your figure skating, I think it's really cool (something along those lines)
and she was very receptive and open with me and I ended up cutting the conversation off shortly after that because I realized it had already been like 15 minutes and my job needed me to be there and I didn't want to have my coworkers working so much while I'm eating lunch.
People don't really take breaks at my job, it's not super common, I only take 10 min breaks usually, even though were allowed 30 minutes. It's too fast paced for people to take breaks 30 minutes.
I told her "I wish I could stay and talk I really want too but I gotta get back to work"
She was happy and smiling and said something like "Me too, Hope you have a nice rest of your shift!"
I saw her 20 minutes later leaving with her clothes on and I had gloves on that were clean but she thought it was dirty I think because I touched her hip /stomach area while walking by her and I said "byee" and she said bye and looked at the glove.
Another thing happened which is the most significant of everything that happened today.
I saw Brunette 1 later with her home clothes on and she was about to leave, I put my arms out for a hug, I gave her a hug and had this sound come out of my mouth I can't really explain but it's the sound you make when your very happy/satsified, kinda like "ooohhhhhhhh"
it was sexual and hot.
It was a very strong and good hug. I squeezed tight and held for 3-5 seconds.
We saw eachother one more time before she left 3 minutes later and I put my hand out for a handclap with her and she hand clapped me, and we talked about something irrelevant for few seconds and I put my hand out again for some reason, and I was maintaing strong eye contat the whole time, and she was looking at me with a massive smile the whole time and I didn't stop looking at her and I put my hand out and hand clapped her again.
It was like I was sniping her very very hard in that moment, Time froze, it was me and her looking at eachother deep touching eachother like two toddlers who have crush on eachother.
It was very sensual and although it sounds very normal while typing this, if you were there and experiencing it like i was you would understand how sexual it really was.
She's sensitive as fuck too wears her heart on her sleeve. I know she likes me. I always knew she liked me, first physically because of my looks, And now I can tell she likes me for real.
I like her again now, I also like Blonde 4 (the figure skater) and I am considering liking the chick from yesterday Brunette 3? ( the one that made my head explode yesterday because I embarressed myself with anxiety)
Today first thing that happened when I got to work she looked at me and said hi, so I guess I didn't fuck thins up as much as I thought I did yesterday, or maybe because my emotions were level headed I was able to affect her with the aura properly.
Either way, yesterday I had the feeling from her that she absolutely was completely 100 percent turned off but possibly recoverable.
Today I felt like she liked me again but not as much as the first day I met her and had that engaging and amazing talk about us being vegan and the connection we had.
The thing is, Today I felt like I didn't like her anymore. I was kind of punishing her.
I didn't make any effort to talk to her and the times we talked because she needed something from me at work, I was really asshole to her, but not in a i'm mad at you, or i'm jealous way. It was a serious genuine assholeness. VERY alpha,
basically she came to give me something to wash, I said do you need this back?
She said Uhhh Idk uhhhh I basically very dominately kind of yelled "Just take it!!" And I looke away from her and kept working.
In her mind I imagine she thinks I'm over her.
I did this intentionally but didn't think about it at all.
I noticed DMSI is making all my PUA knowledge (the real good pua knowledge) that I knew from the past come naturally. It just happens.
It's making me much smoother in that sense, all the PUA knowledge I ever known is my natural instinct.
Either that or DMSI scripting makes me act like how the shit u learn from PUA's.
Like not being overly nice, being an asshole to an extent sometimes if neccessary. and also the fact that I looked like a pussy yesterday I wanted to counterbalance that by being A LITTLE BIT of a dick today.
anyways.
One thing that's interseting is that this is the first time in my life I like more then 1 women at a time, it was impossible for me to like more then 1 person at a time.
maybe it's because of my unique situation, but for some reason I'm able to like all these women at the same time. This is not normal for me, I usually only fall for one girl.
I finally feel like i'm becoming that sex magnet again.
BTW talking today at the lunch room with brunette 1 and blonde 4 felt like I was on the peak of WOMAN MAGNET.
Conversation wise I was 10/10, I was hilarious and happy but dominant, so SM plus AM PLUS WM magnet mix = DMSI.
That's my take so far.
it's a nice mix of all three energy's.
Or it's my Test that makes me masculine, but for sure the conversation skills, humor, aura, body language, and when and how I say things is 100 percent affected to me from DMSI.
I never used to be smooth with women if i liked them.
I was more smooth if I didn't like them.
I'm at my peak today, i've never been so comftorable around chicks.
THIS IS A BLESSING, YESTERDAY I WENT THROUGH HELL N BACK. TODAY I FELT MY FIRST BIT OF GLORY.
TWO DAYS OFF, JUST GOTTA MAINTAIN MY LEVELS KEEP ESTROGEN UNDER CONTROL and continue DMSI
Sorry for doubting you Shannon, It was my own mental mess that caused most of the resistance.
ALTHOUGH that being said, One thing that I can say is that when I consiously try to flirt with a girl or converse, I am not smooth.
It's only when it happens 100 percent randomly out of nowhere that I state shift.
If I think "Okay i'm going to go talk to her"
It doesn't work out.
I have no conscious control, but auto pilot definitely takes control when it needs to the most.
I'm so horny thinking about the seductive smiles that both women were giving me in the lunch room. It was pretty amazing. Attraction from both of them 100 percent guaranteed.
I had smiles constantly today btw. ALL THE TIME everytime they would walk past me.. Stil not from every chick but some chicks wouldn't stop staring at me.
One chick that is a complete bitch to me before was super nice to me. I'm tired of typing but basically the exact scenario that happened today happened few days ago, few days ago she was super mean and rude to me, today she was SUPER NICE and submissive to me.
She's 10/10 tall blonde stuck up model kind. not my type I think it hits my anti sniper. But maybe not.
I also had free food from my closing manager today which is kind of rare, it was random, I didn't ask for it I was just talking about the roll and what it's made of and he said do you want me to go cook you one? I said sure. thanks!
Before I get into the details id like to mention that one thing that helped caused the major stress and anxiety and resistance that I faced yesterday was the fact that I accidently had way too much estrogen in my system.
I didn't realize how fast tesosterone aromatizes to estrogen and I had allot of estrogen built up and I wasn't using enough Arimidex to counter the estrogen production and block it.
Today I didn't have any stress or anxiety because I had almost no estrogen in my body.
Only testosterone (and a good amount, above average but not bodybuilding amounts)
Okay so allot of little shit happened but I'l get to the big things that happened instead.
At 11 pm I went on break and I went to the lunch room and I saw Brunette 1 (the first girl I liked)
and the blonde 4 who is almost an olympic figure skater at my age (22)
I like both Blonde 4 and Brunette 1.
First thing I say when I walk into this 3 person lunch room / table is "i'm joining you ladys for lunch today"
They smile and laugh and say "lunch? ahhaa" Because it was 11pm not lunch time.
But i'm so used to working 7-5 labour jobs that whenever I had break it was lunch time LMAO.
Anyways, I basically mack and get personal and deep with both of them.
I can't remember everything we talked about but I'l list what I remember.
We talked about, me and Blonde 4 both being Vegan, turns out brunette 1 was also vegan, and vegetarian most of her life.
We talked about my probation and me selling drugs (because last week brunette 1 asked what I did last weekend, and I said nothing, and she asked what I did this weekend and I said nothing) and she kinda thought it was lame. We also talked about me working construction before.
But I was around allot of people so I didn't want to explain , I can't go out and party I have probation.
Anyways I told brunette 1 and blonde 4 at the lunch table during that discussion about my probation and she said her ex used to sell M.
I was joking around with them and smiling and happy too, all while remaining dominant and confident and alpha body language and tonality.
I said "You both always wear red lip stick (they do) and I said, you must be best friends" ( I brough back the best friend joke in a different way few minutes later to make them laugh again)
They laughed and thought it was funny.
Anyways we talked and got to know eachother.
I told brunette 1 that she goes to SFU right, I said I saw her studying, She was confused because she hadn't been to SFU for a while, I made a joke about watching her study and me peeking at her outside her bedroom door.
It was hilarious, not creepy at all the way I said it and the way the laughed at it.
I then said, but no I saw I you studying after work one day, I also said I saw it on her FB.
I also said something before that about joking about stalking her and said the whole reason I got this job is so I can come meet you in person and not have to stalk her"
It was all in good fun and hilarious. No anxiety, or creepyness on my end and they reacted very well and happy and laughing positively.
I also told brunette 1 "You have a really warm energy, you're always smiling, I only seen you get mad at someone once"
She said "when?"
I said "I saw you bitch at some girl last week" (which was true) She was moody.
Then before she left I said, you seem like you're really the really sensitive type"
She said "How are you so perceptive!, I said Idk i'm pretty empathetic"
The interaction with Brunette 1 was 10/10 , Keep in mind i'm only typing the things I remember and I talked more with both of them, then what I'm posting her.
So Brunette 1 left, and I'm left with Blonde 4, I sit in front of blonde 4 now and start talking to her about her training in figure skating, and I also told her "You know i've been wanting to talk to you and ask you about your figure skating, I think it's really cool (something along those lines)
and she was very receptive and open with me and I ended up cutting the conversation off shortly after that because I realized it had already been like 15 minutes and my job needed me to be there and I didn't want to have my coworkers working so much while I'm eating lunch.
People don't really take breaks at my job, it's not super common, I only take 10 min breaks usually, even though were allowed 30 minutes. It's too fast paced for people to take breaks 30 minutes.
I told her "I wish I could stay and talk I really want too but I gotta get back to work"
She was happy and smiling and said something like "Me too, Hope you have a nice rest of your shift!"
I saw her 20 minutes later leaving with her clothes on and I had gloves on that were clean but she thought it was dirty I think because I touched her hip /stomach area while walking by her and I said "byee" and she said bye and looked at the glove.
Another thing happened which is the most significant of everything that happened today.
I saw Brunette 1 later with her home clothes on and she was about to leave, I put my arms out for a hug, I gave her a hug and had this sound come out of my mouth I can't really explain but it's the sound you make when your very happy/satsified, kinda like "ooohhhhhhhh"
it was sexual and hot.
It was a very strong and good hug. I squeezed tight and held for 3-5 seconds.
We saw eachother one more time before she left 3 minutes later and I put my hand out for a handclap with her and she hand clapped me, and we talked about something irrelevant for few seconds and I put my hand out again for some reason, and I was maintaing strong eye contat the whole time, and she was looking at me with a massive smile the whole time and I didn't stop looking at her and I put my hand out and hand clapped her again.
It was like I was sniping her very very hard in that moment, Time froze, it was me and her looking at eachother deep touching eachother like two toddlers who have crush on eachother.
It was very sensual and although it sounds very normal while typing this, if you were there and experiencing it like i was you would understand how sexual it really was.
She's sensitive as fuck too wears her heart on her sleeve. I know she likes me. I always knew she liked me, first physically because of my looks, And now I can tell she likes me for real.
I like her again now, I also like Blonde 4 (the figure skater) and I am considering liking the chick from yesterday Brunette 3? ( the one that made my head explode yesterday because I embarressed myself with anxiety)
Today first thing that happened when I got to work she looked at me and said hi, so I guess I didn't fuck thins up as much as I thought I did yesterday, or maybe because my emotions were level headed I was able to affect her with the aura properly.
Either way, yesterday I had the feeling from her that she absolutely was completely 100 percent turned off but possibly recoverable.
Today I felt like she liked me again but not as much as the first day I met her and had that engaging and amazing talk about us being vegan and the connection we had.
The thing is, Today I felt like I didn't like her anymore. I was kind of punishing her.
I didn't make any effort to talk to her and the times we talked because she needed something from me at work, I was really asshole to her, but not in a i'm mad at you, or i'm jealous way. It was a serious genuine assholeness. VERY alpha,
basically she came to give me something to wash, I said do you need this back?
She said Uhhh Idk uhhhh I basically very dominately kind of yelled "Just take it!!" And I looke away from her and kept working.
In her mind I imagine she thinks I'm over her.
I did this intentionally but didn't think about it at all.
I noticed DMSI is making all my PUA knowledge (the real good pua knowledge) that I knew from the past come naturally. It just happens.
It's making me much smoother in that sense, all the PUA knowledge I ever known is my natural instinct.
Either that or DMSI scripting makes me act like how the shit u learn from PUA's.
Like not being overly nice, being an asshole to an extent sometimes if neccessary. and also the fact that I looked like a pussy yesterday I wanted to counterbalance that by being A LITTLE BIT of a dick today.
anyways.
One thing that's interseting is that this is the first time in my life I like more then 1 women at a time, it was impossible for me to like more then 1 person at a time.
maybe it's because of my unique situation, but for some reason I'm able to like all these women at the same time. This is not normal for me, I usually only fall for one girl.
I finally feel like i'm becoming that sex magnet again.
BTW talking today at the lunch room with brunette 1 and blonde 4 felt like I was on the peak of WOMAN MAGNET.
Conversation wise I was 10/10, I was hilarious and happy but dominant, so SM plus AM PLUS WM magnet mix = DMSI.
That's my take so far.
it's a nice mix of all three energy's.
Or it's my Test that makes me masculine, but for sure the conversation skills, humor, aura, body language, and when and how I say things is 100 percent affected to me from DMSI.
I never used to be smooth with women if i liked them.
I was more smooth if I didn't like them.
I'm at my peak today, i've never been so comftorable around chicks.
THIS IS A BLESSING, YESTERDAY I WENT THROUGH HELL N BACK. TODAY I FELT MY FIRST BIT OF GLORY.
TWO DAYS OFF, JUST GOTTA MAINTAIN MY LEVELS KEEP ESTROGEN UNDER CONTROL and continue DMSI
Sorry for doubting you Shannon, It was my own mental mess that caused most of the resistance.
ALTHOUGH that being said, One thing that I can say is that when I consiously try to flirt with a girl or converse, I am not smooth.
It's only when it happens 100 percent randomly out of nowhere that I state shift.
If I think "Okay i'm going to go talk to her"
It doesn't work out.
I have no conscious control, but auto pilot definitely takes control when it needs to the most.
I'm so horny thinking about the seductive smiles that both women were giving me in the lunch room. It was pretty amazing. Attraction from both of them 100 percent guaranteed.
I had smiles constantly today btw. ALL THE TIME everytime they would walk past me.. Stil not from every chick but some chicks wouldn't stop staring at me.
One chick that is a complete bitch to me before was super nice to me. I'm tired of typing but basically the exact scenario that happened today happened few days ago, few days ago she was super mean and rude to me, today she was SUPER NICE and submissive to me.
She's 10/10 tall blonde stuck up model kind. not my type I think it hits my anti sniper. But maybe not.
I also had free food from my closing manager today which is kind of rare, it was random, I didn't ask for it I was just talking about the roll and what it's made of and he said do you want me to go cook you one? I said sure. thanks!
