Day 19 DMSI 3.1A
Work was interesting today.
Few very interesting things,
I started talking to the older manager lady (the one who always gave me looks but I never spoke to until today)
we talked about what animal we like because someone else asked the question and I asked her what they were talking about. And talked about how we both like bears and it's my biggest phobia. And then as she was walking away I said "I like lions more though"
She literally YELLED from 10 feet away so loud the entire kitchen and back and front could hear her.
She said "ME TOOOOOO!" so freaking loud she yelled it. it was hilarious I started laughing.
another interesting thing is that I found out Carol is vegetarian, I met ANOTHER beautiful women Brunette 3 and she's Vegan, and the older blonde milf lady from before who winked at me and is very nice to me I found out she's vegan too.
Interesting.
Anyways I had an amazing conversation and connection with Brunnette 3 when I found out she was Vegan we shared sushi together and talked and she was very talkative and I was also 100 percent in state at that moment. It was pretty amazing.
That was the first time I had such an engaging and attractive feeling from a women at this work.
She is 10/10 looks and 100 percent my type so far. I believe I'm sniping her the hardest.
This was our first interaction with eachother other then me basically mean mugging with stern face as I walk around doing my job, She would smile in a shy way and show ioi's but nothing major until now.
She was super into me in the conversation and I felt compelled to hug her when we ended the interaction, and I did hug her. It felt like a real connection with her, she's clearly into me physically and when we both found out were both Vegan we both lit up.
She was super surprised and glad to find that out.
That was the first time I hugged any female from this work. I had the urge to do it so badly that I did. I didn't think about it and it wasn't awkward.
It is good because it shows I can get physical and sexual. I believe it was DMSI that made me do this.
DMSI is hit or miss, the aura is completely random I feel like. When it's on I feel on top of the world, when it's not on I don't feel that good.
It's actually fucking terrible and annoying that it doesn't stay on constantly.
I think it's still resistance that is causing the fluctuations.
but yeah after I hugged Brunette 3 she walked by me as I was getting talked to by one of the chefs and he was kind of teaching me something about my job (not disciplining me but it could have looked like that from outside perspective)
I noticed that I had my Head up SUPER HIGH and neck exposed and shoulders back chest out, hands together in front me (not behind) and Brunette 3 walked by and she saw this and she smiled at me in a major IoI way and I put out my hand and fist bumped her as she left.
I think this was also good because again, more physicality, and it was kind of my way of saying I like you, good bye.
Without being able to say anything because I was in the middle of a conversation with someone.
Again this is me anaylzing something that in the moment I never was in my head or thinking about why or when / how I should do something.
It just happened, now I'm looking back analyzing thinking why I did what I did.
I have major attraction for her, I want to ask her on a date, I'm wondering If I should wait it out and let more healing happen and potentially get to know her more through work, or just ask her out.
Vocal projection and voice today 10/10
Body language 10/10
Anxiety around women 0
in my head 0
Happyness/moood (half the shift I felt like shit, other half I felt amazing)
I ate my lunch, was starving 20-30 minutes later and I bought another lunch. This program uses so much energy it's ridiculous.
I ate hour before work too.
I can definitely tell the difference in how hard I snipe someone based on there looks, how "my type' they are (not slutty, I like innocent shy women with good values and morals).
On a side / funny note. I took my dishwashing gloves off while working and my coworker was like Holy crap! What happened!! And he looked at my hands and he thought my knuckles/hands were swollen because they were massive.
We compared hands and my hands were at least twice the size of his. It was a confidence boost because I didn't realize how big my hands are.
This is because of my testosterone cycles I've had in the past. I used to have super skinny and small hands
(again I don't recommend testosterone cycles to anyone, It severely fucked me up in allot of ways but also I've benefited from it in many ways.) I put my self through hell and back and potential life long addiction.)
If anyone is to ever do it. Please do at least a year of research and talk to some real experts, not just forum randoms like I did.
Work was interesting today.
Few very interesting things,
I started talking to the older manager lady (the one who always gave me looks but I never spoke to until today)
we talked about what animal we like because someone else asked the question and I asked her what they were talking about. And talked about how we both like bears and it's my biggest phobia. And then as she was walking away I said "I like lions more though"
She literally YELLED from 10 feet away so loud the entire kitchen and back and front could hear her.
She said "ME TOOOOOO!" so freaking loud she yelled it. it was hilarious I started laughing.
another interesting thing is that I found out Carol is vegetarian, I met ANOTHER beautiful women Brunette 3 and she's Vegan, and the older blonde milf lady from before who winked at me and is very nice to me I found out she's vegan too.
Interesting.
Anyways I had an amazing conversation and connection with Brunnette 3 when I found out she was Vegan we shared sushi together and talked and she was very talkative and I was also 100 percent in state at that moment. It was pretty amazing.
That was the first time I had such an engaging and attractive feeling from a women at this work.
She is 10/10 looks and 100 percent my type so far. I believe I'm sniping her the hardest.
This was our first interaction with eachother other then me basically mean mugging with stern face as I walk around doing my job, She would smile in a shy way and show ioi's but nothing major until now.
She was super into me in the conversation and I felt compelled to hug her when we ended the interaction, and I did hug her. It felt like a real connection with her, she's clearly into me physically and when we both found out were both Vegan we both lit up.
She was super surprised and glad to find that out.
That was the first time I hugged any female from this work. I had the urge to do it so badly that I did. I didn't think about it and it wasn't awkward.
It is good because it shows I can get physical and sexual. I believe it was DMSI that made me do this.
DMSI is hit or miss, the aura is completely random I feel like. When it's on I feel on top of the world, when it's not on I don't feel that good.
It's actually fucking terrible and annoying that it doesn't stay on constantly.
I think it's still resistance that is causing the fluctuations.
but yeah after I hugged Brunette 3 she walked by me as I was getting talked to by one of the chefs and he was kind of teaching me something about my job (not disciplining me but it could have looked like that from outside perspective)
I noticed that I had my Head up SUPER HIGH and neck exposed and shoulders back chest out, hands together in front me (not behind) and Brunette 3 walked by and she saw this and she smiled at me in a major IoI way and I put out my hand and fist bumped her as she left.
I think this was also good because again, more physicality, and it was kind of my way of saying I like you, good bye.
Without being able to say anything because I was in the middle of a conversation with someone.
Again this is me anaylzing something that in the moment I never was in my head or thinking about why or when / how I should do something.
It just happened, now I'm looking back analyzing thinking why I did what I did.
I have major attraction for her, I want to ask her on a date, I'm wondering If I should wait it out and let more healing happen and potentially get to know her more through work, or just ask her out.
Vocal projection and voice today 10/10
Body language 10/10
Anxiety around women 0
in my head 0
Happyness/moood (half the shift I felt like shit, other half I felt amazing)
I ate my lunch, was starving 20-30 minutes later and I bought another lunch. This program uses so much energy it's ridiculous.
I ate hour before work too.
I can definitely tell the difference in how hard I snipe someone based on there looks, how "my type' they are (not slutty, I like innocent shy women with good values and morals).
On a side / funny note. I took my dishwashing gloves off while working and my coworker was like Holy crap! What happened!! And he looked at my hands and he thought my knuckles/hands were swollen because they were massive.
We compared hands and my hands were at least twice the size of his. It was a confidence boost because I didn't realize how big my hands are.
This is because of my testosterone cycles I've had in the past. I used to have super skinny and small hands
(again I don't recommend testosterone cycles to anyone, It severely fucked me up in allot of ways but also I've benefited from it in many ways.) I put my self through hell and back and potential life long addiction.)
If anyone is to ever do it. Please do at least a year of research and talk to some real experts, not just forum randoms like I did.
