The saga continues: AM 6

[kalmah0804]

That's exactly what I'm going through right now as the effects of the AM Refresher phase I didn't finish start to wear off--it's that balancing of risking your financial stability to achieve your farfetched dreams as opposed to finding something more steady and reliable to help execute the goals of the program in the immediate sense. From my perspective, an assistant-level entertainment gig pays very little and adds a ton of misery and stress to my life, leaves me with no time or energy to execute on other aspects of the program, so it feels like I veer towards finding an easy or steady/reliable job that pays moderately well and that I can easily keep down.

That being said, my writing has been my dream ever since I was small, and I still firmly do believe I have the talent to one day become a great success--and being an assistant can often become a huge stepping stone for "making it" in my chosen field. Balancing the needs to execute in the short term as well as the long term is definitely a tough thing, and a lot of it certainly does have to do with fear of failing or losing it all, or at the very least, taking a huge risk on yourself and never having anything to show for it.