The saga continues: AM 6

[mat422]

I don't know if AM stage 7 is too much for me and I'm stuck right now or battling through something. I thought I was doing ok with it, but I just realized I've been cherry picking the stuff that makes me feel good and avoiding the real growth. I don't know what this would be called, selective resistance? It's like I've been focusing on all the flash of being alpha without the substance if that makes any sense. At this point I don't know where this is going to go. I'm sitting here right now and realizing I've somehow been mentally checking out and finding a way to avoid the subs influence. Right now I'm just focusing on sitting with the feelings AM6 is bringing up and the fear is really intense. Like I said, I don't know if this is going to end up with me pushing through the fear or I'm just running into a brickwall here. I find myself dissociating a lot from the subs influence which is no good for growth and it happens without me realizing it a lot of the time until I catch myself again. I'll be done July 1st with stage 7, but at this point I don't think there's much growth left on this stage because a lot of what I'm running across seems better suited for some deep targeted healing.

Its sounds like E2 can be best variant and then re-run AM6.0.

My experience: I'v got most benefits from AM 6.0, then E2, then BASE, then SM3.0. DMSI - no benefits at all (alas).

Right now, I'm re-runing AM6.0 and must say that Stage 1 makes a miracles for me right now, even more than E1/E2 or BASE altogether. Interesting.

That's what I was thinking as well. Although I'll probably run dmsi because it has an updated version of E2. I'll see how that goes. I guess for now I just have to stop digging so deep into what's causing all this and focus on what I can do to improve. My suspicion is that I've hit a bit of a roadblock with fear and it's not something I can just muscle out of the way so I have to pace myself.