05-03-2017, 08:46 AM
I kind of thought I was on the right path this month. I had the music making opportunity, thought I'd learn more, get an in somewhere. I had assumed that this opportunity was a manifestation I've been working on. In reality transurfing the author talks about doors. You have to be careful not to push yourself through the wrong door because of what you should do. If you do that you'll be miserable and miss the true opportunity. So now that I think about it, maybe it wasn't the job itself but it was supposed to be the people I met. I don't know, sometimes the way things unfold are weird. Not how you'd expect them to at all.
Having said that, my part time job is going to shit. I hate corporations. We need more people at my job to actually get shit done. But corporate only gives so many hours the managers can use. Then they expect the world from you for such a meager pay, it's a real slap in the fucking face. The other day they offered me an assistant manager position because I'm so important there. But I'm not taking it, more headaches, pretty much non-existent pay bump, and having to deal with even more of corporate's shit. On top of that I have to placate the terrible customers that frequent the store. I'm not a grumpy you all suck type of person, but lets be honest here there are some real assholes that come to retail stores for the power trip of having someone serve them.
I've pretty much stopped caring about coming across as entitled. I had a lot of guilt and shame surrounding wanting better things for myself. But I don't care anymore. If I come across as entitled I don't care, as long as I get what I want. Not gonna let people make me feel guilty or ashamed for wanting better things out of my life than the typical bullshit people deal with everyday.
Having said that, my part time job is going to shit. I hate corporations. We need more people at my job to actually get shit done. But corporate only gives so many hours the managers can use. Then they expect the world from you for such a meager pay, it's a real slap in the fucking face. The other day they offered me an assistant manager position because I'm so important there. But I'm not taking it, more headaches, pretty much non-existent pay bump, and having to deal with even more of corporate's shit. On top of that I have to placate the terrible customers that frequent the store. I'm not a grumpy you all suck type of person, but lets be honest here there are some real assholes that come to retail stores for the power trip of having someone serve them.
I've pretty much stopped caring about coming across as entitled. I had a lot of guilt and shame surrounding wanting better things for myself. But I don't care anymore. If I come across as entitled I don't care, as long as I get what I want. Not gonna let people make me feel guilty or ashamed for wanting better things out of my life than the typical bullshit people deal with everyday.
