04-23-2017, 07:56 PM
Screw it. I did all this to myself. I need to stop blaming everyone else for my life. I need to stop accepting crappy life circumstances and claim the life I want to live. That means no more backtracking, no more second guessing myself, no more doubts. I actively choose who I want to be every second of the day and I need to remember that more.
Something I'm seeing now is what I call "clearing purgatory". It's when you become obsessed with clearing out old subconscious issues to arrive at a certain level of growth. But what happens is the clearing becomes a part of your reality and instead of growing you actively manifest more issues to clear. Instead of being, you're becoming. If you're perpetually becoming, you never actually arrive at your destination. Instead of taking on the reality of what you desire, you take on the reality of a person wanting that reality but never getting it or always having it someplace in the nonexistent future. In this way your mind is perfectly executing your instructions, but they aren't desirable results.
Something I'm seeing now is what I call "clearing purgatory". It's when you become obsessed with clearing out old subconscious issues to arrive at a certain level of growth. But what happens is the clearing becomes a part of your reality and instead of growing you actively manifest more issues to clear. Instead of being, you're becoming. If you're perpetually becoming, you never actually arrive at your destination. Instead of taking on the reality of what you desire, you take on the reality of a person wanting that reality but never getting it or always having it someplace in the nonexistent future. In this way your mind is perfectly executing your instructions, but they aren't desirable results.
