02-28-2017, 09:26 AM
And a lesson was learned. When you try to fight off resistance or fear it just causes more stress. Fighting a battle isn't the way to go with this stuff, I realize that now. Also rereading reality transurfing and it pretty much turns the entire concept of what I've been told growing up on its head. Trying to internalize more of the principles so I can live a better life.
These past few days there have been a lot of ups and downs. Feeling like I was stronger and pushing past things, then feeling weak, then feeling bad about not being able to push past things anymore, etc. It never occurred to me that what I'm going through is just like any other time I've tried to learn something new or perfect a skill. There's growth, then a challenge, then more growth. During those challenging times it makes you want to quit, but that just means a breakthrough is right around the corner.
Basically I'm going to stop overanalyzing this whole process in hopes of somehow making it work better and just accept it for what it is. Something I really suck at for some reason. I just need to get out of my head. Also to stop worrying about the end results of AM6. At the end of this run if my life still isn't as together as I want it to be I guess I just need to grow some more. Not much more I can do than that and putting the pressure of making this AM6 run the one that completely turns my life around has been stressing me out too much.
These past few days there have been a lot of ups and downs. Feeling like I was stronger and pushing past things, then feeling weak, then feeling bad about not being able to push past things anymore, etc. It never occurred to me that what I'm going through is just like any other time I've tried to learn something new or perfect a skill. There's growth, then a challenge, then more growth. During those challenging times it makes you want to quit, but that just means a breakthrough is right around the corner.
Basically I'm going to stop overanalyzing this whole process in hopes of somehow making it work better and just accept it for what it is. Something I really suck at for some reason. I just need to get out of my head. Also to stop worrying about the end results of AM6. At the end of this run if my life still isn't as together as I want it to be I guess I just need to grow some more. Not much more I can do than that and putting the pressure of making this AM6 run the one that completely turns my life around has been stressing me out too much.
