The saga continues: AM 6

[mat422]

Actually only some months into E2 did I first start to not care so much about getting the absolute most effect from subs. Of course I still care a lot and want the best, but I noticed I didn't really care if I wanted to take a day off or I didn't get the hours in without major inconveniences etc. Now if I want to test less hours, I can, and I'm also a bit less anxious about getting to my "final destination" as quickly as possible. Happier just making some progress. This was NOT the before when I was AM/SM. Did you not experience this on E2, or do you that need to push is coming up now with AM?

I experienced it a little on E2. But never to the point where I felt like I completely let it go. It was weird. Some days I felt fine doing my own thing and some days I felt this terrible anxiety that made it hard to get anything done.

Part of my perfectionism stems from approval from others outside myself. AM tends to be good with cultivating that don't care attitude that I think would help me break away.