11-10-2016, 07:48 AM
(11-09-2016, 03:51 PM)Benjamin Wrote: Good luck! Hope it goes well.
I'm interested to see how it will go after E2, because as I mentioned I felt some of my trauma and deeper stuff held back some of AM6 which is why i'm doing E2 now.
Me too man haha. I've done so much clearing with E2 I would expect things to go relatively smoothly but who knows. One thing I've come to realize for myself is a lot of the stuff I thought was trauma or emotional pain was actually my resistance to letting it go on E2. It's tricky because you want to acknowledge the things that need healing, but at the same time you don't want to get stuck playing the never ending emotional healing game. I've been so deep in my head at times I started inventing problems just so I didn't have to change. The mind is a crazy thing at times.
Alright so far I'm liking AM6. I keep forgetting how hard 5g hits you, I'm so used to 4g when it comes to the alpha subs. The fact that it's only been about two days but I've already noticed a shift in my behavior is pretty nuts. I'll recap at the end of the week when I see more. But overall I'm getting this don't give a fuck sort of vibe and I like it. Feels like when I'm mildly drunk and the filter goes down and I just speak my mind.
I'm excited about this run of AM. I've looked back at some of my previous journals with AM and even though I didn't really get where I wanted to be at the time, the mindset was very freeing. I really missed that. I take that as a good sign because in the past there was a lot of fear surrounding becoming more alpha, but this time it feels like I'm ready to do whatever it takes.
