Today is Day 48
AoS
3:02 via earbuds
8:24 via speakers
BIATBWS
3:21 via earbuds
Well today, I did everything I could to try to get a couple of girls that I sorta know to grab some food sometime soon and it didn't happen. I didn't get a real "no" from anyone, but it I mentioned it like three times and no one was really excited about it. One of the two girls I am interested in and she said that she had rehearsal later that day, but then I just said another day is fine. Anyway, nothing happened, I did all I could without being desperate a teacher was right there and I wasn't gonna embarrass myself in front of her. So I did what I could, really. Afterwards, I felt sad. And I sort of thought maybe I'm hopeless. It's events like this that make me just wonder what's the point. I haven't had an equally positive experience yet. I don't see girls getting super turned on by my presence. It makes me wonder if the subs are really helping me achieve my desired goal.
I start to doubt if I can be where I want to with girls. It's a negative thought spiral essentially. I'm better right now, but what should I do? If I'm not doing something right I'd love to know what it is so I can fix it.
I found a video from Elliot Hulse saying to simply not entertain negative thoughts and to change what thoughts knock on the door to my mind. I guess I'll do that for now.
AoS
3:02 via earbuds
8:24 via speakers
BIATBWS
3:21 via earbuds
Well today, I did everything I could to try to get a couple of girls that I sorta know to grab some food sometime soon and it didn't happen. I didn't get a real "no" from anyone, but it I mentioned it like three times and no one was really excited about it. One of the two girls I am interested in and she said that she had rehearsal later that day, but then I just said another day is fine. Anyway, nothing happened, I did all I could without being desperate a teacher was right there and I wasn't gonna embarrass myself in front of her. So I did what I could, really. Afterwards, I felt sad. And I sort of thought maybe I'm hopeless. It's events like this that make me just wonder what's the point. I haven't had an equally positive experience yet. I don't see girls getting super turned on by my presence. It makes me wonder if the subs are really helping me achieve my desired goal.
I start to doubt if I can be where I want to with girls. It's a negative thought spiral essentially. I'm better right now, but what should I do? If I'm not doing something right I'd love to know what it is so I can fix it.
I found a video from Elliot Hulse saying to simply not entertain negative thoughts and to change what thoughts knock on the door to my mind. I guess I'll do that for now.
