AoS
8:50 via speakers
BIATBWS
6:57 via earbuds
I will post about the things the sub may have influenced in the 2nd half of this post. Right now, I kinda don't really know what to think. I just want to enjoy my life. But at the same time it feels like I won't let myself do that. I'm telling you guys, it really has felt hopeless at times the past couple of days. And I mean hopeless that I'll solve my problem relating to girls. I know where I want to be, but it feels almost impossible to see how close or far away I am from achieving it. So I always think I'm so damn far away. I had an interaction with my female friend today and she introduced me to her friend since they were sitting together. Her friend seemed sort of attractive, but as soon as a guy friend of hers came along they started talking for a long time so I just talked with my friend. And afterwards, when my friend showed her some pic of a guy she likes, she kind of asked me to leave in the nicest way possible so they could talk about it alone. Wow...
Anyway, I'm going to list off the things that happened that may have been influenced by the sub:
(Ultrasonic and Masked)
-Some girls make eye contact as I pass by
-Some look down before they pass, but we haven't even made eye contact
-One girl looked at me, looked away, and then looked at me again. I wasn't sure if I knew her at first, but after looking I definitely didn't know her
-One girl made eye contact with me, gave a big smile and said hi and continued skipping down the hall
-Girls I've known, attractive or not, seemed to cross paths/be somewhere in the environment at a MUCH higher frequency than before. This is what I believe to be the manifestation part. It was impossible for them to be consciously doing it.
-I've noticed that sometimes some girls would make eye contact and give a little smile. It wasn't anything special in my mind, it just happened at a higher frequency now than before. It's happened in a variety of circumstances and the smile was not needed, but they did it anyway
-Some days no social anxiety, most days just a little. In very specific circumstances, a bit more social anxiety. At the end of EPRHA though that wasn't the case so it's definitely this combo
-Forogt things MUCH more often
-Stronger desire to bend over attractive girls in public and fuck them on the spot
-Girl that worked at subway let me get 3 scoops of tuna for free when I asked for tuna and was ready to pay
(Ultrasonic Only)
-Looks became less frequent/stopped
-A girl that I already met before, but haven't talked to in a while since she sort of stood me up (which was the only time that's ever happened), approached me. We both had help with our papers. I leave the building right before her and she comes up to me and asks me about the paper since she heard I was writing about the same thing as her. She didn't recognize me and I thought it MAY have been who I thought it was, but I didn't think so. We talked for awhile going in the same direction. I said that I have to go but we can continue the convo later and said we can exchange numbers. When she went to put her number in, her name came up on my phone, I was surprised, but I didn't say anything...when I texted her my name, I came up on her phone...she didn't remember when we met or anything. I didn't try to make her remember either, I just brushed it off and said it wasn't important. We hugged and said our goodbyes. If anything, this was the most noticeable thing because a girl that didn't know she knew me, approached me first. Although, I had heard that she's into guys with a similar skin tone
-More anxiety than before
-More violent thoughts than before (may just be me playing Devil May Cry)
-I never wake and feel awesome. This use to happen rarely with masked and ultra but never with ultra alone.
-Feeling more hopeless
I'm already back listening to the masked tracks with the ultrasonic. I may try pure masked track and see how that goes. I just hope this combo run gets better. If what I got while doing masked and ultrasonic could just become consistent then I'd know the subs are definitely sinking in. Or if I got another approach from a hot girl that'd be great too.
8:50 via speakers
BIATBWS
6:57 via earbuds
I will post about the things the sub may have influenced in the 2nd half of this post. Right now, I kinda don't really know what to think. I just want to enjoy my life. But at the same time it feels like I won't let myself do that. I'm telling you guys, it really has felt hopeless at times the past couple of days. And I mean hopeless that I'll solve my problem relating to girls. I know where I want to be, but it feels almost impossible to see how close or far away I am from achieving it. So I always think I'm so damn far away. I had an interaction with my female friend today and she introduced me to her friend since they were sitting together. Her friend seemed sort of attractive, but as soon as a guy friend of hers came along they started talking for a long time so I just talked with my friend. And afterwards, when my friend showed her some pic of a guy she likes, she kind of asked me to leave in the nicest way possible so they could talk about it alone. Wow...
Anyway, I'm going to list off the things that happened that may have been influenced by the sub:
(Ultrasonic and Masked)
-Some girls make eye contact as I pass by
-Some look down before they pass, but we haven't even made eye contact
-One girl looked at me, looked away, and then looked at me again. I wasn't sure if I knew her at first, but after looking I definitely didn't know her
-One girl made eye contact with me, gave a big smile and said hi and continued skipping down the hall
-Girls I've known, attractive or not, seemed to cross paths/be somewhere in the environment at a MUCH higher frequency than before. This is what I believe to be the manifestation part. It was impossible for them to be consciously doing it.
-I've noticed that sometimes some girls would make eye contact and give a little smile. It wasn't anything special in my mind, it just happened at a higher frequency now than before. It's happened in a variety of circumstances and the smile was not needed, but they did it anyway
-Some days no social anxiety, most days just a little. In very specific circumstances, a bit more social anxiety. At the end of EPRHA though that wasn't the case so it's definitely this combo
-Forogt things MUCH more often
-Stronger desire to bend over attractive girls in public and fuck them on the spot
-Girl that worked at subway let me get 3 scoops of tuna for free when I asked for tuna and was ready to pay
(Ultrasonic Only)
-Looks became less frequent/stopped
-A girl that I already met before, but haven't talked to in a while since she sort of stood me up (which was the only time that's ever happened), approached me. We both had help with our papers. I leave the building right before her and she comes up to me and asks me about the paper since she heard I was writing about the same thing as her. She didn't recognize me and I thought it MAY have been who I thought it was, but I didn't think so. We talked for awhile going in the same direction. I said that I have to go but we can continue the convo later and said we can exchange numbers. When she went to put her number in, her name came up on my phone, I was surprised, but I didn't say anything...when I texted her my name, I came up on her phone...she didn't remember when we met or anything. I didn't try to make her remember either, I just brushed it off and said it wasn't important. We hugged and said our goodbyes. If anything, this was the most noticeable thing because a girl that didn't know she knew me, approached me first. Although, I had heard that she's into guys with a similar skin tone
-More anxiety than before
-More violent thoughts than before (may just be me playing Devil May Cry)
-I never wake and feel awesome. This use to happen rarely with masked and ultra but never with ultra alone.
-Feeling more hopeless
I'm already back listening to the masked tracks with the ultrasonic. I may try pure masked track and see how that goes. I just hope this combo run gets better. If what I got while doing masked and ultrasonic could just become consistent then I'd know the subs are definitely sinking in. Or if I got another approach from a hot girl that'd be great too.
