The Self Actualized - OF V3 5.75G

[Raykon]

And this sudden shift from trying to controll everything, beating myself up for not living up to expectations and now... A feeling of not giving a fuck at all. This is like a TV performance show whereby each act is unique and intriguing in their own way, except this show is my own mind. Just sit back and enjoy the profound diversity of emotions.

Day 57/180 - REST 2/3

I've noticed some occasional feelings of confidence and lack of fear concerning social situations. Also, I feel quite adventurous and open minded right now, willing to explore and try new things.

Next week will be the first time that I travel alone to a foreign country. Not so long ago, the thought of travelling alone just felt too risky and scary.

I had a life changing experience going to Medellin Colombia alone, (first time travelling alone).

I suggest taking risks, (but be smart & don't do anything stupid), Challenge yourself while your their to do things you normally wouldn't do or that would normally scare you. I did that & it really worked out for my benefit. I grew allot from the experience. Good luck! 

Where are you planning on going?

I'm going to Turkey. I'm curious to know what challenges did you set for yourself??

Well my main goals was to not let my fears get in the way of stuff & to Overcome fears. I was just coming off a addiction & severe anxiety where I couldn't even see my friends. 

I ended up going on like 11 dates in 2 months & having sex with 6 women, even travelling to a different province to live in a jungle type setting with some random guy I met on FB & his GF & another guy. It was a long story I was supposed to go their for work but he turned out to be a liar / manipulator, it was fun though I had fun & I ended up having sex with someone in the middle of the night in the warm tropical ocean. 

I was afraid to go, but I didn't want to let my social anxiety/fears get in the way.

So for me mainly my fears was dating/being social, going out to the club/bar by myself & making friends & approaching women on the street. 

Had a relationship their too.

I got a ton of numbers & went on an instant date with a Taxi Driver female & another time with a Pharmacist.. It was amazing, then I used the remaining two months their to focus on myself & the gym. & do allot of introspection & healing. 

I read this book on Fear by Robert Green & 50 Cent before I went which REALLY helped my mentality. I recommend it. And I was on OF v2. I still felt anxiety when I would prepare for a date, but I went regardless & always had success. No bad experiences fortunately.

Also I didn't watch porn or FAP for the entire time I was their.
Your mentality & the goals you set for yourself will strongly change the outcome of the experience.