11-21-2021, 11:34 AM
Day 53 - 3 Loops - day 1/3
I had a dream that I was in college. For some obnoxious reason I decided to come in wearing a pink tank top and tight shorts. I got a few weird looks and fellow students started mocking me. I felt a great level of shame and insecurity.
In the next dream I was in a bed with a couple. We were all watching a movie about zombies like Walking Dead. Me and my friend began discussing and strategizing about the best ways to survive and defeat the zombies. The girl on the other hand was really upset and annoyed by all this. She didn't seem to like my presence. It ruined all the fun.
I had a dream that I was in college. For some reason I decided to come in wearing a pink tank top and tight shorts. I got a few weird looks and fellow students started mocking me. I felt a great level of shame and insecurity.
In the next dream I was in a bed with a couple. We were all watching a movie about zombies like Walking Dead. Me and my friend began discussing and strategizing about the best ways to survive and defeat the zombies. The girl on the other hand was really upset and annoyed by all this. She didn't seem to take a linking to my presence and became rather hostile.
I woke up multiple times during the night with butterflies in my stomach. Fear shook me out of my dreamful sleep and as I opened my eyes, very briefly I took a look around the room to check no one was there before dropping back down to sleep.
I am still really apathetic and lazy. Honestly, everything that I do feels 10 X harder than it used to be.
Over the weekend, I read David Goggins book "Can't hurt me" and it made me emotional and inspired by the man's story. I then reflected on my own life, my fears and insecurities and realised that the only thing standing in the way, between me and actualized self, is my own laziness, complacency and lack of action. Seems rather obvious when you read it but look at how we adopt victim roles and become addicted to self sabotaging thoughts and behaviours.
I had a dream that I was in college. For some obnoxious reason I decided to come in wearing a pink tank top and tight shorts. I got a few weird looks and fellow students started mocking me. I felt a great level of shame and insecurity.
In the next dream I was in a bed with a couple. We were all watching a movie about zombies like Walking Dead. Me and my friend began discussing and strategizing about the best ways to survive and defeat the zombies. The girl on the other hand was really upset and annoyed by all this. She didn't seem to like my presence. It ruined all the fun.
I had a dream that I was in college. For some reason I decided to come in wearing a pink tank top and tight shorts. I got a few weird looks and fellow students started mocking me. I felt a great level of shame and insecurity.
In the next dream I was in a bed with a couple. We were all watching a movie about zombies like Walking Dead. Me and my friend began discussing and strategizing about the best ways to survive and defeat the zombies. The girl on the other hand was really upset and annoyed by all this. She didn't seem to take a linking to my presence and became rather hostile.
I woke up multiple times during the night with butterflies in my stomach. Fear shook me out of my dreamful sleep and as I opened my eyes, very briefly I took a look around the room to check no one was there before dropping back down to sleep.
I am still really apathetic and lazy. Honestly, everything that I do feels 10 X harder than it used to be.
Over the weekend, I read David Goggins book "Can't hurt me" and it made me emotional and inspired by the man's story. I then reflected on my own life, my fears and insecurities and realised that the only thing standing in the way, between me and actualized self, is my own laziness, complacency and lack of action. Seems rather obvious when you read it but look at how we adopt victim roles and become addicted to self sabotaging thoughts and behaviours.
