11-12-2021, 11:39 AM
Day 43 - REST
I skipped a day of journalling and had another REST day. Yesterday I just didn't feel like doing anything. I binged on a bunch of porn well into the night. I tried to enjoy whatever was happening, just letting myself loose without controlling a damn thing. The feeling of guilt and shame did not bother me as much. I danced to some music, cried a bit and I got a decent amount of work done.
Just for the record I am not suicidal. I love life and it's magical. There are so many things I want to learn and do.
I took a cold shower this morning after a HIIT session and felt fucking amazing. I was sleep deprived but still energised enough to tackle the day. While in the sauna today I had a business idea pop into my mind. I sensed that I was quite impatient with people and had a bit of a cocky and careless attitude. Some positive thoughts here and there with what ifs.
I'm curious about running hybrid for 1 loop just to experiment. However, this will have to wait for a bit.
I skipped a day of journalling and had another REST day. Yesterday I just didn't feel like doing anything. I binged on a bunch of porn well into the night. I tried to enjoy whatever was happening, just letting myself loose without controlling a damn thing. The feeling of guilt and shame did not bother me as much. I danced to some music, cried a bit and I got a decent amount of work done.
Just for the record I am not suicidal. I love life and it's magical. There are so many things I want to learn and do.
I took a cold shower this morning after a HIIT session and felt fucking amazing. I was sleep deprived but still energised enough to tackle the day. While in the sauna today I had a business idea pop into my mind. I sensed that I was quite impatient with people and had a bit of a cocky and careless attitude. Some positive thoughts here and there with what ifs.
I'm curious about running hybrid for 1 loop just to experiment. However, this will have to wait for a bit.
