11-04-2021, 10:10 PM
Day 36 - 2 Loops
I have noticed that the inner critic is now louder than usual. I often catch myself spiraling down into perpetual thoughts of negativity. As soon as I shine my awareness onto the matter - for a brief moment the thoughts lose their significance.
I feel like I am stuck in a habitual thought pattern that has been with me for as long as I can remember. I want to break out of it but trying will only make it worse. It's fair to say that I have been increasingly neurotic in my behavior and perception of reality since I began running this sub. I am projecting this current state onto the future assuming that it will always be this way. I recognise that this is an illusion and this gives me some level of hope.
I realise that I need to question my assumptions deeply. If I do, the self-imposed limitations will be undermined.
I have noticed that the inner critic is now louder than usual. I often catch myself spiraling down into perpetual thoughts of negativity. As soon as I shine my awareness onto the matter - for a brief moment the thoughts lose their significance.
I feel like I am stuck in a habitual thought pattern that has been with me for as long as I can remember. I want to break out of it but trying will only make it worse. It's fair to say that I have been increasingly neurotic in my behavior and perception of reality since I began running this sub. I am projecting this current state onto the future assuming that it will always be this way. I recognise that this is an illusion and this gives me some level of hope.
I realise that I need to question my assumptions deeply. If I do, the self-imposed limitations will be undermined.
