10-07-2021, 01:28 AM
Day 8/180 REST
The cloud seems to have passed, I feel much better today. Just did a 1-hour meditation and that felt great. I realized that the secret to a good meditation session is to surrender to everything that arises in your experience and to let go of any preconceived notions of how the meditation should or shouldn't be.
I am pleased that my nighttime terrors have ceased to exist for a number of months now. They started just over a year ago when I began LTU6. I was literally waking up with panic attacks on a daily basis. I became scared of the dark. I am glad that shit is behind me now and can have a restful night's sleep.
I have been contemplating what I want to do with my life but have no clear answers. The idea of just coasting by and attending a 9-5 is really unsettling to me. What am I here to do really? I think about this question every single day now. LTU6 was trying to show me something, but my scared little self had none of it, hence why I switched to OF for now.
The cloud seems to have passed, I feel much better today. Just did a 1-hour meditation and that felt great. I realized that the secret to a good meditation session is to surrender to everything that arises in your experience and to let go of any preconceived notions of how the meditation should or shouldn't be.
I am pleased that my nighttime terrors have ceased to exist for a number of months now. They started just over a year ago when I began LTU6. I was literally waking up with panic attacks on a daily basis. I became scared of the dark. I am glad that shit is behind me now and can have a restful night's sleep.
I have been contemplating what I want to do with my life but have no clear answers. The idea of just coasting by and attending a 9-5 is really unsettling to me. What am I here to do really? I think about this question every single day now. LTU6 was trying to show me something, but my scared little self had none of it, hence why I switched to OF for now.
