The Modern Libertine's diary

[Cortez]

Man, I've been tired lately and that could be due to the carpet bombing on my mind. I feel like it's really doing my major things in my brain. Of course it adds to the sleepiness that I usually get up at 3:30 am every day and lift weights on averag for at least an hour five days a week, but that's becoming normal for me. The extra tiredness is the mental lethargy that I'm used to from the early days of alpha male, whenever it was really hitting my brain hard. This is hitting it way harder. It's definitely much stronger. I have the desire to take lot's of naps, lol.

As far as effects go, I find myself enjoying the company of women more and more. Actually enjoying them and their beauty and everything about them. They enjoy being around me more to. Girls go out of their way on a daily basis to do things for me and on general just turn in to giggling wrecks around me. It's tough to describe this way of being, but it's a pretty great feeling. I become overcome with joy sometimes for no reason and find myself smiling a lot and yet I do not have a tremendous desire to pursue women. I know there's tons of them for me everywhere. That's the way it should be.