The Modern Libertine's diary

[Shannon]

A lot of fun stuff happened today. I went to the ren faire in a neighboring city all day long dressed as a pirate. I went there alone, though, because none of my friends wanted to go. I was grateful, though, because these days, I have no trouble going to any event such as that on my own and when I do it forces it me outside of my comfort zone. A ren faire is definitely an event where you WANT to be outside of your comfort zone because it's like a million times more fun. I was going to be a cast member this year before I ran in to a chain of bad luck earlier this year, but everything is good now and I feel on top of the world. I know some people there as well and it's very easy to make new "friends" if you're charming because these women let all of their inhibitions go. I won't run through all of the stuff that happened today because it would fill a book, but rest assured that by the end of the day I had a great deal of women walking by me saying "Hiiiiiiiii Lord Cortez." whilst giving me the eye. It's tough work being charming. I kissed so many hands today. It was ridiculous. The moment I walked in today, I was caught by a beautiful women and immediately made to escort her to the castle dance. I did horribly, needless to say, but I warned her of that in advance and then she bought me a beer afterwards. I've known that girl since Halloween. I really like her a lot. A girl that I'm attracted to that also happens to have a fantastic sense of humor just drives me wild.

Other things that happened

-I got my chest licked up and down in public view by a beautiful woman

The same woman does a lot of things to me on a regular basis whenever I see her and she made it well known when I saw her that she's now single(She's been engaged for like a year). She's a lot of fun too.

Alot of other stuff happened on par with everything I mentioned above, but it's not neccesary to retell all of that. You get the gist of it.

Anyway, I am so comfortable now in going outside of my comfort zone. I mean dancing in public? That terrified me in the past and I did it twice today! Yeah after the first time where I sucked, I went and watched another round later in the day and was grabbed by another girl to dance with her. This time I actualy started to do really well. I proved to myself that I can dance and I actually enjoy it. That blew my mind, but everything that happened today didn't at all. It sounds ridiculous to say that beautiful women licking you up and down in broad daylight is a normal part of your reality, but it is AND all the other stuff that happened. It's just normal. My humility, as well, has shot way up and I'm more and more willing all the time to fall on my ass. All I can say is it's about damn time. My pride has been a huge problem with me for years and I've always been afraid to fall on my ass, but now I almost welcome it because it's the only way to grow and I want to grow as much as I can in this life. My bantering ability has grown exponentially as well and if all of this is normal and par for the course for Sex Magnet then I can't wait for stage 2.


Shannon, please tell me if you get any definite "AHA!" moments reading that and what improvements might have been due to stage 1. I'm very curious.

Definitely. Especially the willingness to "fall on your ass". It really helps to be willing to take risks when it comes to being a sex magnet. Who dares, wins.

[Cortez]

While it would be nice to have one girl...it's difficult, because I am so good at being bad. Fun night tonight. I made some new friends, did some heavy drinking with my ren faire friends, got a great massage, made two new lady friends and overall had a fantastic night. I'll give more of an update on the effects os stage 2 when I can sort them out, but right nw I just seem to be flirting more. I've been listening to it for about 3 days now, so I really don't have al that much to report on yet. It is becoming easier and easier for me to attract both women and new friends, though. That is definitely noticable.

[Cortez]

All of these fears are being pulled up and all I can say is that it really is wonderful. I spent far too many years living in my comfort zone and these past 5 years have been a gradual and sometimes startling coming out of that comfort zone, but really only in the past year have I really started facing fears and it's quickly become one of my favorite activities. The fact that this sub(or a combination of the sub and my own desire) is outright FORCING me out of my comfort zone is an entirely refreshing experience and I don't find uncomfortable at all. In fact, I find a certain comfort in being uncomfortable now, because I know that I am growing. When I get too comfortable, I start to get irritated and that's the way it needs to be for a while. The funny thing about your comfort zone is that it only contains what you're used to and not what you actually want. If anything you can say that your fears are a sort of compass guiding towards what you want sometimes. In short, this sub is helping me to grow tremendously. I can feel that. Some days feel a little off and I'm incredibly tired, but that tells me that it's working. It's the feeling of a mental workout. This sub is no joke.


Oh, and I forgot to mention the new friend I randomly met at the grocery store the the other day. This is one of those chance encounters or manifestations if you will. I've been saying that I want to go sky diving soon and so I randomly meet this lady who is an active sky diver, start talking to her for a while, make friends with her and whenever I'm ready. she'll point me in the direction of the place she goes to. It's amazing, the friends you meet when you're open to it.

[Cortez]

I have been incredibly tired lately and every once in a while I have those days where I'm just highly irritable, but on the flip side, when those days pass, I'm on top of the world. This sub is definitely doing some hardcore stuff, though, because I just been so tried like my brain is struggling to keep up. Man, I am getting so much more sexual though and girls are becoming more sexual around me. The other night when I was hanging out with some new friends from the ren faire at about 11, we were all sitting around drinking and bantering and all the large wenches kept saying how hot I am and hitting on me(and a new friend I made who is gay). It doesn't bother me when I'm hit on by gay guys, though. A good portion of my friends are gay. I seem to get along really well with gay guys for some reason(and lesbians as well) We tend to have similar attitudes, except...you know the whole me being straight thing. So anyway, one of the large wenches comes around and gives me this fantastic massage, I was about to start purring, and then of course she asked if she could have a kiss. So I gave her a good one. Those bigger girls love me there, because I always make sure and make them feel sexy...as they should. Hell, I even go out of my way to hit on old ladies sometimes. It was a very fun night, though. The whole time all this was happening, I was sitting next to and chatting up a new friend of mine who my gay friend introduced me to(Seriously make some gay friends, they always know beautiful women and they will try and hook you up with them). This girl is a belly dancer and a very beautiful one at that, but even more importantly, she has a fantastic personality and is a genuinely sweet girl. She kept asking me throughout the night if I was going to come and watch her belly dance next Sunday when I go back. She asked me like a million times and made me promise when I was leaving. Im going to get to know this girl better. She intruiges me.

So Sex Magnet is working pretty well, but making quite tired, lol.

[ronatello]

Tired is an understatement! LOL
Just keep on truckin'

[Shannon]

Hey. You wanted hardcore. I made hardcore. SM2011 is the most hardcore subliminal ever made, by me or anyone else, to the best of my knowledge. I'm looking forward to seeing what you have to say by Stage 6. lol

[Cortez]

Hey, I'm not complaining and you aren't lying. Hardcore is an understatement. This thing is bombarding my brain way harder than Alpha Male ever did, but boy does it work well. I finally came out of my tired slump today, which to me means that I'm somewhat getting used to stage 2 and when I stop being tired, my charm goes up 200%. I've got two girls at work that like me a lot. One girl definitely and the other one, I can just tell. The first one is a pretty cute blonde girl and she just has the biggest smile on her face every time she see's me and she has the same sense of humor as me. I can tell that she likes really dominant guys(good because that's me) and she acts really feminine and giggly around me, constantly making eye contact. She said something about wanting to go to the ren faire and I'm going one more time on Sunday, so I asked her if she was free, but she works that day. So, since I asked her out this time and she was unavailable next time, it's her turn to ask me out. I'll be sure and let her know this next time I see her. XD
The funny thing is most guys at work think she's weird. I think that's what's sexy about her, because she actually has a similar personality to me. Most people used to think I was weird too, but not anymore. It's funny how fast "weird" can turn in to "irresistable" depending on how much you believe in your own reality.

So...

-Tiredness has subsided

-My flirting is reaching all time high levels

-Neediness is being killed(It feels like there's an endless supply of women in the world available to me)

-Attachment to the outcome of all things is being released

-I allow things to happen instead of trying to make them happen the way I think they should(Which makes good things happen way more often)

-I feel incredibly sexy

-My escalation skills are rapidly improving. Girls get comfortable being sexual with me really fast

-This seems like it's from the sub because it's a recent thing, but I've been more easily able to prioritize things lately. My productivity in whatever I'm doing has gone WAY up.

-I really don't get stressed out anymore. I get irritated, yes, but when that irritation passes, it's gone. It's like a duck flapping it's wings after a fight to release pent up energy. Once it's gone, it's gone.

[Cortez]

I got the comment today from a girl that my eye's are full of lust. That cracked me up. I replied "Uhhh, yeah, they're always like that." and she said "I know, I can feel it coming off of you in waves" or something to that effect. I think everyone knows how sexual I am by now. That's just a well known fact. Sex Magnet is making it a hundred times worse, haha.

[RainbowAbyss]

Did she mean it in a 'good' way, like intrigued, a more neutral way like 'mmm whats going on here',
or a bad way like 'I better git before I get raped' lol, I'm just messing on the last one, but I'm curious about the nature of her comment, perpetual waves of lust sounds like an uncomfortable, thing to be giving off haha, but is kind of just out of my reality right now, there are probably subtleties to it that make it very different than I could understand right now.

[ronatello]

I got the comment today from a girl that my eye's are full of lust. That cracked me up. I replied "Uhhh, yeah, they're always like that." and she said "I know, I can feel it coming off of you in waves" or something to that effect. I think everyone knows how sexual I am by now. That's just a well known fact. Sex Magnet is making it a hundred times worse, haha.

I would take that as a compliment. Was the girl smiling when she said it?

[Cortez]

Yes, she was smiling as she is constantly smiling at me, walking by me staring at me, trying to make eye contact with me. She's not my type at all, though, but her sister is.

[RainbowAbyss]

Yes, she was smiling as she is constantly smiling at me, walking by me staring at me, trying to make eye contact with me. She's not my type at all, though, but her sister is.

haha, figured as such...
jealously triangle-ENSUE!

[Benjamin]

Very cool.

The effects i'm noticing in Stage 4 of alpha is pretty good in this area so I really look forward to starting sex magnet eventually.

-Ben

[Cortez]

I've been getting way irritated lately. It's kind of like some of the beginning stages of alpha. It's a good thing I'm used to this sort of thing. It just means I'm growing or that my mind is forcing me to. I'd better let up on whatever resistance I'm feeling. Being irritable isn't a fun thing. It will pass. That just tells me that this subliminal is hardcore.


Oh, one thing I noticed that has improved A LOT lately. Is that whenever anyone says something to me and especially when they make a smart ass remark, I generally stare them in the eye's and wait a few seconds before answering them. One thing I noticed about the way men and women interact over the years is that men tend to react RIGHT when a woman says something to them, often times speaking way too fast and saying something stupid. I have worked on slowing down my speech and not reacting to women's smart ass behavior over the years, but generally it has been a conscious thing. Lately, though, whenever one of them says something like that to get me to react, I stare them in the eye's with a slight smirk on my face, take a deep breath and THEN answer them or I don't even answer them at all and just give them a shoulder shrug or roll my eye's. It's also pretty hard for guys to AMOG(For lack of a better term, God help me) me and I have met some guys that are true champs at it. I'm getting to the master level at Verbal Aikido, which is what I like to call non-resistance in conversations and going with the flow of whatever someone is saying about you and adding to it instead of pushing up against any accusations and becoming defensive. It makes for very charming conversation.

I should have an interesting day tomorrow. Last weekend for ren faire, I'm going by myself and I have some antics planned.