07-31-2017, 08:24 PM
(This post was last modified: 07-31-2017, 08:33 PM by Raikahoken.)
Just switched back to 3.1A yesterday. DAMMMNNNN!
One difference between A and B jumped out at me. On B I wasn't worried about anything, my enjoyment for small little things increased, like eating food, watching movies, shopping etc. I was like a kid again, it felt like it's fine to go through life just chilling and enjoying these small pleasures.
On A though, all these are gone. I am back to not enjoying myself and wondering what's the meaning of it all. The inner dialogue that was silenced on B is back too. This morning I found myself waking up tearing lightly, though I don't remember any dreams. Reactions from women are gone too. The pole dancer who was keen to show me some pole dance flaked on me today. On B I wouldn't give a shit and see the positive side, but now on A it affected me. I ended up going to tinder and messaging a bunch of girls, also an old FWB I haven't seen for more than a year.
I have two weeks left of DMSI before I take a one-week break in preparation for MLS. I'm not sure to stick with A for these two weeks or switch to B next week. Hmm...
One difference between A and B jumped out at me. On B I wasn't worried about anything, my enjoyment for small little things increased, like eating food, watching movies, shopping etc. I was like a kid again, it felt like it's fine to go through life just chilling and enjoying these small pleasures.
On A though, all these are gone. I am back to not enjoying myself and wondering what's the meaning of it all. The inner dialogue that was silenced on B is back too. This morning I found myself waking up tearing lightly, though I don't remember any dreams. Reactions from women are gone too. The pole dancer who was keen to show me some pole dance flaked on me today. On B I wouldn't give a shit and see the positive side, but now on A it affected me. I ended up going to tinder and messaging a bunch of girls, also an old FWB I haven't seen for more than a year.
I have two weeks left of DMSI before I take a one-week break in preparation for MLS. I'm not sure to stick with A for these two weeks or switch to B next week. Hmm...