06-20-2022, 07:43 AM
(This post was last modified: 06-20-2022, 07:51 AM by ncbeareatingman.)
6/20/22
where do i begin
for the past 4 weeks or so,
I got seriously super depressed about a lot of things. doing my best to not sound like "break out the violins and set it to music"
some days 12 to 15 hours of sleep...Im doing better now....some deep stuff,dealing with, ect life ,death, being on this planet,value
whats this life for( the band "Creed")? etc... The whole house got hit with COVID
Father is still in "In home Hospice" days to a few weeks to live ( On paper, they said this a year ago) he's still here a while longer
not doing the best though understatment.
Burned out on caregiving and in dealing with relatives who are super neurotic,control freaks, many of them narcisssists
Limiter's,boundaires, dealing with them in small doses and related
all survival ,coping and thriving modes and methods here. burned out
doing much better than 2 weeks ago though,even.now.
I stopped damn near everything and went into hibernation mode.
Sorry to disappoint but I havent even begun HOWL yet like I was ready to, I barely Use UMSv2 only twice a week just to keep the shield in tact. the FRM v-something does'n't hurt either.
This that and the other all added up, I went down for the count. Im slowly coming back up. Pressure.
Shame,Guilt ,Fear dealing with it all and more,culturally and otherwise.
... and then a Ray of hope comes along " Hormone Optimizer for Youthfulness, what a great gift to the world this one will be. wow.
I wont even be able to utilize this until Autumn,unless some other things change along the way which is possible ,however its on
the list for shure for Late September into 2023....Yippie! Like Barry Manilow's tune " I made it through the rain"
Life and the journey continues
where do i begin
for the past 4 weeks or so,
I got seriously super depressed about a lot of things. doing my best to not sound like "break out the violins and set it to music"
some days 12 to 15 hours of sleep...Im doing better now....some deep stuff,dealing with, ect life ,death, being on this planet,value
whats this life for( the band "Creed")? etc... The whole house got hit with COVID
Father is still in "In home Hospice" days to a few weeks to live ( On paper, they said this a year ago) he's still here a while longer
not doing the best though understatment.
Burned out on caregiving and in dealing with relatives who are super neurotic,control freaks, many of them narcisssists
Limiter's,boundaires, dealing with them in small doses and related
all survival ,coping and thriving modes and methods here. burned out
doing much better than 2 weeks ago though,even.now.
I stopped damn near everything and went into hibernation mode.
Sorry to disappoint but I havent even begun HOWL yet like I was ready to, I barely Use UMSv2 only twice a week just to keep the shield in tact. the FRM v-something does'n't hurt either.
This that and the other all added up, I went down for the count. Im slowly coming back up. Pressure.
Shame,Guilt ,Fear dealing with it all and more,culturally and otherwise.
... and then a Ray of hope comes along " Hormone Optimizer for Youthfulness, what a great gift to the world this one will be. wow.
I wont even be able to utilize this until Autumn,unless some other things change along the way which is possible ,however its on
the list for shure for Late September into 2023....Yippie! Like Barry Manilow's tune " I made it through the rain"
Life and the journey continues
Sherlock-your're an amazing fellow,Watson.Though You,yourself,not luminescent, you're an amazing conductor of Light"/"Loving You ,Heals Me"-an-NDE'er.""Blessed are those who can give without remembering and take without forgetting."-Trust is abouve ALL else!!"Money,does NOT change people,it ONLY reveals them!"
