10-10-2017, 02:01 AM
(This post was last modified: 10-10-2017, 02:03 AM by JackOfHearts.)
I just drew another 8 of heart.
I drew it around midday so I know the first part of my day wasn't me being influenced by the card I drew the morning (self fulfilling prophecy)
So that morning I woke up with a very satisfying dream, sexually satisfying It's rare I have a dream so satisfying and it wasn't about a girl actually or a boy, it's like there wasn't even male or female in the process.
I can't explain it but the feeling match the description of the 8 of heart.
Which is feeling at peace, inner balance of emotion, which aren't the result of an external thing but that you are balanced internally.
I felt that way this morning and even my dad complimented me which he never does usually as he is trying to work on himself.
Also today I tried to eat a lot less to feel more at peace with my digestion, to feel the least discomfort possible.
Out the 8 of heart story, there is a thing I'm working on. I noticed that when I eat too much at launch all the afternoon I can't help myself but to keep eating. And the more bloated my stomach is the more I keep it that way by eating again. It's like a downward spiral, I feel bad because I ate too much (it's a little discomfort mind you) and I want to eat again to feel good but the feeling doesn't last. It's like alcohol actually or cigarette, it's more subtle but the principle is the same. With alcohol you feel good after drinking but after a bit of time the feeling goes down and you drink again to keep the feeling up but the more you drink the more the good feeling go faster in the downward direction.
Same with food and the worst the type of food you are eating the faster that downward spiral go. But even with the healthiest type of food there is still a minimum of discomfort, a very subtle one but still there.
I feel the best the morning when I have nothing in my stomach
I drew it around midday so I know the first part of my day wasn't me being influenced by the card I drew the morning (self fulfilling prophecy)
So that morning I woke up with a very satisfying dream, sexually satisfying It's rare I have a dream so satisfying and it wasn't about a girl actually or a boy, it's like there wasn't even male or female in the process.
I can't explain it but the feeling match the description of the 8 of heart.
Which is feeling at peace, inner balance of emotion, which aren't the result of an external thing but that you are balanced internally.
I felt that way this morning and even my dad complimented me which he never does usually as he is trying to work on himself.
Also today I tried to eat a lot less to feel more at peace with my digestion, to feel the least discomfort possible.
Out the 8 of heart story, there is a thing I'm working on. I noticed that when I eat too much at launch all the afternoon I can't help myself but to keep eating. And the more bloated my stomach is the more I keep it that way by eating again. It's like a downward spiral, I feel bad because I ate too much (it's a little discomfort mind you) and I want to eat again to feel good but the feeling doesn't last. It's like alcohol actually or cigarette, it's more subtle but the principle is the same. With alcohol you feel good after drinking but after a bit of time the feeling goes down and you drink again to keep the feeling up but the more you drink the more the good feeling go faster in the downward direction.
Same with food and the worst the type of food you are eating the faster that downward spiral go. But even with the healthiest type of food there is still a minimum of discomfort, a very subtle one but still there.
I feel the best the morning when I have nothing in my stomach