10-22-2021, 09:42 PM
This week has really been one hell of a struggle for me. Mentally, emotionally, in every way. The relationship has been over for a few months now but I had a wave of emotions and memories come up this week. Not wanting to get back together, but more of a disappointment, bitterness,jealousy and loneliness too I guess.
I know she's out there banging other guys and just being wild partying. I wouldn't want to be with someone like that anyways but it still hurts to know that we were almost married, could have had kids by now too.
Oh well, a man's journey is a lonely one. And coming to grips with the reality of female nature can be a shock, especially if you grew up thinking women were these perfect angels who could do no wrong. You live and you learn, day by day, one foot in front of the other and keep moving forward. After a while it does all feel pointless but still we move forward
I know she's out there banging other guys and just being wild partying. I wouldn't want to be with someone like that anyways but it still hurts to know that we were almost married, could have had kids by now too.
Oh well, a man's journey is a lonely one. And coming to grips with the reality of female nature can be a shock, especially if you grew up thinking women were these perfect angels who could do no wrong. You live and you learn, day by day, one foot in front of the other and keep moving forward. After a while it does all feel pointless but still we move forward
