Super Fluff - Journal

[Fluffy]

US/LM related.

Last night I did 1 loop, as I need my brain. On higher loops I notice a interesting thing happening, it is quite challenging to put into words but I will do my best.

I sometimes get these experiences, it is being in a dream and thinking it is my life but apart of me is suddenly aware of myself laying in bed and in the dream I am going through this in real time telling the people around me that something is happening to me. It is ultra realistic and I am consciously aware that it is happening in real time but my reality is this other place not the one where I am sleeping in, but I am suddenly becoming aware of both life's simultaneously. It is pretty cool and vividly intense.

Another things I have noticed, is that inside dreams I am crying and I feel the sensation of crying and the releasing, relief heavily in my heart area. But when I wake up I don't feel upset or feel anything.

These experiences are so cool because they are very unique, and I mean that from someone that has had many Lucid Dreams and a few OBE's. These are totally different. It seems to happen more when I go from 1 loop to much high loops and then it goes.

@Shannon should totally create either a Lucid Dreaming subliminal and/or Out of body Experience subliminal. Hopefully he will when 6G comes.

[DarkTempatation]

I am all about OBE Experiences. i do hope @Shannon makes an out of body experience subliminal 6g i would buy it straight away! come out of the body and travel to unseen places is all I want! and explore the universe haha! Hope the sub is going well for you @Fluffy

[Fluffy]

I am all about OBE Experiences. i do hope @Shannon makes an out of body experience subliminal 6g i would buy it straight away! come out of the body and travel to unseen places is all I want! and explore the universe haha! Hope the sub is going well for you @Fluffy

Yes man, indeed! It would be totally awe-inspiring, amazing, fantastic, out of this world, super duper, just wow...and this is speaking lightly.

I know you can get to an out of body experience from a lucid dream, but I would much prefer @Shannon make an Out of Body Experience subliminal. I mean there is a wealth of knowledge out there from books such as:

The Journeys Trilogy...
Journeys out of the body by Robert Monroe
Far Journeys by Robert Monroe
Ultimate Journey By Robert Monroe

Astral Dynamics: The Complete Book of Out-of-Body Experiences by Robert Bruce

The Phase: Shattering the Illusion of Reality by Michael Raduga.

Putting the knowledge from them books into a sub = MIND BLOWN.

[Fluffy]

I don't know about anyone else, but it takes conscious work to feel good each day. If I just don't do certain processes or rituals each day It is not long before I starting going down vibrationally/emotionally. It is like I brush my teeth each day, I eat multiple times a day, I go toilet multiple times a day, I move my thoughts into better feeling places and focus on wanted aspect of my desires and where I am going multiple times a day.

If I don't do one of these things every day, there are major consequences. I really don't know how the average person functions, because if I don't consciously work on feeling better, my emotional state by default can easy go down, through focusing on my here and now reality.

What helps me to feel better is to focus on where I am going, somewhere that feels much better. I have to do this multiple times a day, deliberate and consciously! As soon as I slack in my focus, thoughts, feelings...Before I know it I am not feeling good and then it takes much more conscious effort to deliberately feel better.

Basically I have slacked off and I didn't even realise it and now it is going to take me a few days to move my emotional state into a better feelings places, my doing certain things that help me feel better either through focusing on more wanted aspects of life or through moving subjects (That I don't feel so good about) into better feeling places one thought at a time....So I gotta put the work in.

One thing that has changed lately is that, before I wanted to just focus on my goals and not be involved with a girl or have a girlfriend, so I can just focus on myself and go off and do a degree in a few years time etc. Which I understand as I don't want any distractions. I also kinda realised that the another reason is that I have a lot of resistance around the subject involving my living conditions, my parents and commitment with a girl etc. So it is much easier to just get of the subject and just focus on my goals.

What makes this more challenging is that I practise semen retention and there is a part of me that would like nothing more than to spread my seed, repeatedly.

So I have these mixed desires and resistance from each side.

What makes me feel better getting involved with a girl is when I think about her having her own place and me going into her life only, instead of her coming into my life. I have done this multiple times, my last 2 girlfriends, my last girlfriend wanted to come into my life eventually and visit and come to where I live (with my parents) and meet my parents. This was the worse feeling ever and I did not want to go there ever again because of past experience, as I was married for 4 years and me and my ex wife lived with my parents and my mother was basically married to my wife and it is was horrible, but! ...on keeping this in a positive feeling space, It was quite a few years ago and as long as a girl does not come here, while I am living here I feel completely fine.

This is another reason why I wanted to just focus on myself, as I want to eventually go do a degree in a few years and kinda built my own life from then on wards. It's all about me bettering myself and becoming independent and self sufficient, so I can eventually have my own house and have my own life, so when I do have a girlfriend she will come into MY life that I have created for myself and not my parents life.

So I thought to myself and made the decision a while ago, forget about women and just focus on myself and then in the future after all my studies and getting my own places....A lot if not all of my issues I have now around it will be gone because of the change in the circumstances.

It is a weird dilemma and more challenging when I meet a nice girl and/or I am super horny and my biology is screaming at me to in-pregnant some girl I am attracted to.

Nothing will happen with the girl I met, that I mentioned in previous posts but it got me thinking about how nice it would be to have a girlfriend and all that stuff. I started thinking about all this and thought to myself, I can have both if I want to, obviously I would have to clear up all my resistance on all these things relating to it. I felt fearful just thinking that, as I do not want to relive the past, which must of been a traumatic experience for me. What comes to mind is that I gotta be self sufficient and independent first! No matter what!!! It sucks but the only way I could do it is if the girl had her own place and I only go to hers and she never comes to mine and never meets my parents.

Anyway, I plan to do some stuff to feel better now.

[Fluffy]

Ended up releasing my sexual energy today, I actually feel better in that direction now, which is a relief. I have started to be more positively deliberate about it being ok to release now and then, accepting that is fine and totally ok. It's about feeling good no matter what decision I make.

When I release my mind finds it much easier to focus on my goals and women being much less of a priority. Which obviously makes sense why. There is many positives to both sides of the coin to be honest. I just want to feel, embody positive beliefs about both sides of the coin, then it is a win/win situation no matter what I choose.

I got offered that job, I knew I was going to get it anyway, just from how I felt from the Interview and I had a taster shift last weekend which was interesting.

So yeah this is a positive but feels totally normal though, like not a big deal. My mind is still thinking of all the things I gotta do next and where I want to go and that there is no time to celebrate because this is only the first step towards where I want to be.

I have started the English class once a week, so I gotta do this until exams in June 2019 and then I go onto another course which will be 3-4 days a week for a year and then in 2020 can do a 4 year degree.

So I am still at the beginning and I still have to focus on what is in front of me now for everything else to come after.

Having my own house after finishing the degree would be wonderful, thinking about now how I can put money aside each month over 5 years to save for a deposit on a decent mortgage by the time I finish the degree.

I am thinking about using visualisation more often and making it a daily practice to feel and focus on my wants, desires, goals. As if I don't focus consistently on what I want, I will end up focusing by default on what I don't want. Which sucks if I let that build up momentum.

Last night of round 5. Tomorrow 2 nights off. I thought my nights off started tonight, but they start from tomorrow. I am REALLY looking forward to my 2 nights off, It is going to feel so good.

[Fluffy]

So last night I finally had a situation that allowed me to move on from my ex girlfriend, I basically had a conversation with her on the phone and it was interesting and worked out surprisingly well...We got into a little disagreement and she hanged up on me (She never did that before), anyway I took this opportunity to delete her number/messages and block her. It felt like sweet relief.

People would think ahhh this sounds bad, but something I have been noticing lately is there are A LOT of blessings in disguise in life! Sometimes you think something unwanted is bad, but it can actually turn out to be the best thing for you....like ever.

I think it is very beneficial to see things as a good thing, as it allows the good thing to reveal itself to you.

I feel relief, I feel like this was meant to happen, it was a ticking time bomb and just like the build up of a good orgasm with sweet pleasurable relief at the end, this was a happy ending indeed.

Last night was actually my first night of after round 5. I thought it was not only because on my calendar on my phone the start was marked down as over two days. So night my second night off. Last night sleep felt good.

[blth]

What would you give as a review in your first 5 rounds of using this sub?

[Fluffy]

What would you give as a review in your first 5 rounds of using this sub?

I'll get to the 12 week mark and then give my review. It's about 4 and half weeks until I hit the 12 weeks mark, so not that long to be honest.

As the goals I wanted to achieve are set in place and I only have to work towards them each day/week, I think I will be able to let my hair down and have some fun in between, so I might consider running DMSI 3.3, I will see where I stand.

[Fluffy]

Apart of me wants to take a break from subliminals, I will see what happens, I'll let you know if I do.

I might even use E2 for next sub, that or DMSI 3.3.

I wanted to see how E2, attracts. As back in 2016, I was on E2 I attracted a few hotties...I grew alot from them hotties, so maybe they where apart of my healing. Who knows. I like the idea of the unconditional love aspect though.

The other day I was even considering BIATBW, as I feel I got more photogenic on that, but going back to older tech is harder than I thought.

I won't act on impulse.

I am just writing thoughts.

I would like a bit more excitement in my life, sex with girls would do it. It does feel that side of things I have put off and all that does give a buzz, dating multiple girls, having sex. I have got into a habit of long streaks of semen retention, so I start feeling like something is "missing"....and what that is, is releasing and having pleasurable orgasms, with females and enjoying their presence and company etc it's all part of the nice feeling package.

I don't have caffeine, sugar, drugs, alcohol, orgasms ....no wonder I love going Krav to exercise and get a buzz, as that is the only way I can get a buzz. So yeah now I am considering getting on the wagon and dating again, just for the sweet pleasurable chemicals releases in my brain...I deserve it.

So yeah maybe I will take a break soon to prepare for DMSI 3.3, I will think about it and go with the flow.

[Fluffy]

So... I have done something random. Last night I started DMSI 3.1, yes I wrote that correct, 3.1. I have my reasons... I wanted to test it for shits and giggles and see what happens.

I was getting bored with US/LM, so I thought this would mix it up a bit at 7 loops hybrid and give me a buzz.

What is the worst that can happen?.... turbulence? ...get laid?... Nothing? .....OH NO!

[Fluffy]

I can see my reality has shifted already after one night of 7 loops of DMSI 3.1 A. No joke.

I don't know how long I will use this version for, as I know I do want a decent break from all subliminal input for a while, so I will just wing it, it might be just for 1 week.

One of the reasons I wanted to use 3.1 A, is mainly because I was using it when I met my last girlfriend (and the one before that, but that one don't matter) I wanted to see if using it again would bring back that reality. After one night of 7 loops I already feel like I have shifted reality, as my perception of my reality and how I feel, feels different and reminds me of the past a little bit (I am quite surprised how each sub makes reality feel like a different one)

Now it is totally fine if my ex girlfriend does not get in contact within these next few weeks, lets just say it is a reality experiment, I am open for attracting someone even better.

It is also a test to see if I actually want to use the next version of DMSI. Do I REALLY want to focus on SEX again? REALLY, do I?

Seriously I don't know what the fuck I am doing, I was meditating yesterday and I suddenly had a strong urge to start using DMSI 3.1, it just came to me out of no where, I did not even think about it before.

I also wanted to take the next 21 days to clear my energy field of my last relationship, as the last few days before today it came into my mind and I started feeling a bit hurt and confused about it and I was wondering why I was even thinking about her still, like why can't I just forget about her and move on? After all, I was the one that ended it!

Anyway when I was meditating, urge of using DMSI 3.1 came to me and now I am here.

Do I know where I will go with this?....No. I don't know what is happening right now, It feels like I am doing it automatically.

I wanted a buzz and I am already feeling something, let this mini challenge commence.

On boarding DMSI 3.1, feels like boarding an intense Rollercoaster, waiting for it to just have its way with you. All you can do is just hold on.

...but who don't LOVE rollercoasters!?!?!??

Put it this way guys, I thought Sky Diving was boring, so I gotta get my kicks some how.

[Fluffy]

So yeah DMSI, has been having some effect ...such as feeling more attractive when I look in the mirror and when going outside the house.

Something happened that I never have done before...I joined Tinder. I don't have any social media and don't plan to but I remember years ago you needed Facebook, but I had an urge to download it today and I could just sign up with my number.

Days before I downloaded Bumble but not much happening on there. Got Tinder today and couldn't help paying for unlimited right swipes for 6 months.

This is obviously DMSI. I told myself, I will try it for 6 months and if after that I think it is not worth it, I will delete it and never go on it again.

I don't know if it is going to be worth it, it just another door to access women I would not normally have access to. I much much prefer just going out in the real world and seeing attractive women I like as it is real and feels more natural and authentic.

Anyway I did a shit load of swiping today, I seriously gotta take it easy on the swiping from now on, as I got things to do in the real world. It's just an experiment, I keep telling myself. Whatever happens from it I will learn something either that it is beneficial or it is a waste of time. Win/Win situation.

[Fluffy]

So I just got a refund. Fook paying for it, not worth it. I feel better now, I'll just use the free version, with limited right swipes....it will be better and more productive.

I have a negative feeling about these apps, a part of me wants to delete and only use the real world to come across women. Using these apps feels so fake and artificial and I think coming across/meeting someone in real life I have more chance of being on same wave length with them. On Tinder I have to swipe through alot of women that are not my cup of tea for example fake women with no depth, are really off putting.

I have standards and I just don't like superficial, it grinds on me.

I'll test these apps for a little longer, but I think I will feel better deleting them. Let's see how long I can last until I delete.

[Fluffy]

So got a girls number off of Tinder we had a mega mutual interest, so we pretty much hit it off right away. I got her number and we been speaking on Whatsapp.

Funny enough at English class, that young girl from before (which I found today from her she is 19 years old, 20 next month) and I saw her vaping outside near the doors (only flavoured nicotine) and I was coming from the toilet coming down this long corridor and I could of just turned right at the end to go into the cafe, but my body just kept walking towards her to go talk to her lol.

She ended up saying she has got her new phone and that I should send her a message so that she has got my number. I found out she smoke the weed (Which makes sense lol) anyway I said I have in the past etc and she said to me we should get high together sometime lol. I was like yeah sure.

The only way I would let this happen if she worked to make this happen, I am not going to do anything. In class she is super shy, but when I went outside to talk to her she really perked up and then when she went back to class, she was speaking more in general. Thinking about this now I am thinking "Ahhhhh bless her", she might just be really shy and have her own personal internal challenges. I am glad I gave her space and now I can just be friendly and supportive towards her as a human being, you know have some compassion.

It is weird I remember when I last vaped weed what was probley like 6 months ago, I remember thinking I would love to meet a stoner girl to get high with. And going back further in my past, I remember really yearning for it and now here is an opportunity right in front of my eyes, now...when I don't want to vape weed now. Funny how life is lol.

Anyway I am confirming my previous suspicions that 3.1 blends well with me.