05-23-2016, 08:47 PM
Day 33 SMast.
Day 19 Ultra Mot.
Not feeling any more motivated than usual, but I have energy at the end of my work day, which I can use towards other skills. I'm also able to practice singing in the car on my commute. Guitar practice has been taking a hit, since my schedule conflicts with my parents'.
Goodness, I was frazzled at work; I was screwing up left and right, and getting angry. I almost snapped at this one waitress, but I reeled it in, and we ended on decent terms (she was aware that I was pissed at her).
Now that I'm not even considering PMO (and it's been one week), I think that it's transmuting; this other waitress (not even on my radar for attractiveness) was asking me to go to the bars. My supervisor (petite woman my age) was being more open about her sex life than I've ever heard her. A lot of random women (much older) were staring at me. It's interesting, but it doesn't feel any different, given that they aren't women that I want to have in my life romantically.
Day 19 Ultra Mot.
Not feeling any more motivated than usual, but I have energy at the end of my work day, which I can use towards other skills. I'm also able to practice singing in the car on my commute. Guitar practice has been taking a hit, since my schedule conflicts with my parents'.
Goodness, I was frazzled at work; I was screwing up left and right, and getting angry. I almost snapped at this one waitress, but I reeled it in, and we ended on decent terms (she was aware that I was pissed at her).
Now that I'm not even considering PMO (and it's been one week), I think that it's transmuting; this other waitress (not even on my radar for attractiveness) was asking me to go to the bars. My supervisor (petite woman my age) was being more open about her sex life than I've ever heard her. A lot of random women (much older) were staring at me. It's interesting, but it doesn't feel any different, given that they aren't women that I want to have in my life romantically.
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