04-21-2016, 08:38 PM
Day 62 MLS,
Day 1 SMast. 2 Days since last PMO
Yesterday, I had gotten such intense brain fog due to the previous night's "mingling" that it was impossible to focus, study, read, or feel any form of motivation or excitement for life. I then become thoroughly convinced that my emotional state is more intimately connected to my sexual habits than I had wanted to admit.
I decided then that I was so completely done with the entire drama of it; I now realize that this sort of habit has cost me romance, sex, money, academic credentials, learning abilities, long-term motivation, reading speed, mental processing power, and my progress in my life story.
I'm now starting to question whether to attribute this habit to undoing some of the results that I have gotten from 6-Stage programs, such as Alpha Male and Sex Magnet; if I drain myself of the desire for sex with a woman, how could I expect the program to run its course correctly?
In reading the accounts of the many people who have tried the No-Fap lifestyle, I've soon become convinced that I needed to start using my current subliminal, 'Stop Masturbating', and to put this into place right now.
Here's the situation; I'm not even a bad case; I do it every 1-4 days on average. But, I had my first orgasm, by my own hands, at 10 years old. I viewed porn for the first time at the age of 13 or 14. I distinctly remember that on the night where I jerked off to porn, I entirely forgot to brush my teeth (which I never do). This distancing, contrasting where I am now to the person I may have embodied without this, has, as a concept, at least, has weighed upon me on the last few days.
A day or two after I masturbate, I tend to be quiet, non-social, passive, and soft-spoken. For years, I've accepted this as "the way I am".
I am truly interesting in learning firsthand the effects of long-term abstinence from this habit.
Day 1 SMast. 2 Days since last PMO
Yesterday, I had gotten such intense brain fog due to the previous night's "mingling" that it was impossible to focus, study, read, or feel any form of motivation or excitement for life. I then become thoroughly convinced that my emotional state is more intimately connected to my sexual habits than I had wanted to admit.
I decided then that I was so completely done with the entire drama of it; I now realize that this sort of habit has cost me romance, sex, money, academic credentials, learning abilities, long-term motivation, reading speed, mental processing power, and my progress in my life story.
I'm now starting to question whether to attribute this habit to undoing some of the results that I have gotten from 6-Stage programs, such as Alpha Male and Sex Magnet; if I drain myself of the desire for sex with a woman, how could I expect the program to run its course correctly?
In reading the accounts of the many people who have tried the No-Fap lifestyle, I've soon become convinced that I needed to start using my current subliminal, 'Stop Masturbating', and to put this into place right now.
Here's the situation; I'm not even a bad case; I do it every 1-4 days on average. But, I had my first orgasm, by my own hands, at 10 years old. I viewed porn for the first time at the age of 13 or 14. I distinctly remember that on the night where I jerked off to porn, I entirely forgot to brush my teeth (which I never do). This distancing, contrasting where I am now to the person I may have embodied without this, has, as a concept, at least, has weighed upon me on the last few days.
A day or two after I masturbate, I tend to be quiet, non-social, passive, and soft-spoken. For years, I've accepted this as "the way I am".
I am truly interesting in learning firsthand the effects of long-term abstinence from this habit.
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