07-14-2018, 09:38 AM
Missed a couple of days & realized last night when I turned the sub on to play that I have been listening to E1 not E2. At least it's wasn't something unrelated. It got me curious if there is any benefit to running E1 for three to six months then moving on to E2 for three to six months? I want to say I read a journal where someone had done just that.
I also have realized how not being consistent with the audio isn't just or necessarily resistance but also comes across as I'm sounding like a victim. The reason I mention that is because I remember telling someone many years ago how I was clearly displaying the " victim mentality " when I said how I didn't ask to be this way so why should I have to do the work to fix it? I want to say I said that when I was in my mid to late twenties. To me it's not anything like that at all anymore. I know for a fact that what I'm feeling now is nothing but fear. Fear of how long it will take to run E2 & especially the fear of dealing with whatever it is that needs to be dealt with as it comes to the surface
I also have realized how not being consistent with the audio isn't just or necessarily resistance but also comes across as I'm sounding like a victim. The reason I mention that is because I remember telling someone many years ago how I was clearly displaying the " victim mentality " when I said how I didn't ask to be this way so why should I have to do the work to fix it? I want to say I said that when I was in my mid to late twenties. To me it's not anything like that at all anymore. I know for a fact that what I'm feeling now is nothing but fear. Fear of how long it will take to run E2 & especially the fear of dealing with whatever it is that needs to be dealt with as it comes to the surface
