Spiral's Sex Magnet 2011 testimonial..

[Spiral]

I dislike writing a lot of stuff but here it goes..
Before beginning Sex Magnet I finished Alpha Male as well as a hand full of other subs. But one thing that continued to plague me is being comfortable in my skin, anxiety, and being a leader. It was all about self control for me and I feel like I have a lot more control over my life now than I ever have. But also I’m more happy and the void in my heart is growing smaller and smaller every day. My anxiety is at an all time low and I feel like I can have any girl I want. The only problem with living in abundance is making a choice. I seem to be significantly more decisive in all things not involving women which is funny so I think a lot of my resistance I experienced during SM has to do with that. Pulling the trigger as well has always been a problem for me and can still be a problem due to some lingering negative thinking and excuse making. All in all a lot of tension has been lifted off of me. My shoulders are more relaxed, anxiety is almost none existant… especially when I can breath properly and seasonal allergies aren’t plagueing me. SM could have been better because I have not had sex the whole time. But now it’s not about sex. It’s about the simple connection with others. I’m more vulnerable to it because of being comfortable with it all. It’s all good basically. I’m ready to continue my journey in this life with the help of subliminals because they are awesome!

All in all SM was awesome. We all change at our own pace. I’m working on putting myself in more social situations and looking for new things to do that involve being around people. Maybe after a second run through of Alpha Male and Sex Magnet none of that will even matter because I’ll be making out with women against walls in the clubs and f$#%kin’ in the bushes. But I could care less. It’s just enjoying my time here and now in whatever way possible. I should conclude this now. SM has just made me like everything more. Forgiveing others.. not taking things too personally. It’s all whatever. I’m just going to do what makes me happy and enjoy the moment as much as I physically and mentally can. Cool cool cool

[Ryan]

This will be the year!

[KeelS]

I dislike writing a lot of stuff but here it goes..
Before beginning Sex Magnet I finished Alpha Male as well as a hand full of other subs. But one thing that continued to plague me is being comfortable in my skin, anxiety, and being a leader. It was all about self control for me and I feel like I have a lot more control over my life now than I ever have. But also I’m more happy and the void in my heart is growing smaller and smaller every day. My anxiety is at an all time low and I feel like I can have any girl I want. The only problem with living in abundance is making a choice. I seem to be significantly more decisive in all things not involving women which is funny so I think a lot of my resistance I experienced during SM has to do with that. Pulling the trigger as well has always been a problem for me and can still be a problem due to some lingering negative thinking and excuse making. All in all a lot of tension has been lifted off of me. My shoulders are more relaxed, anxiety is almost none existant… especially when I can breath properly and seasonal allergies aren’t plagueing me. SM could have been better because I have not had sex the whole time. But now it’s not about sex. It’s about the simple connection with others. I’m more vulnerable to it because of being comfortable with it all. It’s all good basically. I’m ready to continue my journey in this life with the help of subliminals because they are awesome!

All in all SM was awesome. We all change at our own pace. I’m working on putting myself in more social situations and looking for new things to do that involve being around people. Maybe after a second run through of Alpha Male and Sex Magnet none of that will even matter because I’ll be making out with women against walls in the clubs and f$#%kin’ in the bushes. But I could care less. It’s just enjoying my time here and now in whatever way possible. I should conclude this now. SM has just made me like everything more. Forgiveing others.. not taking things too personally. It’s all whatever. I’m just going to do what makes me happy and enjoy the moment as much as I physically and mentally can. Cool cool cool

Interesting. You know after finishing SM I decided to avoid sex unless certain conditions were met. Ironic, since I was propositioned several times during and after set completion and women have been extremely forward with me which almost never used to happen and I've been fairly reclusive during the set. At the beginning of the set I did not have this goal either it was more of an experiment. Now at the end of the experiment my need for it is close to zero, and my pickiness is at an all time high. The second a girl gets to forward in a date I cut it off and don't see her again (the last 3/4 I've left two of which propositioned me). Now a disclaimer about what I'm going to say: I don't think I'm some kind of gods gift to women. I'm not into the whole "game" scene or any of that. But now a woman has to more than ever earn the privilege of sleeping with me. I realize that may sound haughty to some but it goes both ways. I have to earn her respect, trust, and eventually the privilege of sleeping with her as well. When I don't feel a mutual connection of equal self-worths between us I am just not interested in sex anymore and a lot of girls have found this extremely frustrating. They don't understand it's disrespectful, distasteful, and plain offensive when they ask me to have sex with them on the first date. Probably because it's such a reversal from what they're used to.

However, if my goal was to have as much sex as possible, I could have made that decision and I can say this set would definitely have gotten me there.

[Spiral]

It's nice you had certain situations where if you wanted to you could have had it. But for me the fact I have a very minimal social life where I live now and practically no friends I havn't gotten the full effects of the manifestation portion of the subliminal. I'd def. like to make new friends but I don't need friends anymore because everyone is my friend. I would like to make a new best friend in the area though. I'm not sure how I'm going to do that yet considering I don't have any hobbies besides playing drums and watching movies.

[ncbeareatingman]

Read your testimonial Sprial. thats Flippin' awesome Man. I honor all the work you've put into it both A M and S M, and no doubt you'll continue planting goods seeds in yer life just being the 'new you' and devoloping your already 'new consciousness'. MORE POWER TO YA MAN. KEITH

[Shannon]

It's nice you had certain situations where if you wanted to you could have had it. But for me the fact I have a very minimal social life where I live now and practically no friends I havn't gotten the full effects of the manifestation portion of the subliminal. I'd def. like to make new friends but I don't need friends anymore because everyone is my friend. I would like to make a new best friend in the area though. I'm not sure how I'm going to do that yet considering I don't have any hobbies besides playing drums and watching movies.

Take it from me... hiding in a cave is gonna mean the manifestation takes a LOT longer to work.

[enoch]

Forgiving others and not taking things personally must be a really good feeling. Right now for me its like a burden i cant get away from, this feeling.

congrats for finishing sm spiral. may the universe give you what you want.

[KeelS]

I have not had sex the whole time. But now it’s not about sex.

Yeah I was relating to what you said here specifically and got off a bit on a tangent. I'm not saying it's your fault or something, it sounds like you're in a bit of an isolated area. But I haven't had any sex on the title either: and it sounds like that is not either of ours goals anymore. Just sayin you're not alone. Congrats on your journey btw!

[Spiral]

Thanks enoch, ryan, ncbear, and keels for the kind words. And shannon for the winky face.

[Shannon]

Winky face. It's what I do. lol

[KeelS]

Sorry, am I reading this correctly? You previously stated you had women propositioning you during the course of sex magnet. But didn't have sex once during SM?

You got it, I talk about it in my journal a bit. Don't want to hijack Spirals thread

[Spiral]

It's all good. and thanks Ohmygee

[Spiral]

I would also like to mention I wanted to look at some porn the other day. So I did. for literally 2 or 3 minutes. As soon as I opened the first video I was so ADD. I was like.. nope let's try this one... hm.. no how about this one.. Nah. Then I just exited out of the window. I just never had the desire to focus on what I was watching. So SM has successfully eliminated any porn addiction or desire I had for porn.

[The GK]

Spiral,
did you get approached much?

Are you gonna start on other subs right away? I can recommend taking a break for subs. I had a break of 6 weeks between AM and SM, and it was really refreshing. It motivated me to look within myself and I was making progress.