Spiral's Sex Magnet 2011 journal

[RainbowAbyss]

I don't know where Shannon got the resistance to being told what to do but I definitely have that, although I can put it aside when I contextualize why I am doing it, and I have literally the same 'symptoms' you described above. Its so accurate its scary...so I either have similar resistance issues as you, those are issues the set doesn't really cover, they seem more Alpha territory anyway, or the set is designed in a way that makes us effect others in way's we are not quite ready to handle or consciously have to learn to handle as our subconscious brings them about. What I am realizing lately is that I have been projecting my rejection of woman onto their rejection of me..I remember hearing once that any sign of sudden self conscious from woman and then prolonged awareness of that in relation to you is in fact attraction. The 'weird looks' I have been getting I see now is in fact just how most woman, less confident/secure, do it. I kept expecting it puppy dog eyes, slutty prolonged stares, and starry gazes but that shocked look is in fact attraction, and I do get prolonged eye contact/puppy dog eyes/fxxx me eyes from more confident woman. The attention I am getting is also really annoying, less with woman, but with guys its anywhere from annoying to scary and I can feel it physically as a sense of being stared at..I am getting over any real self conciousness about it but it does feel like somebody either wants something, wants to fight, or it just comes across as a social pressure.