01-09-2012, 09:05 AM
I feel better today.
But to answer your question.. I don't know what I want out of life anymore. Things seem uncertain right now regarding music and my current career. I've contemplated going back to school for something completely different but I don't want to do that. But ultimately from life right now and with women I want to be able to relax and enjoy women's company because I know everything else in life is great (but it doesnt seem that way). I want to have sex with lots of gorgeous women and then get a steady girl friend that is attractive but independent and can handle me traveling a lot. She will be there right by my side when I perform on stage with my real drum set with a real band that is comprised of my friends that I find to be good fits for me as a collaborative, creative group. Oh.. and better job security and some more money. I want to be able to go to the gym again and get ripped.
Some of these things are hard to visualize because of the recent troubles of my elbow. I also want to edit films but getting into the industry is challengeing and that's discouraging me alittle bit because I'd probably have to leave my job and try to get small freelance jobs every other month or so in order to get into the film industry. I remain grateful for all the things I have but I just don't seem comfortable being a home body. It's like nothing interests me anymore.
If I could though.. I would quit my job right now.. drive out to Colorado, buy a motorcycle.. ride the mountains and hike them and take pictures and shit. I would do that for the rest of my life.
But to answer your question.. I don't know what I want out of life anymore. Things seem uncertain right now regarding music and my current career. I've contemplated going back to school for something completely different but I don't want to do that. But ultimately from life right now and with women I want to be able to relax and enjoy women's company because I know everything else in life is great (but it doesnt seem that way). I want to have sex with lots of gorgeous women and then get a steady girl friend that is attractive but independent and can handle me traveling a lot. She will be there right by my side when I perform on stage with my real drum set with a real band that is comprised of my friends that I find to be good fits for me as a collaborative, creative group. Oh.. and better job security and some more money. I want to be able to go to the gym again and get ripped.
Some of these things are hard to visualize because of the recent troubles of my elbow. I also want to edit films but getting into the industry is challengeing and that's discouraging me alittle bit because I'd probably have to leave my job and try to get small freelance jobs every other month or so in order to get into the film industry. I remain grateful for all the things I have but I just don't seem comfortable being a home body. It's like nothing interests me anymore.
If I could though.. I would quit my job right now.. drive out to Colorado, buy a motorcycle.. ride the mountains and hike them and take pictures and shit. I would do that for the rest of my life.
"To love completely and hold onto nothing-that is the only freedom." -David Deida
"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
If you would like to get in touch with me, please send me an email.
"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
If you would like to get in touch with me, please send me an email.
