Spiral's Sex Magnet 2011 journal

[Spiral]

Man! I feel unworthy and having a lot of doubts today. However, I'm much more playful and friendly than I have ever been but, the flirting is still toned down compared to stage 1. The unworthiness stems from my lack of self deservedness (obviously) and that's one thing I've had most trouble with in the past so I guess this is expected during a resistance period. Also I'm doubting this program and wondering if it will work for me. I have been a (let's be honest) very needy person my whole life and alot of that stuff is coming up and it really sucks but I'm sure I'll get through it. I just hope by the end of this set I will have my deserving issue dealt with and also be more dominant and self assured but also understanding and friendly. also I don't want to be needy at all. Now that I think about it during the later stages of alpha this wasn't a problem but now since Sex Magnet is addressing this directly and also hyping up my sex drive.. it's quite a wave of emotions.