Spiral's Sex Magnet 2011 journal

[Adam]

I wanted to comment on something. I just read Ben's last entry and he was talking about this blockage when it comes to dealing with women. This 'barrier' he mentioned is something I've become aware of over the past couple of months but it's been really hard to control it sometimes and just let go. I think sex magnet has helped with this immensley. During some of the days or resistance in stage 1 it was terrible. It felt like I could only deal with certain women and/or men. Now, I'm in the moment realizing things for what they are, I could still be more optomistic. BUT when it comes with women and taking things personally, that is no longer an issue. I've been getting these feelings alot off and on.. usually on when there is no resistance and I'm feeling through to the woman and really engaging them with nothing but my presence. I've honed this skill and will make it a habit. It's like the natural way of being. Sometimes it's hard to explain but this sort of feeling allows me to say anything I want to a woman and really not feel negative about it. There have been many times where I will say things and regret it sometimes but it never gets a bad reaction anymore from others. I'm usually the only one reacting bad to it now which is something I have to work on internally. I think this is because of my strong outer frame which allows me to look at my outer reality and let go of things easier. I am positive that these issues will be resolved once I have gone through all of sex magnet.

P.S. This is only after observing what's going on at work. I've known these people for over a year. Now with new woman I do know once I can relax and let them talk then that presence just emanates from my being. No more thinking in my head during interactions. It's illegal

I noticed this at work too. I will post about it my journal as well. I didn't say a word to this girl at all since she started. I finally offered to help her on a project. She normally stood very close to me (about 1.5ft to 3ft on average), but then she was a fraction of an inch in front of me. I wasn't sure how to act since it was at work, and other people were watching. It is starting to get tough staying appropriate =)

I have the "pull the trigger" anxiety for now. If you get it down before me, I'd enjoy some pointers.