07-30-2019, 02:39 PM
Not sure if it’s TID from AM6 (if that can even be experienced with 5G subs), but it feels like my inner alpha is being nurtured, the closer I come to doing the refresher stage. Still running LTU of course, if I’m starting to notice that I’m joking less, withdrawing more and focusing on improving myself in as many ways as possible. It just hit me today that I’ve lost interest in women, even the ones I was talking to (or more). Feeling like I don’t want to be bothered with them except to socialize with for the sake of keeping my social skills sharp; but of course, I’d still put a certain limit to that too.
I feel like I’m starting to become slightly arrogant and also putting myself on a pedestal. I notice that I still treat others well, but I’m not going out of my way to treat others quite as nicely as I was. Even towards the beginning of my journey with LTU, I was no one’s doormat but now it seems I’m prioritizing myself in every way possible. Maybe this isn’t arrogance, maybe it’s just me finally realizing the importance of loving myself.
One thing I will say though is that although I’m starting to feel like I’m growing a bit colder towards people, my charisma still seems to be rising. Jokes have gone from me being a “player” at work to being a “cult leader” and people wanting to be included in the group. This is weird as hell, and I’m not sure if the cause happens to be some type of energy I’m projecting, but it caught me off guard.
Another thing to note is that all day, my voice has sounded deeper and smoother than normal. I also was more succinct with my speech and got straight to the point. Right now I’m pretty much in a IDGAF mood, simply unbothered by anything occurring around me and within me.
I feel like I’m starting to become slightly arrogant and also putting myself on a pedestal. I notice that I still treat others well, but I’m not going out of my way to treat others quite as nicely as I was. Even towards the beginning of my journey with LTU, I was no one’s doormat but now it seems I’m prioritizing myself in every way possible. Maybe this isn’t arrogance, maybe it’s just me finally realizing the importance of loving myself.
One thing I will say though is that although I’m starting to feel like I’m growing a bit colder towards people, my charisma still seems to be rising. Jokes have gone from me being a “player” at work to being a “cult leader” and people wanting to be included in the group. This is weird as hell, and I’m not sure if the cause happens to be some type of energy I’m projecting, but it caught me off guard.
Another thing to note is that all day, my voice has sounded deeper and smoother than normal. I also was more succinct with my speech and got straight to the point. Right now I’m pretty much in a IDGAF mood, simply unbothered by anything occurring around me and within me.
