Sexy Christmas - Ampers&d's DMSI 3.2 B VIDEO Journal

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Round 2, Day 11,

It's weird; I woke up from a short night's sleep and had plenty of energy. After a couple hours of work, that 'high' went away and I felt a feeling that led me to being in a rote routine feeling.

I'm not feeling confident; I was very soft-spoken today. I should take a nap and see what happens.

EDIT: I'm glad I took a quick nap. I had a good writing day; some copy/pasting when it comes to research methods.
But, I wrote 3,880 words. That makes a total of 108.4K. I'll likely be finishing this first draft by the end of the week.

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Round 2, Day 13,

Hit 110K words and decided to finish my first draft at this point. Was running out of ideas.
Started a 58-book book list. Visited my university library on the drive back from work; picked up about 10 books. Finished an easier one (I read it for book I, but for different reasons), and am 1/4 of the way through book #2. I think this will go pretty smoothly.

Am being offered a 5th workday; can only start after Easter, though.

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Round 2, Day 14,

Slept in, but went to work feeling good about my productivity for most of the hours I was there. Then, the internet went out, and I couldn't finish my work. I had to get it done at home.

It's been my second day with my book list, and I've finished 2.5 books. These are shorter books. I might start trailing later in this book list if I don't develop a good system to capture what I really need. I probably can't finish a technical 500-page book in the 2.5-3.0 hours I have after work, but that's okay. I'm committed to finishing this book, and I'll work until it's finished. I assume that if I'm a bit more disciplined than for the last list, then I'll be done with this book before July arrives. I have more time, fewer stressors, and fewer constraints. I don't plan on taking trips or taking on major work projects, so I'll have fewer forfeited days.

But, my book list is twice as long at this time. I'll see if I can knock off two or three shorter books tomorrow.

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Round 2, Day 15 (off),

NEW VIDEO: After Round 2:
https://youtu.be/jPZfsHfWGbo

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Round 3, Day 1,

I legitimately read and notated two books today. Well, more like 1.5 books. Each was about 200 pages, and so I did about 300-325 pages. That makes 6 books in 4 days; my book list is about 60 books, but that will change soon.

For some reason, I'm looking at CPA salaries. I realize that it would be tons of work, but it would be 140K ish per year, with more money depending on the sector.

However, actually working for the money would be a massive time commitment, with loads of stress every 3 months.

Part of me wants to figure out passive income so that (i) I can supplement my actual work income and (ii) I can fund a trip to other countries while still getting paid.
I don't mind doing freelance. I'll be looking at options once I finish writing this book series.

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Stage 3, Day 2,

I sat and read a 500 page book from start to finish, and I've begun a new book and reached about 125 pages (out of 500). That's 7 books in 5 days, and this new book is my 8th. I've got 3 books left unread from the library. I'll have to order more library books once I'm back there on Wednesday afternoon.

I'm developing this inner dark side; it's a kind of anger about where an unfair fight would take me. I don't carry weapons with me, but if I'm going to be jumped by 5 people, then I'd go nuclear. I want to take Muay Thai again. LOL might also be due to playing MGTOW and other despair type videos in the background while reading these books.

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Stage 3, Day 3,

Slept right through both my alarms; I apparently slept through the first one and shut off the second one without remembering. I wound up working an extra 1.5 hours in order to get fully caught up at work. I hit a point in which I zoned out, but I figured it out. I read another 125 pages from this book, despite not having ideal amounts of focus today.

A young blonde woman, who I'd been seeing around work, crossed my path twice and introduced herself. She's alright; doesn't have a body that I'm particularly thrilled about. Oh well, it's something.

Nothing else in terms of results though.

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Stage 3, Day 5,

My two days on the work trip; both days I felt panicked and very stressed. Then, when I left the second site, I felt better immediately. I felt the stress in needing to 'up my game'. I think I've figured out a way to tweak my messaging in order to be more effective.

I have this idea to increase my productivity, but it would involve reaching out a programmer. Could possibly be done for a few hundred bucks, but would save me a couple of hours each day if it works well.

I'm going in for a partial day, which I don't even need to do, but for maintenance work, and then I'll leave to drive home for Easter.

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Stage 3 (A), Day 7,

Has it already been 7 days? I think I switched to A partway through, but it's mostly been A.
In any case, I was WAY too tired to comment yesterday. I didn't even realize it until I slept 12 hours.

I'm not able to read the AJ Ayer book right now; it's very abstract and tense, I'm staying somewhere where it's hard to focus upon. I finished Marcus Aurelius's book; that makes 9 books in about 11 days.

I'll soon get my grounding panel to help nail my sleep. If it's inconsistent, then I'm buying the Sleep and Awakener subliminals to throw on top of that. If I still can't wake up reliably, I'm buying a sunlight alarm clock.

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Stage 3 (A), Day 9,

Yesterday, I was feeling very woozy and tired, and wasn't able to catch a full breath.
Drove back home after the holidays; finished a book.
I need to strap myself down and start reading the AJ Ayer book, dammit.

What's it been, 40 days? No real sign that this is working yet.

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Also worth mentioning; I've felt emotionally fragile today, but I've been feeling more of this spiritual gravitas, if that makes any sense.

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I tried the Sleep Induction aid for 5 hours worth of loops. I meant to sleep 6 hours, but I overslept and slept almost 7 hours. I definitely heard the loop start over (so over 30 minutes to fall asleep). And I was very drowsy at work; however, was decently productive.

In fairness, the day before was eventful, externally and internally.
Will try it again tonight.

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Stage 3(A), Day 10,

Tiring day at work, though productive. I managed to get through the AJ Ayer book. I will have to re-read it once I put my finishing touches on the entire trilogy. That will warrant its own booklist.

I was sexually harassed at work, by someone old, with a mental disease, and in a wheelchair, so it's not really that bad. Wasn't in any danger.

Helped a friend with an acting audition. It's much more fashionable to submit a tape instead of attending an audition.

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Stage 3(A), Day 13,

I'm almost done my first 5-day week. My first day with this new site went really well; there's a lot of work to do though. Hello, extra money.

I've been using the Sleep Induction tool; it's my third or fourth time using it, and although my first time using it did not go smoother, I've had a good night's sleep two nights ago, and a great night's sleep last night. Last night was on 7.5 hours, which is a bit longer than usual. I've had calm and focused energy all day at my new job. Normally, at a new site, I'm drained of energy partway through the day, due to the novelty. I drove home feeling great as well.

My grounding panel also came in the mail; it's laid across my bed, and plugged into the grounding portion of the wall plug. This should also better my night's sleep. Once I nail 'falling asleep' and my night's sleep, I'll be willing to jump into bed at a reliable time, and be able to nail my morning ritual each day.