04-22-2015, 12:43 PM
Stage 5, Day 15
Well, been a while since I posted so I thought I should update. I guess I should get to the bad news first. As far as external results, I've gotten nothing this stage and therefore I'm not expecting much for when I get to stage 6 to be honest. The good news though is that I seem to get pretty much all of the internal results from this sub (except the actual desire to socialize though I do it stress free now). I'm less concerned with women now and rather work on developing myself more than ever. I can admire a woman for her beauty but at the same time have no neediness at all. I also noticed something that I remember AfzalG mentioning in another thread. I've kinda of wanted to become more cold or distant with a women relationship wise. I don't know if this is resistance or me just not wanting to be in a relationship and it turning out to be too "clingy". I'm just more interested in pratical matters at the moment. Anyway, the only thing I can think of that is keeping me from getting any external results is some kinda of deep rooted fear or shame that is stopping the manifestations from happening. I know based on my experience (from AM6 and WM) that I have no trouble manifesting things but when it comes to manifesting relationships I believe something is blocking me for some reason. I know it wasn't lack of Alpha attributes because I checked the AM6 product description when I was close to the end and I had like 95% of the things listed. So, the only thing I can think of is that some type of fear is stopping me in this regards.
As for future sub use, since I haven't gotten any manifestation so far I'm not even going to try for a AYP sub. It would seem like a waste of time given my experience so far. So, I will be doing EPRHA(6months)>LTU(6months)>AM6 (1 year) as the foreseeable rotation.
Well, been a while since I posted so I thought I should update. I guess I should get to the bad news first. As far as external results, I've gotten nothing this stage and therefore I'm not expecting much for when I get to stage 6 to be honest. The good news though is that I seem to get pretty much all of the internal results from this sub (except the actual desire to socialize though I do it stress free now). I'm less concerned with women now and rather work on developing myself more than ever. I can admire a woman for her beauty but at the same time have no neediness at all. I also noticed something that I remember AfzalG mentioning in another thread. I've kinda of wanted to become more cold or distant with a women relationship wise. I don't know if this is resistance or me just not wanting to be in a relationship and it turning out to be too "clingy". I'm just more interested in pratical matters at the moment. Anyway, the only thing I can think of that is keeping me from getting any external results is some kinda of deep rooted fear or shame that is stopping the manifestations from happening. I know based on my experience (from AM6 and WM) that I have no trouble manifesting things but when it comes to manifesting relationships I believe something is blocking me for some reason. I know it wasn't lack of Alpha attributes because I checked the AM6 product description when I was close to the end and I had like 95% of the things listed. So, the only thing I can think of is that some type of fear is stopping me in this regards.
As for future sub use, since I haven't gotten any manifestation so far I'm not even going to try for a AYP sub. It would seem like a waste of time given my experience so far. So, I will be doing EPRHA(6months)>LTU(6months)>AM6 (1 year) as the foreseeable rotation.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche