Seduction Wars- Episode 1 (Women Magnet)(Complete)(Update)

[DarthXedonias]

Stage 3, Day 6.

Been meaning to post earlier but had to get a better idea of how to describe what this stage is doing. I haven't felt much change with this stage so far but I have noticed a few things. The biggest thing that I've noticed is that I have become more "sensitive" to various emotions. For example, I took a quiz earlier this week and as soon as it started I soon was gripped by this fear and anxiety that came out of no where. It kept on causing me to freeze up at times. Certain feelings will also show themselves when I'm thinking over something, whereas before I would be able to think about those same things while being very "detached". This sensitivity goes for positive feelings as well but the negative (Fear, loneliness, anxiety,etc) ones stick out more because I haven't felt most of them in months. I remember in some other WM journals that people usually start crying a lot in this stage. Haven't had any of that yet (Probably due to my strong beliefs concerning crying) but like I said definitely feel the increase sensitivity to emotions.

Women wise, not much really happening on that front. The only thing I have noticed is that my views towards blond's has changed. Before, I really didn't find blond women all that attractive. I couldn't see why people kept talking about blond women as though they were the hottest thing on earth. Towards the end of Stage 2 and the beginning of stage 3, I find them really attractive for some reason. I really don't know what happened there. Its like if a blond woman walks in the room she automatically gets my attention now, most of the time. I can only think that I had some previous programming dealing with Blond women and that is why I found them to be a turn off. Once that programming died though, I found them to be very attractive.

Besides that though, women have been less and less on my mind lately. I went back and listened to the audio book for "The 33 laws of war" by Thomas greene. This is my 3rd time reading a book of his and it has really been sinking in. There was one paragraph that really got to me though and made me sit down and re-prioritize my objectives.

"Every day you face battles--that is the reality for all creatures in their
struggle to survive. But the greatest battle of all is with
yourself--your weaknesses, your emotions, your lack
of resolution in seeing things through to the end. You must declare unceasing war on yourself. As a warrior in life, you welcome combat and conflict as ways to prove yourself, to better your skills, to gain courage, confidence, and experience. Instead of repressing your doubts and fears, you must face them down, do battle with them. You want more challenges, and you invite more war. You are forging the warrior's spirit, and only constant practice will lead you there."

After going through like half of the book, I realized that the most important thing to me right now is self development and becoming self-actualized. All other things come after that fact.


Sub wise, I'm still debating what to do after WM. I can either go with my original plan of SM or do a AYP sub until I get the desired results. I admit though, I'm leaning back to doing a AYP again just because WM has brought up a lot of discontent concerning the state of women around me. I find so many of them uninteresting, boring, and riddled with insecurities about various things. I'm finding nowadays that I really like highly confident, Alpha type women. If the woman doesn't see herself like how I see myself (confidant, high value, etc) then I get turned off pretty quickly. I could see either sub helping me with my self development. SM because of the increase confidence, lack of neediness and several other things in the various stages. The AYP sub because it would actually help me get more experience with women which would be valuable and a reference for when I start SM soon after that. I'm also thinking about doing the Wealthy Romantic lover set earlier instead of doing the 5G Sexual lover set. I'm thinking about that because I feel like a Wealthy Romantic lover (who I might move in with or eventually marry) might help out more than just a "Mistress" who I see every day for marathon sex. If I had my way, I would spend my time on nothing but having new experiences and Self- development over the next 2 to 3 years. Though because of various things (mainly finances to maintain my current living standards) I can't do that right now. I would like everyone's opinion though. If you were to choose between the two AYP subs, which would you choose to run? What would your reasons be for choosing a particular one?